Anyone feel like this?

maggiep · Post by **maggiep** » Mon May 19, 2008 12:13 am

Hi everyone, I just wanted to know if anyone ever felt like this, this is kinda long and I am sorry, but here goes..it all started when my back started to bother me, I really think it is just a muscle from working out so hard and changing weights, but I took it to the extreme, and not understsnding why my back still hurt 3 weeks later, nowhere as bad but it still bothers me, so I did researching on WEBMD, that is a horrible sight for people like me, I had my self having ovarian cancer, you name it I think I have it, I am so scared of things like that and I am a hypocond...but I couldn't understand where to draw the line and accept that this is only stress, anxiety, panic and depression, I have had alot of that in the past months, plus stopping my Buspar, cause I would rather deal with things on my own instead of on meds, but I just feel so sick, my husband and I are TTC and that is stress enough, it has been a year and still no baby, which makes me think I have PCOS or something where I can't have kids, I have calmed down about it though and if it is meant to be, it will. But not only that but I have lots of other things on my ind, money, job, family, everything. And for the past two weeks this is how I feel physcially,my stomach hurts 60% of the time, my back still hurts, I have gas, and sometimes it hurts, I have a hemmoroid(yuk) and I just feel like I want to throw up, a headache constantly, and I get these weird pains all over my body, it is so weird and I just need to know if these are normal, it has been so long that I have felt any symptoms, I used to get the "runs" all the time but that is ok now for the most part, cause I try not to think about it and it has worked for me. I just get so SCARED think about going to the doc, but if I know these are symptoms of anxiety, etc. I will be ok, but I freak out cause I think I have some horrible disease or cancer, and these feeling are not constant, I will have them for a little while, then they go away and I am FINE, and awhile later they come back, I just don't understand I just need this put into perspective for me, my husband says it is all stress, anxiety etc. cause he has been through it all, but it is hard to come to terms, I just want to feel good again....thanks for listening to me guys and so sorry this sooooo long, but I just need to vent, thanks everyone

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon May 19, 2008 1:23 am

Hi Maggiep,
I'm feeling the same back pain but I feel more relaxed now too. It started after the first time I did lesson one. I'm not sure but maybe we hold our stress in our bodies in some way and doing this program causes it too come out so that it is released. I have been doing lesson one for five days now and I am noticing more about my body and thoughts. I believe if we stick to it this will work for us. It's nice to know I'm not alone here.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon May 19, 2008 1:42 am

Thanks Yuan, I think you are right, we build up so much stress that when it is finally enough it comes out in such weird ways!!! I just can't explain it, it is such a ordeal to go through, I wish it had never happened but what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger, thank you for shedding some light on this for me...it really stinks to know that this is only stress and where do we draw the line that stress and anxiety do this, and it is not some horrible thing happening to us, it is us doing this to us, so weird, at least I have all of you here......haha thanks!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon May 19, 2008 2:29 am

Hi maggiep...I'm just starting this program after years of struggling with what I believe to be panic disorder. I too have self-diagnosed myself with numerous ailements! This is my first entry on this forum and am so appreciative of the honesty and vulnerability of people's comments. I've spent years feeling so ashamed of having this disorder...why couldn't I just be like everyone else that I'd see while out and about. Everyone else looked to feel so calm and relaxed while I was struggling. I'm finding that mine stems greatly from "anticipatory anxiety"...like right now, I need to get to the grocery but am feeling anxious about going because I'm anticipating what MIGHT happen (i.e. have a panic attack while out!) It's so hard, 'cause I know logically what I'm doing to myself but have a hard time turning that "what if" thinking off! I could easily console someone else but have a hard time consoling myself!
As a result, I too am feeling my neck and shoulder muscles tighten and experiencing pain that I'd first attributed to some sort of injury or strain to my shoulder!
Good to have a group of people that can understand/relate to share this...I'm confident that with this program and chat room forum, together we'll make it thru! Good luck!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon May 19, 2008 2:46 am

Hi MaggieP you are not alone. I also get back pain and I think it's much worse, I notice I slauch when I sit down. Also I feel other pains and take it to extremes. And as you, mine comes and goes it is not constant. If I keep myself busy I don't worry.So all I can say is hang in there WE WON'T BE LIKE THIS FOREVER!

diva · Post by **diva** » Mon May 19, 2008 8:37 am

Anytime my back "hurts" I swear I have kidney cancer or some kidney problem. Then I start drinking lots of water and count the number of times I pee and what color it is. Once I have decided I have peed enough and it is pale yellow or clear, that is when I determine that the cancer is gone and my back doesn't hurt anymore. This happens about three times a week. I have said it once and I will say it again, being a hypochondriac sucks.