Hello All,
I have logged on to this site about 2 years ago or so and just never did anything with it and sort of gave up myself. But now so much has changed in my life on the past 6 mos. I am a small business owner and my wife had to go back to work as a school teach and I am sitting here shaking trying to be productive and I really could not think of where to turn. I decided to start writing a journal today just to get some of my feeling out there. I have cut and pasted it below. I kow a lot of you are going throught the same things and was looking for some people to talk to to hopefully get my head on straight. I dont know if this is the right place for that or not but I figured I would give it a try. -its at least a start-
I dropped off Mia and Regan this morning and as I knelt down to give Mia a hug and Kiss she said “have a great day daddy” I could barely keep my self from crying just to get to my truck and burst into tears. I don’t exactly know why that hit me so hard. Maybe it is a culmination of things. I have been drinking too much I am worried about everything in life and I hate bringing my kids to a daycare center. I don’t feel like I am doing what I am supposed to be doing as a dad and husband. I am way in debt I feel like I am all alone and treading water, all I want to do is be with my kids. Maybe it’s a sign to me that she is getting older…and I don’t want that to happen. Mia turns 3 on Saturday and I just want her to stay little. As I write this it is difficult to keep my composure. I need to turn things around. I know that somewhere deep inside of me I am a winner and have the ability to get things done but I feel so helpless and almost woe is me… Maybe today is the turning point-thanks to Mia. Have a great day daddy.
Newbie
4thrlz,
I really empathize with how you are feel. many people would call these feeling guilt. I call them a blessing.
I can picture your little girl as God and the face of God. She is telling you that she loves you. Have a great day daddy. Look at it this way: When you close out a letter to set your signature it would like this:
Sincerely,
4thrilz
What your Mia is saying in a signature to her letter is:
Have a great day, I love you,
Daddy
I completely understand if you think me nuts. It might be a natural thing for people caught up in the worries and concerns of the world. I read your topic opener, and God put this in my hear to share with you.
1) God is
2) God Loves
What I also see in this, your heart felt plea is a sense of conviction that has been put on you. I don't really know why you have this sense of sadness except for what I mention above.
What I want to tell you is that God has so much more that he want to give you. He wants to give you a sense of peace that will help you go about your day, happy in the knowledge that you get to understand that He loves you enough to die for you and cleanse you completely of any further guilt. He wants you to live a life that abundant and full of His Peace and His Joy. All you have to do incline your ear and listen intently to His still small voice, otherwise you will miss His calling you to give you that sense of freedom that only His word can give you. Once you understand, you will know. No matter what I go through, it is all going to be okay.
At this moment, just think of that sweet embrace you gave your little girl, and you know in your heart how much you love her, you will have to think about how much more God loves you, if you can even come close to the possibility of comprehending those feelings, it just blows you away.
You can email me, you can call me, or I can call you. I would like to explain more to you about this blessed assurances as God has revealed them to me, and why I believe He can do the same for you.
No philosophical debate, just a ministering from a force that is incomprehensible to human understanding, but I will grope, as best as I can to share this with you or anyone that is willing to even consider the possibilities.
I really empathize with how you are feel. many people would call these feeling guilt. I call them a blessing.
I can picture your little girl as God and the face of God. She is telling you that she loves you. Have a great day daddy. Look at it this way: When you close out a letter to set your signature it would like this:
Sincerely,
4thrilz
What your Mia is saying in a signature to her letter is:
Have a great day, I love you,
Daddy
I completely understand if you think me nuts. It might be a natural thing for people caught up in the worries and concerns of the world. I read your topic opener, and God put this in my hear to share with you.
1) God is
2) God Loves
What I also see in this, your heart felt plea is a sense of conviction that has been put on you. I don't really know why you have this sense of sadness except for what I mention above.
What I want to tell you is that God has so much more that he want to give you. He wants to give you a sense of peace that will help you go about your day, happy in the knowledge that you get to understand that He loves you enough to die for you and cleanse you completely of any further guilt. He wants you to live a life that abundant and full of His Peace and His Joy. All you have to do incline your ear and listen intently to His still small voice, otherwise you will miss His calling you to give you that sense of freedom that only His word can give you. Once you understand, you will know. No matter what I go through, it is all going to be okay.
At this moment, just think of that sweet embrace you gave your little girl, and you know in your heart how much you love her, you will have to think about how much more God loves you, if you can even come close to the possibility of comprehending those feelings, it just blows you away.
You can email me, you can call me, or I can call you. I would like to explain more to you about this blessed assurances as God has revealed them to me, and why I believe He can do the same for you.
No philosophical debate, just a ministering from a force that is incomprehensible to human understanding, but I will grope, as best as I can to share this with you or anyone that is willing to even consider the possibilities.
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Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves...
who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are we not to be? --Unknown
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Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves...
who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?
Actually, who are we not to be? --Unknown
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Gman,
Thank you for the response and insights. There was a time when I was young that I swear I heard God speak to me. I am a religious man but focus more on the tangebles in life-such as money, kids, house, job. My wife and I often say we need to go to church and never do. Dont get me wrong I am a christian but not too in tune with God at the moment and really think that I need to figure things out inside first.
I see your in the DC area-me too. It must be the region....HAHA
My kids are everythign to me and my vices are just gettign out of control along with the economy things just pretty much suck. But I am trying a new philosophy. H.f.u.
I truly appreciate your feedback.
4
Thank you for the response and insights. There was a time when I was young that I swear I heard God speak to me. I am a religious man but focus more on the tangebles in life-such as money, kids, house, job. My wife and I often say we need to go to church and never do. Dont get me wrong I am a christian but not too in tune with God at the moment and really think that I need to figure things out inside first.
I see your in the DC area-me too. It must be the region....HAHA
My kids are everythign to me and my vices are just gettign out of control along with the economy things just pretty much suck. But I am trying a new philosophy. H.f.u.
I truly appreciate your feedback.
4
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Hi,
Thank you for you reply. I was also where you stand not even 2 months ago. I was also feeling the urge to get back into my prayer life. From a very personal point of view, I can tell you that I also heard the voice of God. It was after I got back into the prayer life I once had, and had forsaken or just took a break from it.
The problem for all of us, truly comes when we replace what we know to be the truth. It is the truth that sets us free, from the worries and anxieties of the world, and we depart from that child like faith and innocence.
Moreover, because our connection to God is dependent on our intentful listening to that still small voice that tells us He is God, and we reject it in pursuit of the riches of the world; the price of that is more worry and anxiety than we can handle.
Just think how much more successful you would be if you didn't bridle yourself, to worldly successes, and the associated worry, and certain to follow, anxiety to the world's concept of success. Does it really mean anything anyway?
Do you think the value of the world and its riches surpass or even compare with the riches that He has in store for us?
If you heard the voice of the Lord, read carefully what you wrote please let me have a little leeway with your statement:
I am certain about several things:
1) His word is everlasting and timeless
2) His promise to us is His promise and it's certainty is guaranteed and is incomparable
My question to you then is: by what philosophy are you banking your promised share of eternal life?
Yes, I know this is a very penetrating question. This is no joke, this is about your life, your happiness, and that of everything that follows or flows from your life.
Your life is playing out in front of me as the story of the rich young man that asked: what do I have to do to enter the kingdom of heaven? To wit, the response was: sell all of your possessions and give all the money to the poor. That's when the young man walked away perplexed because he was a good man but he had much wealth.
What choices we all have to confront! Seems unfair.
It is true, when confronted with choices like this, it is very troubling, but look at what you have to gain versus what you may lose.
I am not saying that you are a rich man, or that you run out and sell everything and really neither was it the intention in the example.
He wants to give you His peace. His peace surpasses everything you could possibly think of owning. It is food for the soul. It is comfort and rest for the body. I is confidence for the mind.
If you understand and operate in this positive mindset; there is no barrier that He would not take down for you, and no success that he would deny to you. You know the and understand.
If your children ask you for food, would you feed them poison? How much more would our righteous heavenly Father do for us to make us happy?
Even this is explained in the object lesson and I am sure you know that. So cast your worries and concerns of the world upon his broad shoulders. His yoke is easy. No stress and no strain. It is only fear that is holding you back. Fear of the unknown that concerns you. But if you truly heard His voice, why would you be in fear of anything?
This is nothing new. Look at what Solomon said about this, start at verse 18-25:
http://www.holybible.com/resou...clesiastes&Chapter=2
Take a look in the mirror in the light of the truth. There is nothing more, you can say or do. God loves you more, he created you. You are His treasure. Is it, or can I say, it any plainer or simpler than that?
Here it is in song listen intently to hear that still small voice:
http://www.stevencurtischapman...enintherealworld.htm
As you listen to Mountain, and I believe you when you say that you heard the voice. The worry, for all of us, it seems coming down from the mountain to have to contend with the worries of the world, but then look at how craftily woven this is as the very next song He tells you that you are His treasure, and realize that you never really leave His mountain.
Can it possibly be any more loving and beautiful than that?
I hope I cracked a smile on your face.
Listen, I gave it to you straight, and I want you to understand I am telling you this in brotherly love. I will be here to help you and many others for as long as God allows me to keep striving to help those that want help.
I realize every deck has at least 2 Jokers, I just discard Jokers. Especially if civility is not in them. What about you?
I am no joke, I am as serious as a heart attack.
I will pray for you and your loved ones and pray that if I hurt you in any way, I am deeply sorry. I know how painful peeling scabs can be, but you know what, it really helps in the healing process.
I do hope this discussion helps you pinpoint just where things may have gone wrong and help you to move forward with a confident step forward in your stride. God bless you.
Thank you for you reply. I was also where you stand not even 2 months ago. I was also feeling the urge to get back into my prayer life. From a very personal point of view, I can tell you that I also heard the voice of God. It was after I got back into the prayer life I once had, and had forsaken or just took a break from it.
The problem for all of us, truly comes when we replace what we know to be the truth. It is the truth that sets us free, from the worries and anxieties of the world, and we depart from that child like faith and innocence.
Moreover, because our connection to God is dependent on our intentful listening to that still small voice that tells us He is God, and we reject it in pursuit of the riches of the world; the price of that is more worry and anxiety than we can handle.
Just think how much more successful you would be if you didn't bridle yourself, to worldly successes, and the associated worry, and certain to follow, anxiety to the world's concept of success. Does it really mean anything anyway?
Do you think the value of the world and its riches surpass or even compare with the riches that He has in store for us?
If you heard the voice of the Lord, read carefully what you wrote please let me have a little leeway with your statement:
In that statement, it is clear where your concerns are. First what can any of us do about the state of the economy? Next, I don't want to seem to be too pointed or insensitive in my observations, but you did say you heard the voice of God:my vices are just gettign out of control along with the economy things just pretty much suck. But I am trying a new philosophy. H.f.u.
I am sure you did, but did you think that message or His voice speaking to you was meant for just that moment in time?There was a time when I was young that I swear I heard God speak to me.
I am certain about several things:
1) His word is everlasting and timeless
2) His promise to us is His promise and it's certainty is guaranteed and is incomparable
My question to you then is: by what philosophy are you banking your promised share of eternal life?
Yes, I know this is a very penetrating question. This is no joke, this is about your life, your happiness, and that of everything that follows or flows from your life.
Your life is playing out in front of me as the story of the rich young man that asked: what do I have to do to enter the kingdom of heaven? To wit, the response was: sell all of your possessions and give all the money to the poor. That's when the young man walked away perplexed because he was a good man but he had much wealth.
What choices we all have to confront! Seems unfair.
It is true, when confronted with choices like this, it is very troubling, but look at what you have to gain versus what you may lose.
I am not saying that you are a rich man, or that you run out and sell everything and really neither was it the intention in the example.
He wants to give you His peace. His peace surpasses everything you could possibly think of owning. It is food for the soul. It is comfort and rest for the body. I is confidence for the mind.
If you understand and operate in this positive mindset; there is no barrier that He would not take down for you, and no success that he would deny to you. You know the and understand.
If your children ask you for food, would you feed them poison? How much more would our righteous heavenly Father do for us to make us happy?
Even this is explained in the object lesson and I am sure you know that. So cast your worries and concerns of the world upon his broad shoulders. His yoke is easy. No stress and no strain. It is only fear that is holding you back. Fear of the unknown that concerns you. But if you truly heard His voice, why would you be in fear of anything?
This is nothing new. Look at what Solomon said about this, start at verse 18-25:
http://www.holybible.com/resou...clesiastes&Chapter=2
Take a look in the mirror in the light of the truth. There is nothing more, you can say or do. God loves you more, he created you. You are His treasure. Is it, or can I say, it any plainer or simpler than that?
Here it is in song listen intently to hear that still small voice:
http://www.stevencurtischapman...enintherealworld.htm
As you listen to Mountain, and I believe you when you say that you heard the voice. The worry, for all of us, it seems coming down from the mountain to have to contend with the worries of the world, but then look at how craftily woven this is as the very next song He tells you that you are His treasure, and realize that you never really leave His mountain.
Can it possibly be any more loving and beautiful than that?
I hope I cracked a smile on your face.
Listen, I gave it to you straight, and I want you to understand I am telling you this in brotherly love. I will be here to help you and many others for as long as God allows me to keep striving to help those that want help.
I realize every deck has at least 2 Jokers, I just discard Jokers. Especially if civility is not in them. What about you?
I am no joke, I am as serious as a heart attack.
I will pray for you and your loved ones and pray that if I hurt you in any way, I am deeply sorry. I know how painful peeling scabs can be, but you know what, it really helps in the healing process.
I do hope this discussion helps you pinpoint just where things may have gone wrong and help you to move forward with a confident step forward in your stride. God bless you.