Lack of motivation/laziness

dnlsnow · Post by **dnlsnow** » Fri Dec 19, 2008 8:47 am

For the last month or so I've had this horrible routine of waking up late, sitting on the sofa for the majority of the day, and go to bed late. I will get out a couple days a week but it just feels like so much work to do anything- even household chores. The lack of activity makes me anxious though.

Today is my last day at my current job which was only scheduling me twice a week. I'm hoping once today is over I will feel like I'm more free to move on to something else and really do something. Also, I guess some of it might be depression. My girlfriend of a year and a half found someone else, my pet of 10 years died, I got a speeding ticket, and was unfairly reprimanded at work all around the same time about a month ago.

I just started the program yesterday and feel hopeful about it. But for now, I feel like I just need to motivate myself to get off the sofa and out of the house.

Any suggestions are greatly appreciated.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Dec 21, 2008 6:03 am

You sound like me. As I sit on the sofa, wishing I were not sitting there, I ask myself why do I chose this instead of some activity or household task. I really think that I do not always want to feel good. I think feeling badly becomes habitual. My 83 year old mother acts this way and it makes me feel so frustrated and helpless. I think oh man I am acting this way too, with my own children. None of us deserve to suffer so much, but the dropping in has become so unconscious. I am out of it for the moment, sitting here connecting, which I know works. I applaud you for bring this up and talking about it. It is so easy for me to feel sorry for myself. Yesterday I had this thought, what situation or what person can I blame for this. YIKES, what a humbling awareness. Am I really doing what my mother does? Oh yeah. Now I need to handle this in a better way.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Dec 21, 2008 9:43 am

SOfa is the wrong place to be when facing our conditions. Finding things to do, even if it is listening to music walking about, keeping the mind focused on good things: God gives us the power to do things and we need to keep in mind that God is with us - that there is nothing therefore we cannot overcome. Stay active no matter what and know that you are alone.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Dec 21, 2008 12:02 pm

I know all to well about how this feels. We know we want and need to change and we get the things in order to help us (ie the program) but yet it becomes a huge struggle to do anything outside of our routine. I really feel for ya for this one, It must be really frustrating for you as this condition is not a fun one. What I've found to help and maybe it would be helpful to you to is to really work on digestion.

The reason why I say this is that working on elimination physically actually helps us with our mental elimination...It allows us to let go of the things that hinder us and opens us up for new things...like some of the things in the program and it makes us feel much lighter and more energetic and just well happier.

So ask yourself...what is it that you're eatting? Could a food diary help?

Mike

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Dec 21, 2008 12:02 pm

Each day, I wake up and say to myself, I'm gonna do something today. Clean my bedroom or clean the livingroom. I just can't seem to get motivated either. I look outside and see overcast or rain most of the time. Winter is so gloomy. I am feeling anxiety right now. We better go watch a tape. Your NOT alone

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Dec 21, 2008 1:37 pm

yes, this is one of the hardest parts for me. I've been diagnosed with OCD so without realizing it alot of the time, I've duped myself into a habit of following routines. If I get used to being somewhere or doing something and then I do it differently I get all worried and over analyze it. I missed work today and didn't even call in, and I'm kind of glad just because I just didn't want to be there, and I didn't want to be even more unmotivated when I got home, Yet I feel silly and irresponsible for not going, like someone else probably had to cover my shift. The unmotivated feeling sucks because it's like I don't want to be unmotivated and I can't really get out of the feeling, I try to to think of things I could do to get me out of it and then I get lazy thinking about it. It always worries me because I think, what if it means I want to do the things my OCD mind creates? and I obviously don't, it just puts my mind in a jumble. I think about myself in the past and I wish I could go back, but it's like I've trained myself to not think positively , so it's like I feel unmotivated thinking about it, which makes me feel like I must not want to get better or something, that bothers me so much as well. The only ting that really helps me is knowing it's just my ocd, even though it works so hard to convince me otherwise, and that there's other people I can connect with that know what I mean. Stay strong is all I can say, and try to force positive activities on yourself. I try to make a little daily goals sheet, I'll try to write a goal I have to reach the next day and Underneath it I'll write "No Excuses!!". Mind you sometimes I forget to do it or I just can't think of anything, lol or the laziness takes over, Keep trying is the factor though!
"I want Peace, Therefore I will have peace"