New here and my story (LONG READ)

Chris00SS · Post by **Chris00SS** » Sat Aug 16, 2008 9:14 pm

I found this website through Facebook and have been receiving the 7 free emails from Lucinda talking about the program. I thought I would just start off by telling my story.

As a kid I was always shy but never was afraid or worried about going out. I never liked having to talk in front of the class when I was in school but once I finished everything would go back to normal. In June of 2000 I saw a commercial about Paxil and anxiety. I decided to go to the doctor and talk to him about it because even though I was able to go out without getting nervous, I would get nervous if I had to go somewhere where I would have to sit for awhile and not be able to get out whenever I wanted. Well the doctor prescribed me Paxil which I took for 2 years and nothing really seemed to change. I would still get nervous and have to use the bathroom before going out to settle my stomach but after that I would usually be ok, just a little anxiety but nothing too unbearable.

After those 2 years I got off Paxil and went a year without taking anything before I could feel the anxiety getting worse so I went back to the doctor. This time he put me on Zoloft which I took for a year and still nothing changed. By this time it was around the summer of 2004.

At the end of 2005 I went to the doctor about my stomach because I would get an upset stomach whenever I was going to go somewhere. When I was a kid in elementary school I started going to the bathroom everyday before I left home and I would be fine stomach wise for the rest of the day. Every morning I would have to go to the bathroom and this went on all the way until I graduated in 2000. Back to my doctor visit though. The doctor told me that I had IBS and that was why I would always get upset stomachs and that it was more than likely linked to the social anxiety, so he put me on a medicine for my stomach which didn't really help.

In April 2006 I was laid off and at that time my social anxiety was bad but I could still go to the store or go out driving or go to a friends house with no problems. Months and months went by with everywhere I went looking for a job telling me they wanted someone with more experience. February 2007 rolled around and still I was not able to find a job and this is when the anxiety became unbearable. One week I was able to go out to the store or driving and not get anxious, the next week though when I tried going out I had the worst anxiety attack I had ever had up to that point. From then on out I could not go out without having an anxiety attack no matter where it was I went so naturally I started just sitting around the house.

In July 2007 I had my first panict attack which at that time I did not know what it was, all I knew was it felt like I was dying. The next month I had my 2nd panic attack but this time it was worse and I was laying in the floor shaking uncontrollably and I felt like I was about to black out.

In August 2007 I was finally called in to come back to work where I had been laid off but by then the anxiety had gotten so bad that I was afraid to go out, having panic attacks, and had severe depression. I managed to get up enough courage to go back into work but was always late due to having to go to the bathroom several times every morning and having anxiety attacks so I went back to the doctor. This time I was prescribed Ativan and took that for a couple of months and it helped some with the depression but not really the anxiety and panic. The doctor changed it to Prozac and Klonopin which I took for a month or 2 and again it had no affect.

Well once again I was laid off at the end of May this year this time due to the lot I worked on being closed. During those 9 months back at work the anxiety never got any better even though I was getting out 5 days a week. Well in June the doctor changed my medicine to Effexor but kept me on the Klonopin and told me to just take the Klonopin when I needed it. Again, it has helped with the depression but not the anxiety and panic attacks.

A week ago I had another very severe panic attack and was again in the floor shaking and had a bad upset stomach and throwing up.

I have no idea what else to do because so far every medicine and dosage of each medicine has done nothing for the anxiety and panic. I no longer go anywhere. I just sit around the house, I constantly feel tired, my stomach is upset all the time now, and I'm always in an anxious state. I'm having problems with my back, shoulders, neck, and head from laying in the bed so much but when if I sit up for too long my stomach becomes upset the next day from being in a crunched up position. I try to stand or walk around but since I feel tired all the time I can only do that for several minutes before I feel like I need to lay down again. I have not gone out for around a month and a half or two. I tried the Linden Method back in May 2007 and that didn't seem to work. I am basically at my wits end here. I can't afford to actually try Lucinda's program since I no longer have a job to pay for it and since I can't go out without having an anxiety attack and getting sick to my stomach it's hard to find another job.

If anyone has any advice feel free to share because I could use all the help I can get right now. If you're still reading this then thanks for taking the time to listen and feel free to reply.

Mr. B · Post by **Mr. B** » Sun Aug 17, 2008 12:48 am

Chris,
Have you ordered the program? I know it is expensive, but can you put a price on your peace of mind? Do you have anyone in your family that could help you get the program? Your friends and loved ones must know that you are suffering, right?
I would say, find a way to get it, I think you would benefit.
Change your thoughts, change your life is a book I am reading right now by Dr. Wayne Dyer. Check it out if you can
I wish you all the best
and KNOW that you will have peace within you and that everything will be okay

I hope you have a blessed day

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Aug 17, 2008 2:01 am

Hello!First of all I just want you to know that I've been where you are with my anxiety.I know how it feels to be in that overbearing anxious state all the time.I also had became housebound for about 2 years.I felt so isolated and scared to death that something awful was going to happen.Everyday was a fight to get through.That said now I'm getting better.I hope this brings you hope because you can't get better if you lose hope.Make your new motto be "I'll never give up!"My mind was so engulfed in "here it comes again","What if something physically is really wrong?","Will I ever overcome this?","What's wrong with me?"and so on.These are the things that I turned over in my mind ever waking minute.I decided that I was going to get better.That of course meant that I had to start letting go of all that worry.In my case I gave it to God and I started trusting that He would take care of me.I started to become very determend to live fully again.One day after being housebound for a very long time I got the courage to walk out that door and start walking down the street.I would walk a little further each time.I then wanted more.I wanted to get out in public places.This wasn't easy but had to be done for me to get my life back.I pushed through.Very important to do.I'm now able to do a lot of things that I at one time didn't think I'd ever be able to.I'm still working hard but I know it will be well worth it.As far as when your having a panick attack {I still get them but I've learned to control them}you have to just flow with it.Don't let it scare you!I know how hard that is but when you start to feel those symptoms just tell yourself"I'm not going to feed this,I know what this is and it cannot hurt me!The more you say this to yourself the sooner you'll start to be able to handle them and then they'll start to fade.You are strong and can do this!If I can anyone can.Take the first step.Like I said it's not easy but believe me well worth it!Please take care and don't let this anxiety rob you anymore of what you diserve.I wish you much luck and God bless!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Aug 17, 2008 6:35 am

Hello. I think everyone reading your post can relate to your situation. I know the program is expensive. I was able to work out that I pay $50.00 a month. If you can't afford the program, try getting some of Lucinda's books. I just read from "Panic to Power". Alot of what is in that book is in the program. I bought it used from Amazon.com for $6.00.

I know you are at a tough point in your life and it's been a struggle the last few years. Just remember that the anxiety and panic won't kill you or hurt you. That the feelings you are having are being created by you. Your stomach doesn't have a brain, so it's reacting to what you are thinking and feeling. Once you control your thoughts and think more positive, you will start to feel better.

Try getting some of those books off of amazon. I felt better after reading the one I mentioned above. And remember you are not alone. We are all hear to support you. Good luck!

hopehound · Post by **hopehound** » Sun Aug 17, 2008 8:19 am

I agree with both of the previous submissions.

And to even 'one-up' GI822, my local library had both 'Panic to Power' and Lucinda's self-improvement/goal- setting book (the title escapes me- sorry).

The library will be free and I used from Panic to Power over the past 2 months while I was away from home at school. It helped to be able to scroll to a chapter or paragraph that I needed at the time to reassure me, and I swear that despite reading it cover to cover twice, I would always find something new in there.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Aug 18, 2008 9:57 am

Did you know most libraries have a budget which is left at the discretion of the library to use? Ask your local librarian to order the whole program. If you can go in three times a week, you can do the whole program. You need to do something. Everything else hasn't worked. I think this program will help you.