New to the program

[Iwillbebetter]

Luvbarbie, yes I did feel a bit more anxious at first. It is perfectly normal. You are starting to take the steps you need to changing in a sense who you are and that is a pretty scary thing. It is bound to produce a anxiety. Just know that it is normal and you will be ok.

Sun - isn't it amazing how freeing it can be just knowing there is actually a reason!! I never knew I had anxiety until I started the program. Always figured I had just a mild depression, but that I could live with. But just having that understanding, that knowledge was so freeing!!!

[luvbarbie7]

Iwillbebetter, Thank you. You are right, it is a scary thing but I do know I will be ok. Its just so hard sometimes. I am so grateful for hope and my faith. And also for this program.

[Iwillbebetter]

Yes hope and faith are wonderful compainions to the program. I am working on developing those Just stick with it and you will find the end of the storm, and the beautiful rainbow that awaits

[hacv6048]

hi, my name is Adrian Carrera. I was thinking that i would introduce myself properly because I plan to be here for the next few weeks battling with the depression and anxiety. Well let me just say that while i understand that we all have these huge issues and burdens to deal with due to these conditions that i feel like i'm in a very despaired moment in my life. I feel like there is no hope for me. I have tried to do the program before and i left it less than half way.i have a problem committing to things, people and places so i never follow up and /or finish my programs or journeys that i embark on. please someone out there, please can your offer your support, your guidance and comprehension because i felt tike this is kind of a great to deal and quite difficult to go thru it all alone.I feel like i am a loner at times, i feel like i'm i a very scary and lonely place right. I can't help but to feel like i'm crazy like there is something wrong with me, awkward and just out of it. I can't say much about myself because i will be discovering and finding things out about myself.

[Iwillbebetter]

Adrian, I can totoally understand/relate to how you are feeling right now!! I don't think there is anything you wrote, that I can't relate to!!! It wasn't long ago I felt that way also, or do feel!! I also have trouble finishing... the first time I tried to do the program I stopped at 7. Well I'm at 8 this time, and more determined than ever. I am going to stick it out and finish the program this time. I'm thinking I might even do it again after I'm done, just to get what I missed the first time. There is so much information I don't think we can absorb it all. I am learning a lot of it is a 2 step forward 1 step back kind of thing. So don't get to discouraged. Also this is something that takes time, we are changing the way we think about things, the way we re-act to things etc... we sure aren't going to be able to just change it over night, something that has helped me a lot with that is something someone here said to me, it's not the speed, but the direction that matters!! Take things at your own pace and know that you can do it!! I am here pretty regularly and would be happy to offer any support I can. I dont mind private messages so feel free to contact me anytime you would like also, however you would like

[GMD]

I myself am also new to the program. I am feeling somewhat lost and feeling discouraged that I am not "on top of things" as much as I should be. I feel disappointed in myself but at the same time frustrated because I keep meaning to do what I'm supposed to but then something happens and I am afraid to go on because I didn't do every tiny little thing before the next step or I feel like I'm not in the right state of mind because of all the anxiety I am having. I don't know if any of that makes sense but I really want to change. Desperately. I felt REALLY anxious right after the first session/week. I just wanted to do all of it but I paced myself. I am ready to move on to session 3 but I feel like I'm not allowed to because I haven't exercised like I should be and/or done everything in the first put in to practice page. I feel like I am beating myself up for not doing good enough to change myself. I am a type 1 diabetic and also have ridiculous food allergies that I'm trying to get figured out as well so it's just so much stress on top of everything else. Then I get mad at myself for making excuses and just tell myself to "do it" and get it done but then I feel like I"m not getting the correct fulfillment from what I feel the program can offer. Make sense? I did go on one of the live chat forums the other day but I found it to be more depressing than uplifting. I did say something uplifting every time someone said something negative on the chat but it didn't seem I was getting the same feedback. So I logged off disappointed and irritated. If anyone can help me or give me any kind of feedback I would appreciate it. I'd like to talk to people that are new and in the same place as me as I feel like I'm all alone and misunderstood. I do have faith that this program can fix me, I just want to do it right. I am also scared and feel that this is my last hope and terrified it might not work.

[GMD]

Oh by the way, my name is Gina. Hello everyone and glad to know I'm not alone =)

[LyndaLu]

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Lynda

[luvbarbie7]

Hi Gina,
You sound a whole lot like me. I am constantly beating myself up about everything. My Psychologist made fun of me and called me "THE ENFORCER". You have to laugh at yourself sometimes. You sound like you are a little bit obsessive compulsive just like me but I'm growing everyday. It doesn't mean you have OCD, you're probably just a perfectionist. Today I am at the lab because I'm having a 2 hour fasting glucose tolerance test. To tell the truth, I was terrified to have this done. I planned out the whole scenario. I knew I would have a panic attack after drinking all that sugar. But of course, that didn't happen. I'm calmly sitting here doing my relaxation breathing. I know its going to be OK. You'll get there little by little, day by day. I am still in session 2 because I still need to challenge myself a bit more. I need to stop avoiding the things that are challenging to me because then I will never grow. I'll remain stuck. Also, there are so many resources out there. If this doesn't work for you, which I doubt. There is a world of help. God is my constant, without Him I couldn't go on. You will be ok. Just be gentle with yourself.

[Alohajan]

Aloha from the Big Island. My name is Janet and I started 'The Program' last week. I'm 56 y/o and have definitely been dealing with anxiety and depression since childhood. I've come a long way over the years, picking up tools and techniques along the way, but still it lingers. Recently I've been 'stuck in sad' so I decided to invest in this, what I fondly refer to as
'The Re-Program-ing' program. I'm glad to see the familiar tools I've used over the years and realize that 'the answer' is the process, day by day, minute by minute. I'm choosing to go through the CDs quickly the first time and then continue to replay them as long as I need to. Bit by bit I will incorporate more and more of the 'tools & techniques & life style changes. More and more these things will become my new habits - I've seen this work for me before so I know I will benefit from The Re-Program. Thanks to all who add to this board. Take care & a hui hou, Janet
PS - today's lesson was 'anger'....it made me sad and anxious....this too will pass...forgive & move onward and upward