Hospitals

[samcat]

I understand how you feel--he was suffering and you wanted the suffering to end. That is how everyone in my family felt when my Mom passed away from colon cancer. I am glad you and your Mom are handling it pretty well.

I am relieved we were able to help you through this. You have been very strong and the person that commented before me was right--you should be proud of how you handled everything.

You and your Mother have my deepest condolences and you have my respect for how well you managed such a hard time.

[tina martin]

My sincere condolences to you and your mother. However prepared we may be it is always, in the end, shocking and unreal.

I'm old so I'm in that segment of time. I so admire your father's attitude and outlook. It will help you and your mother to deal with the enormous change in your life. Much as we want to help the dying, it is the dying who can give the most, as your father did. It is what I will want to give to my son and daughter.

[Paisleegreen]

Dear mano,
I'm so sorry to hear the news of your father. I'm glad he didn't have to suffer long. Take care during your time of sorrow.
Hugs sent your way. Paislee

[manofmusic]

Thank you to everyone for the support. I made it thru it all without a panic attack. I think that because there was so much to do that all of it kept my mind off of myself. It all went really smooth too. The sun stayed out for the service at the cemetery and it was very moving. My nephew had one of his friends there that played the bagpipes. He played Amazing Grace. Not a dry eye around. We went for the wake after and mom was surprised at all of the people there. We all saw people that we hadn't seen or heard from in 20 or more years ! One of them brought old family photos. She had a picture that was taken at a studio of my dad when he was 2. Then she pulled out a box of letters that dad wrote to his mom when he was overseas in the war (World War II). We scanned those too.

I slept very good last night. It was the first good night's sleep in a little while. Mom's doing very well too ! I think that she did her grieving like I did over the last 7 years that he was on oxygen.

Once again, thanks for all of the support ! I appreciate it very much.

Tina - You are right about the dying helping us. I never really thought about it until the last few weeks. It all taught me what's really important in life. It's not my job, or my house or my truck or my things, it's people.

[THH]

Manofmusic,

[tina martin]

Was a little worried about what I posted but you took it the right way. So now I learn your dad fought in WWII and helped to save those of us left to be saved. There were plans to do us in like the rest. Your dad and all who fought and those who gave their life (like my husband's brother) are always in my memory.

And your dad lives on in your memory, your mom's, and the others. That is what we can do for them: always remember them. That's how they live on.

[Paisleegreen]

That's great about the funeral or Wake. I love to hear bagpipes playing Amazing Grace as well. That is so neat you were able to get all those photos and letters. Cool!
Tina- I'm glad you were rescued as well! Paislee

[Wildcard]

Mano

First I must say how sorry I am for your loss. Now let me say how happy I am for the way you and your mom are going thru it!

There was a long time that bagpipes sounded to me like nails on a chalkboard but the when my Grandpa passed away they had some play Amazing Grace and I have loved them since.

Keep up the good work my friend!

[manofmusic]

Today was my first day back to work. I woke up with a knot in my stomach. I really didn't want to go. I didn't want to hear people give their condolences. I just wanted to be quiet today. On the way to work I was trying to think of something that I could do for myself that would put me in a better mood. About 2 hours into my workday, I posted my vacation time ! One week in July, one week in August and one week in September. Now I have stuff to look forward too. I'm beginning to look forward to the summer now.

I'm still having my sad moments and I'm sure I will for a while, but that's all part of the process I guess. I had a panic attack yesterday and one this morning while I was getting ready for work. I breathed my way thru it, but I had to sit down for a bit during the one this morning. I have to make a point to just breathe and to treat myself well.

Work ended up going good today. Some gave their condolences and others didn't. That was just fine with me. My boss asked me if I was ok and I told him that I was and that I just wanted to be quiet today. He allowed me that.

Thank you all for understanding what I am going thru. I will make it thru this and I will make it thru all the other crap that life will throw me.

[THH]

Manof music,
How you doing???

Good for you telling your boss you just wanted to be quiet today. Thats great you spoke up and told him just what you felt you needed! Nice.
Good job on thinking about your vacation too. Nice.

Yes, you will make it though this and all the other stuff life has to offer. It is okay to be sad too. Take your time, have faith that you are not alone, and you will get through it. We are here to help too.

Keep on keeping on!