can't seem to float through these feelings..

CAlfonso · Post by **CAlfonso** » Mon Jul 27, 2009 5:04 am

Well last few weeks has been really wierd to me. It seems as though there is a gray cloud hovering over me. I know it's not anything serious or severely depressing. I know for sure it isn't positive or uplifting. I've just been at this low level of energy for quite some time now and it's starting to really bug me now. I want this cloud to stop hovering me so I can focus on getting better. Floating seemed okay for a little bit but it's scares me that I'm not over this yet. I've slowed down in progress dramatically and even skipped a few days of the program. Right now I'm beginning session 7 which deals with assertiveness. I really feel like I'm not quite at that stage but I jus keep pushing on. God please help. Any comments, anything contructive would be really helpful. I am open for almost anything....

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jul 27, 2009 9:42 am

Don't put a time-frame on how fast you are recovering. The minute you do that you are judging your experience. Don't do that. We all work at our own pace. When you find you are upset because of where you are (or aren't) at, just say "judging" and return to your present moment. You will not be recovered by tape 15 but you will have all the tools to help you continue to recovery. Be patient. It will come.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jul 27, 2009 11:47 am

Thanks Boon. I like the quote which relates to the present moment.

This cloud is annoying me and I just feel like Im allowing it to bug the crap out of me. What's the difference between acceptance of a negative feeling/situation and allowing it to ruin your day. It sounds almost the same. I've floated long enough....