The way i feel!!!

[kyguy2011]

I have been dealing with a problem now for i think its been atleast 7 years and its completely turned into depression and anxiety. It never seemed to bother me that i stayed away from people or was shy or something to that affect i never knew how much it would hurt me in the long run. I always felt lost i never felt i had anything to offer anyone and when i was in highschool, i'm 22 now, when i was in highschool i noticed how differently i began to feel like walls were closing in and everything around me felt strange like i was high or drunk just not feeling natural. So all that hit me and it hit me hard and it stayed with me i kept dealing with it dealing with it and didn't ever get the proper help that might have changed the way i am today. Its hard being 22 yrs old feeling like this knowing that you have so much life to live and don't have a foundation to even stand on. This problem affected me so much i tried suicide, but decided i want help. I do have a scar that reminds me of how bad i felt in that given state of mind and place in time. i'm not even motivated anymore, i haven't held on to alot of friends actually stayed away from ppl bc it got that way i felt strange around ppl so decided to avoid them. Jobs haven't lasted long for me my problems get in the way and i give up or quit. I don't wanna live this way anymore I want a natural life with friends and meaning to life and not always feeling like i have a problem and that it affects me everyday. I really need help!!!

[Wendy F]

It's great that you decided to post--admitting you have this problem is a huge first step. You say you decided you want help. What help have you sought so far? I would encourage you to see your doctor first. I know that for me, it was a relief to know that I had no physical problems. Your doctor may or may not want to prescribe medication--do your research and keep your mind open to various possibilities. How about counseling? Also, you may want to get more involved in this program. It helps a lot to know there are others dealing with similar issues.

[kyguy2011]

I've been trying to stay on top of things so i can get help i'm doing counceling and talking to doctors to get the proper help that i need and try the right medicines.

[Paisleegreen]

Hi Kyguy, glad to see you here! I hope that you will be able to find the help you need, I know it is a hard thing to go through.
The Program here is very helpful as well and I hope to be seeing you around. Paislee

[Wendy F]

I'm really glad to hear your response. It's a journey (that never goes as fast as you want it to!). This is my second time around dealing with pretty bad anxiety and replied to you to make sure you were considering available help. Good for you for taking those steps--hang in there. I look forward to hearing about your progress.

And Paislee--I'm a new poster, and I really like your responses--wise advice!

[manofmusic]

This may not sound like much now, but you will get thru this. If someone told me at 22 that my life can be different if I put the work into it, I would've walked away. This will take lots of work, but the time and effort you put into yourself will pay off big time in the long run. Keep in mind that not everyone around you will help you. Many will though. You will begin to understand that what you are going thru is changeable ! You can live an excellent life. Once you start getting over many of life's hurdles, you will find that those hurdles really aren't as big as you think.

[ms2ndchance]

Hello. I too understand how you feel. I am 23 years old and I feel like I have a lot of living to do. It is hard and just remember that you can and will get through this. Just have faith...

[kyguy2011]

thanks for all you replys it helps because this can be a battle sometimes and its tough but with people who understand how you feel it makes it easier