why all the worry
why is it that we worry so much about things we cannot control. like death it happens to everyopne but i have ahd times where i obbssess about it and other times its just what your kids are doing or are they safe or . is anxiety going to take over my life. I worry about medicines and i worrry about everyone else also this is nto just selfish dises to me. My bad anxiety started in febuary when i had gotten really sick which i though was sick(but could have been anxiety) I was weak and kept getting hot and cold flashes then i was constantly get eye floaters in my eyes and feeling off balance all this toghther and i got a virrus right after this my doc put me on 2 anitobiotics thinking it was just and infeaction and away i went i was sleeping all night then i would sleep half the day and whenever i got up i was shaking liek iw as weak everday. i kind of lost my appetite but ate some which i cannot oaford because im undeweigh anyway. about a month or so i was still feeling this way doc ordered lots of tests bloood and throat and stool and urine and ultra sounds and i made my way to emergency quite a few times for more blood work. then one day igot up one morning and i was feeeling really off balance andi could not breath so i paniced and i kept telling my friend i was going to pass out but i didnt that whole day i suffered like i could nto breath. then comes the doctor again by this time when i hit her office i was a bundle of shakes and rapid heart beating i told what had happened she figure before i had fibromialga she decided i ened an anit depressant so she put me on effexor and boy iw as scared cause i read those side affects anyhow regardless it didnt work for me cause it cause my ehart to beat so much more and it was not for me. she decided to keep me on the ativan which helps a little but not much and then i went back a week later and she gave me paxil well in my mind i thought that the paxil was making me tingly and stuff but it was the anxiety that was doing so so i stopped the paxil only 2 days after. so the doc at the hospital(yes iw ent back to the hospital ) told me to just stay on the ativan. my nest panic attack happened when i was on my way to the city to get a ct scan but well before i even hit the sccan i was hyperviligant . iw as so scared we stopped at walmart and my aunt left me to do something and i felt like i was walking on air and everyone looked so blurry and i kept calling for my aut i sat down on a bench and beagan to breath easy and got up again i was trying not to let it get to me as soon as my aunt came it got a little better. then i go tto the ct scan and have neevr had one of these so iw as bit scared and still a bit dioriented about the wallmart insident. I lay there my heart was pounding and i was starting all over again i thought about my kidsas i went through it which helped me alot at the time. my concerns are really do i ened medication or could i do this on my own // so many quesrtions u have for yourself when your going through something like this. as well i started to stay home alot but i still anxious at home but feared i would drop somewhere of passout somewhere which frightens me img iving these anti depressants a try and hoping to get off the ativan in few weeks cause im not suire if its the anxiety or the pillls making me feel so off balance. one major good thing is i have not has any bas side affects with these meds i seem to feel the same my ehart pounds still but i think the ativan is helping keep that at bay io still get the tinglys but i chose to ignore them. i made it out grocery shopping today and i was so offbalance but i kept saying its anxiety and iot seemed to help keep me from going futher into a an attack. im wroking on doing things to make myseklf feel better but it seems like right now all my thoughts are centered on waht is going on with me i try to direct them somewhere elses but it comes back. i have been using the relaxing tape and i aslo have a nighttime meditation book and a friends hand to lean on. let em tell you people we are all brave souls and we will make it through this with the help of others and the knowlegde we all know you know like that credit card commercial red t shirt 20$ blue sneakers 30$ Beating Anxiety and panic disorder PRICLESS IF ANYONE WANTS TO ALK IM HERE I WOULD APPRECIATE ANYONE TO CHAT WITH WHO FEELS THE SAME AS I DO BECAUSE PEOPLE WHO DO NOT GO THROUGH THIS TRY TO UNDERSTAND BUT THEY JUST DO NOT UNDERSTAND REALLY
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Hi Selly,
I know exactly what you are going through. I've had the pounding heart driving down the road & then decided that I couldn't drive any further, so I'd call hubby to come pick me up & take me to the doc.
I've been in & out of the hospital 3-4 times since November. They did find that I have a leaky heart valve - which is very, very common and not life-threatening.
June 14th, 2007 I was so strong & courageous, I donated my right kidney to my bro-in-law. The tests, phsycologist exam, bloodwork, etc.... did not scare me at all. The actual surgery did not scare me either. At the same time I was in the hospital, my Uncle with whom I was very close to & lived with for a few years ended up being airlifted to the same hospital. I was there for 3 days & released to go home. He was there for 2 1/2 weeks & passed away.
So, for me - I believe a lot of my anxiety comes from extremely mixed emotions and I'm not sure how to deal with them. I was very happy & proud that the kidney surgery went so well for both of us --- yet at the same time I was extremely heartbroken that my Uncle would no longer be here. It still tears me up inside & it's been almost 2 years. I often ask myself WHY? Why would God let me save a life & then take a life that is close & precious to me?
This is only for God to know & I understand that - it's just a difficulty that I need to learn to deal with & it's very, very hard for me. As if I shouldn't celebrate or be proud that I donated a kidney. It gets confusing for me, but I will survive & God will pull me through it.
My first panic attack was about 4 months after the surgery. I didn't know what it was, or why it was happening to me. On my daughter's 1st birthday (Nov.2007) I ended up in the ER with a pounding heart, feeling dizzy, disoriented & basically scared out of my wits!! That's when they told me they couldn't find anything wrong & I needed to follow-up with my PCP.
Needless to say, it took a few visits to determine that I was having panic-anxiety attacks. I no longer have panic attacks, but deal with generalized anxiety (GAD) most of each day. It is getting better though. You will get better too. Now that you know what it is...you may not know what causes them all the time, but at least you know it's a panic attack & that you will not die from it.
If you ever need to chat & you have yahoo - my username for messenger is cracie_fl -- or my email is cracie_fl@yahoo.com
Sorry it's so long, I just thought I'd share my story a little.
I know exactly what you are going through. I've had the pounding heart driving down the road & then decided that I couldn't drive any further, so I'd call hubby to come pick me up & take me to the doc.
I've been in & out of the hospital 3-4 times since November. They did find that I have a leaky heart valve - which is very, very common and not life-threatening.
June 14th, 2007 I was so strong & courageous, I donated my right kidney to my bro-in-law. The tests, phsycologist exam, bloodwork, etc.... did not scare me at all. The actual surgery did not scare me either. At the same time I was in the hospital, my Uncle with whom I was very close to & lived with for a few years ended up being airlifted to the same hospital. I was there for 3 days & released to go home. He was there for 2 1/2 weeks & passed away.
So, for me - I believe a lot of my anxiety comes from extremely mixed emotions and I'm not sure how to deal with them. I was very happy & proud that the kidney surgery went so well for both of us --- yet at the same time I was extremely heartbroken that my Uncle would no longer be here. It still tears me up inside & it's been almost 2 years. I often ask myself WHY? Why would God let me save a life & then take a life that is close & precious to me?
This is only for God to know & I understand that - it's just a difficulty that I need to learn to deal with & it's very, very hard for me. As if I shouldn't celebrate or be proud that I donated a kidney. It gets confusing for me, but I will survive & God will pull me through it.
My first panic attack was about 4 months after the surgery. I didn't know what it was, or why it was happening to me. On my daughter's 1st birthday (Nov.2007) I ended up in the ER with a pounding heart, feeling dizzy, disoriented & basically scared out of my wits!! That's when they told me they couldn't find anything wrong & I needed to follow-up with my PCP.
Needless to say, it took a few visits to determine that I was having panic-anxiety attacks. I no longer have panic attacks, but deal with generalized anxiety (GAD) most of each day. It is getting better though. You will get better too. Now that you know what it is...you may not know what causes them all the time, but at least you know it's a panic attack & that you will not die from it.
If you ever need to chat & you have yahoo - my username for messenger is cracie_fl -- or my email is cracie_fl@yahoo.com
Sorry it's so long, I just thought I'd share my story a little.