URGENT HELP!!!!!

derfy · Post by **derfy** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 7:10 pm

Originally posted by Manley:
Okay guys, i don't know where to start. I'm having all sorts of problems here. I'm really struggling with my anxiety and think i'm almost really going crazy. Today was a bad day, i have contol over my panic attacks and today was the first one in a while enen though i'm only in week 3. But this is not my main concern, my main concern is this feeling of out of reality, guys am i loosing my mind here? is this going to get worse? is it going to get worse to the point where everything is just not gonna be real anymore? i have fell off the wagon and haven't done any of my program for 2 days because i'm so overwhelmed with my obsessive scarry thinking and this feeling of out of reality. Nothing seems normal to me but i still am me inside its hard to explain. Am i going to get worse? I dont know how to react to this feeling cuz its really is uncomfortable and scarry. Advice on this would be appreciated or if anyone can relate would be WAY better. Here is my story.. a last week i started taking medication called celexa and by far that made my anxiety alot worse. it was only the 10mg and i took it for 6 days only and just all of a sudden stopped. i'm wondering if that has to do anything with it or is this just me? And i really do feel alone on this one and think i'm the absolute worse. I think i must think the worst out of everyone. i think sometimes that maybe its going to turn in to a mental disorder of some sort. i just want me back and my life. Reassurance is needed and some advice. What can i do?

Manley, I am sorry that you have to go through what you are dealing with. I know from personal expirience, how dehibilitating anxiety can be.

First of off, Celexa is an antidepressant. Its in a class known as SSRI's basically works to increase the amount of serotonin (the happy neurotransmitter) in your brain. Celexa is actually a pretty good drug because of how selective it is, however it takes time to work. Generally when someone starts an antidepressant, you are advised to wait atleast 4-6 weeks before you start feeling the beneficial effects from it. One thing you should never do is just stop one of these drugs. It is difficult for you body and it causes the symptoms to get even worse. I would discuss with my doctor, if you feel you are better off the med, then dicuss with him that you do not want to use it. You have to realize though since you did start it for a week and then stopped, its going to be a few days before it clears out of your symptom and you feel better again. Sorry I know its tough but your going to have to tough it out.

As I have preached to another member on this forum, high dose of fish oil (omega-3) is a tremendous helper for depression/anxiety. Google "Omega-3 Anxiety" and you can see the research and reports. I would start taking 8-10g a day and see how that helps. It will take a few days before you start to feel better, but it helps.

I wish you the best. Hang in there, this is something that requires time to deal with.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 7:46 pm

this is great guys i can actaully feel my mood change, the amount of support i get is amazing and i thank you all from the bottom of my heart. and i did start the medication on the 8th of january and stopped on the 13th. and i did have the same feeling as i do now before the meds, its just hard to pin point what it really is.i don't like using it as an excuse all the time but which one is it really, me or the meds and i really believe its me. but if its me why do i have it so bad and why doesn't anyone else. am i really alone? and whats the worst that can happen to me with this thing called derealization or depersonalization???

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 12:10 am

Manley - The unrealistic feelings and fear of going crazy is what I went through, which brought me to counseling and this program. I would have feelings of sitting in a room with my family, or at work, or driving, then all of a sudden I would feel like I was being sucked out of the setting and into the panic of my own mind, thinking I was going to need to be hospitalized.

Through this program and counseling, I learned to just float with the feeling. It is anxiety. You are not going crazy. My counselor told me that my anxiety heightened and the feeling that everything was unreal had to do with my focus on healing. We usually tend to hide, deny or run from our anxiety and when we face it head on, it is a little scary at first. Those scary feelings will go away and you will be able to ignore them if they ever pop up.

As far as your medicine, my doctor put me on an antidepressant which made my anxiety worse than it had ever been. He said if I stuck with it, everything would get better. I explained that I was too afraid of the medicine to stick with it. He put me on buspar, which worked great.

Stick with the program, you will be able to float through it. I was in a very bad place last winter/spring and I cannot believe that I am this calm, happy, self-confident person today.

LisaLisa

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 12:53 am

Hey Manley,

I got your text. I read all these posts. See, isn't the response great? So yeah, derealization is part of the anxiety and the more you think about it, the worse it will get because of the chemicals that increasing fear releases into your body. I am med free so if I can do it, you can do it. You don't need medication if you don't want it. For me, I was too afraid to take any medication and I quit taking it (with my doctors help) in February of 2008 so its been almost a year. Honestly, I'm doing better than I was when I was on it so I must be doing something right. And remember I told you that I will be having a conversation with someone (and it can be anyone) and all of a sudden I will just go to "screen saver" and I'm out of reality. It happens. So I just push through it, give it a few minutes and I move on. The more scared you are about it, the worse it will get. So just float through it. Allow yourself to be out of reality for a little while but don't obsess over it. Call me if you need me today. Have a great day!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 2:10 am

Okay guys, i don't know where to start. I'm having all sorts of problems here. I'm really struggling with my anxiety and think i'm almost really going crazy. Today was a bad day, i have contol over my panic attacks and today was the first one in a while enen though i'm only in week 3. But this is not my main concern, my main concern is this feeling of out of reality, guys am i loosing my mind here? is this going to get worse? is it going to get worse to the point where everything is just not gonna be real anymore? i have fell off the wagon and haven't done any of my program for 2 days because i'm so overwhelmed with my obsessive scarry thinking and this feeling of out of reality. Nothing seems normal to me but i still am me inside its hard to explain. Am i going to get worse? I dont know how to react to this feeling cuz its really is uncomfortable and scarry. Advice on this would be appreciated or if anyone can relate would be WAY better. Here is my story.. a last week i started taking medication called celexa and by far that made my anxiety alot worse. it was only the 10mg and i took it for 6 days only and just all of a sudden stopped. i'm wondering if that has to do anything with it or is this just me? And i really do feel alone on this one and think i'm the absolute worse. I think i must think the worst out of everyone. i think sometimes that maybe its going to turn in to a mental disorder of some sort. i just want me back and my life. Reassurance is needed and some advice. What can i do?

Through this program and counseling, I learned to just float with the feeling. It is anxiety. You are not going crazy. My counselor told me that my anxiety heightened and the feeling that everything was unreal had to do with my focus on healing. We usually tend to hide, deny or run from our anxiety and when we face it head on, it is a little scary at first. Those scary feelings will go away and you will be able to ignore them if they ever pop up.

As Lisalisa said, it could be that you are starting to get in touch with your thoughts and feelings with the program and this has heightened the anxiety. From what I have seen on this forum and from what the program says, this is common when at this phase of the program. I also had times when I was overwhelmed by my negative thoughts and nothing I did from the program worked during this time. But, it was only a day or two at a time and then I had the strength to be able to make myself feel better through journaling, compassionate dialogue, trying to put up the stop sign, getting busy, etc. Allow yourself the down times and try not beat yourself up over it. Look for time when you're feeling strong enough to work the program again. Eventually the new thinking and skills will begin to have a cumulative effect and you'll be able to tell you're getting better. It's really important to learn to love and accept yourself, especially during the difficult times.

Eva Marie · Post by **Eva Marie** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 3:09 am

I agree with most that is posted here and can not add but please know this to will pass you are not going crazy.

Keep posting and reading there are a lot of people here whom care for you.

Positive thinking...relax...relax....relax.

I am thinking about you...oh journaling helps me..You are going to be ok...

marygold · Post by **marygold** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 3:56 am

alright, today is a new day and i'm going to float with it. and everyone is right, i didn't allow myself to have a bad day yesterday. but today is a new day and i'm going to give it a strong honest shot. and i'm going to try that fish oil thing as well. i appreciate the support and looking forward to seeing more posts