rollcoaster of emotions

Corinna Lee · Post by **Corinna Lee** » Sat Mar 21, 2009 3:13 pm

So today I woke up feeling anxious, but I went outside and worked in the garden to calm myself down. My mom wanted to go shopping so I drove her and I felt a panic attack coming on and the place is only 10 min away. I made it there and worked through the attack! I was so proud of myself, I felt like a rockstar! Then we were leaving the parking lot, my boyfriend called and wanted to hang out. He lives half hour away which is out of my comfort zone. Ive been there a few times but every time I had a bad attack and he had to come get me like halfway cuz I felt I couldn't make it any further. He's come here the past 3 or four times, but tonight he said he will only hang out if I go there. It was like he was giving me an ultimatum. This upset me soooo bad and I got so anxious and started crying. He thinks this is all an act I've been putting on so I don't have to go to his house. My family gets frustrated with me and now him too. Why don't people understand this isn't the way we want to act or live our lives???? My comforting talk helped a little but it's hard when people kick u when ur down and u get no support it seems like.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Mar 22, 2009 2:07 am

Hi Corinna Lee,

Can you have your boyfriend listen to the stuff from the StressCenter.com for the partners or spouses of people who are going thru this?

Or there is a great book called "freedom from fear" by Dr. Howard Leibgold that explains it well. I got mine at a local bookstore.

It is very hard when people think you should just ignore it or pull yourself up by your bootstraps. Like.. you would help yourself and change if you knew how. Duh.

Don't let those other people's opinions of you color your opinion of yourself. You are on the right path. Just stick to it and work it. You never know how long it will take but it's better than being stuck in the mud and doing nothing.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Mar 22, 2009 6:24 am

thanks newrunner. I think I'm gonna ask my boyfriend and my family to read and listen to that stuff. He doesn't understand why I can't seem to drive a half hour, alone, on very busy highways to get to his house. I'm trying to tell him it's out of my comfort zone right now but I'm working on it. I'm kind of ok going to places close to my house that are at most 10 min away, but he thinks I'm just being selfish not wanting to go to his out and making him come to me. I won't let this stop me from continuing the program though. I will get better little by little

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Mar 26, 2009 12:23 pm

yes, i would say thats the hardest thing, is having people understand this...to them its no big deal to go drive, or go to the mall..and after a few months, they ask you must be better now right? so its hard...so keep ur head up and keep pushing on..