A Christian feeling Guilty!

[Shelly Kaye]

I want to know if there is anyone out there like Me???

I have always had anxiety/fear ...I managed them. I am a Christian and I would just pray and eventually everything would be ok until my next thing I would doubt or obsess on. I would feel if I didn't do everything like a good Christian should..well, God isn't Happy! If I disagreed with anyone...Especially a Christian...well, God IS NOT AT ALL HAPPY ABOUT THAT! So, I thought!

Well, after my Dad died in 2005...there was A LOT of family DRAMA! I thought is it was ALL my fault! I even had a family member say so...but, she just wanted her way. It was like everyone pointed their finger at me...I could NOT do anything right. If I said or did something for my Dad's side, then my Mom's side was angry and Visa Versa!

I went into ANXIETY/FEAR/DEPRESSION and PANIC ATTACKS Like NO Body's Business! Now it's been 7 years and I still march around the same mountain...and still have the SAME FEELINGS and SYMPTOMS just like it was yesterday!

I KNOW ....I KNOW...I NEED to STOP! But, keep questioning myself about the WHOLE ORDEAL! I FEEL like my head will just SPIN OFF some days!

I did the Counseling but, it did not help.

I KNOW this program is from GOD....because, I KNOW IN MY HEAD it's TRUE! But, I guess I am ADDICTED to FEELING GUILTY! I realize there is SUCH A THING AS FALSE GUILT!!! I will do good at Standing up for myself and then beat myself up OVER and OVER!

I LOVE my Mother...I try to talk to her but, she does NOT understand. My husband ...God bless him ...he doesn't understand either!

My confidence is in the toilet! I HATE that! Because, I KNOW I AM BETTER THAN THIS! I HAVE GIFTS AND TALENTS TO USE!!!

I NEED to HEAR from People who have gone through the same thing! Especially Christians!

Thank You,
Shelly

[SoWhatif]

Shelly, Welcome.

Religious versions and opinions are a dime a dozen. It is what is in your heart that counts and that is what God knows about you. Screw the rest of them and "their" version of what is right or wrong. Read the Bible for, and live it for, YOU in the way to exalt him, NOT THEM. Try to Stop taking things personal, their issues are not yours so do not carry their funk.
Be your own self.

Have fun and be safe.

R

[Shelly Kaye]

What If,

Thank YOU, I NEEDED to hear that!

Shelly