Only a very few people know of my issues. There is still such a stigma attached to it- and i realize many people just do not understand. Not there fault just never been through it or had someone affected by it.
If people don't know how do you disguise it? I often try to use the saying "Fake it until you make it" Its like I have become an actress. Act the part of what I am trying to be..Does that make sense?
Do People know of your anxiety/Deppression issues?
Oh yes,,,that was my moms famous saying as I grew up and it still sticks with me all these years later. I pick and choose who I tell as I have become more aware that people who have never gone through this just do not understand. And honestly, until this hit me so hard I don't think I did either. I worry about the same thing especially starting a new job next week. I have not worked for over a month,,,in between jobs and this came on. However, I just figure it will give me ample time to practice what I am learning....I think however, it is so important to have times every day that we do not have to fake it because I beleive part of my problem has been learning how to fake it too well that that led to some of the anxiety issues I have...Not sure if that makes sense...This is a toughy because most times I think people can tell what is going on with me when in reality they probably do not notice it much.
Noone knows about my problem with anxiety/depression either. I avoided people at the most part and when I couldn't I never let my guard down or let them see my true feelings. I'm starting to see now that I was only feeding those feelings and making it worse. People at work saw a strong willed person who wouldn't take any body pushing my buttons so to speak like they do so many people. I've worked there 5 yrs. and noone knows who I am really. Starting this program has made me realize alot of things. I started using positive feelings about myself and how I see things and it is making a difference in how I feel and how other people see me. It's hard, very hard to join in with people but I'm determined to conquer these terrible feelings and the fear. People are starting to come up to talk and I find myself laughing with them not pretending and it's alot better feeling
Only my husband, I am scared to let my son (12) to know about it. I have tried to tell my Mom and my sister but they seem like scared to talk about it, or they don't understand what is really going on, I was in the line to the pirates on the caribean in Disney and I had a panic atack, can you believe it? I am ashamed of that one!!
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~HealthyMe~
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I found in the beginning I'd tell people just so that I could use it to be more anxious!! I've also found a lot of people DO understand. You'd be surprised. I had a job once and I loved the woman I worked for. I was there for 3 days and I just freaked out. I told her about my anxiety and this woman who was very outgoing and positive told me. You have to face you fear, because anything worth having is worth fighting for. I didn't fight for the job but she really stuck with me as a positive influence. I've met a lot of positive and amazing people over the years (while job bouncing). 
Anyway, in present day, I tend to not share my anxiety at the current moment because for me I use it to feed into WHAT I don't want to do. If I put on a brave face and do my best, I am always better off. The moment I open that door...for me...its a reason to walk away...
Anyway, in present day, I tend to not share my anxiety at the current moment because for me I use it to feed into WHAT I don't want to do. If I put on a brave face and do my best, I am always better off. The moment I open that door...for me...its a reason to walk away...just me