today is day 4 of the first week for me

[rymorg2]

and I thought I'd post a hello here. Looking back I know now I've struggled with anxiety and depression my whole life. My dad died when I was very young and that's when it started to get bad but as an adult it's gotten worse. I've had my good times and my bad, and just when I think I have it under control it gets worse again. Right now is a bad time but a month ago I had some panic attacks that made me say "I'm done". I've been on xanax for 5 years, but only take it as needed at night to help me sleep. I want to stop taking it completely eventually.

On just day 4 of the first week, I am already feeling more relaxed and like I've finally found a group of people that relate to what I go through. I can't let myself get to the point where it stops me from doing things...I travel a lot for work (this week my drive time is 1.5 hrs one way to and from home daily) and have to be there when I'm expected. I love my career and I don't ever want to get to the point where I'm tempted to quit to avoid feeling this way. Even though I've never been agoraphobic, I could easily see myself getting to that point if I don't get help now.

Anyway, taking it a day at a time right now, sometimes as much as an hour at a time or a minute at a time. I'm sure everyone here relates. I'm hopeful for this program to give me the skills I need to be able to cope.

[Paisleegreen]

Glad to meet you! You'll find the help you need here. Paislee

[rymorg2]

Thanks Paislee....I have had my good moments and my bad moments. But all in all I'm feeling a bit less anxious.

[Paisleegreen]

That's great! Keep up the good work! Paislee