I've had the program now for a year. I only got to lesson 12 quite recently.
I'm afraid to finish it because once it's over, there is no more new material to grow from. Then I won't have any more excuses for my anxiety.
I know for a fact I'm perpetuating my condition as a resistance behavior. Every time I do the daily routine--relaxation tape, audio lesson, workbook and journal--it only lasts for a day and then I make excuses the next day why not to do it.
I'm sure some of you have gone through this.
Always halting progress in the program...
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bevhembree
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Wow, I am always amazed that someone else writes something that hits so close to home.
I too dreaded the last session. I almost felt like I was going to be lost- what are you supposed to do after #15? It felt like a lifeline was running out. I have benefited from starting the program a second time. You'd be amazed at how much you miss or forget. There are also tons of books (I shop at Amazon.com) to help you continue your journey. If you don't mind religion, Joyce Meyer, Gregory Dickow and Joel Osteen have tapes on changing your mindset that are really good. There is also a wealth of information on the internet if you google anxiety.
I need almost a daily boost. Really hourly. I get inspired, then the old ways will creep back in. I know what it wrong. I know my thinking causes me problems but I easily slip right back in with those old thoughts.
I know it's taking longer than I would like but one day the tides will turn and the struggle will get easier and easier. We just have to stick to what we know is right thinking and don't give up!
I too dreaded the last session. I almost felt like I was going to be lost- what are you supposed to do after #15? It felt like a lifeline was running out. I have benefited from starting the program a second time. You'd be amazed at how much you miss or forget. There are also tons of books (I shop at Amazon.com) to help you continue your journey. If you don't mind religion, Joyce Meyer, Gregory Dickow and Joel Osteen have tapes on changing your mindset that are really good. There is also a wealth of information on the internet if you google anxiety.
I need almost a daily boost. Really hourly. I get inspired, then the old ways will creep back in. I know what it wrong. I know my thinking causes me problems but I easily slip right back in with those old thoughts.
I know it's taking longer than I would like but one day the tides will turn and the struggle will get easier and easier. We just have to stick to what we know is right thinking and don't give up!
"Here and happy because of my three little angels- Marie, Chad and Cady."
I 1st want to say, ITS OK TO LET ANXIETY GO - its safe. Indirectly you're holding on to your anxiety disorder for fear of the UNKNOWN - using the program as a crutch. By no means I am being disrespectful - no. Rather, don't let the PROGRAM be YOUR SAFE THING/PERSON THING, lol - if that makes sense this early in the morning. This program explains & teaches you a skill set to help you. However, that change does not happen overnight - your growth/change/recovery will continue long after you finish the program - its what Lucinda refers to as PRACTICE SESSIONS. You could read the words of the program till your blue in the face - it will do nothing LONGTERM. However, it is when you read those words, hear those words via the lesson c/d & coaching video - understand it mentally & YES, little by little - PRACTICE APPLYING ALL THIS KNOWLEDGE to your every day life = FEELING THE SYMPTOMS - DOING IT ANYWAY, LEARNING "BECAUSE THE SYMPTOMS WON'T HURT YOU" = the fear of the body symptoms going away.
The reason the effects of doing the "daily routine" only last for a day is BECAUSE YOU TOLD YOURSELF THAT - honest. Remember, our minds are very powerful - so if you've already convinced yourself it won't work - it won't. You're simply creating add'l anxiety. Consistancy ='s results & results/recovery takes time!It does not happen overnight - it takes time & takes really hard work - but it is possible.
You'll hear a variation of the same thing I'm about to tell you, fr others who have also recovered fr anxiety disorder: <span class="ev_code_RED">recovery fr anxiety disorder is not easy - its hard work & probably 1 of the hardest things you will have to do. It takes your ALL & just when you think you have given it your all - IT REQUIRES MORE. It takes time - change does not happen overnight. We didn't create these cumulative negative behaviors overnite - they were created via a series of YEARS - so, how could we expect them to go away overnight = PRACTICE PATIENCE. You need to make recovery fr anxiety disorder your #1 priority - meaning, no matter what - you're going to work the program day in & out. You're going to apply the skillset taught day in & out, no matter what & no matter how hard it will be. You're going to do whatever is feasably possibly on your behalf to recover: whether it be journaling = this helps getting yourself to a place where you feel safe & comfortable to admit what you're thinking & feeling & TO FEEL THEM. You could do RESEARCH - Lucinda's program is PHENOMINAL - as we said fr my old neighborhood - HER PROGRAM IS ALL THAT & A BAG OF CHIPS, LOL. However, there is similiar knowledge out there - read books - go out there & understand what anxiety disorder really is - when you do, you will EMPOWER yourself. We are creating a totally diff way of life for ourselves - so there will be instinctive resistance. That's ok. Remember, WHAT & HOW & WHY the way we use to do things is WHAT GOT US ALL HERE @ ANXIETY DISORDER'S DOOR in the 1st place. So, if - "we always do what we've always done, we'll always get what we've always gotten."</span>
You have to want RECOVERY FR ANXIETY DISORDER - SO BAD, YOU COULD TASTE IT. That, no matter what, YOU'RE GOING FOR IT - YOU'RE GONNA MAKE IT HAPPEN, NOT SETTLING FOR ANYTHING - IF YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND SOMETHING, BY GOSH, YOU'RE GOING TO GO OUT THERE & FIND A WAY. You need to be willing to do all the work- that is where recovery comes fr.
I'm no superhero - I'm just simply a person who had severe anxiety disorder. Mine was so bad, I was forced to not be able to work for 3 yrs & was 100% dependant on my husband. My EXISTENCE,was beyond poor. I don't refer to it as my life or living - for I didn't feel as though I was. I was in a constant state of beyond comprehension CRYPLING + PARALIZING + INHIBITING + LIFE RESTRICTING FEAR 24/7. It was experiencing that state I'm referring to - & all that it emcompassed - THAT WAS THEN & REMAINS NOW - my motivation. Thats not to say I was acting out of fear - no, I was not. RAther, it so impacted my life & me(mentally + emotionally + physically + spiritually)that I resolved to NOT WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY "FOREVER". I simply became <span class="ev_code_RED">WILLING</span> - I became willing to face my past + myself, & feel the pain necessary for change to happen. I was willing to take myself places I had never been - forcing myself to feel the very things I feared - so that I could gift myself w/ inner peace. I was willing to grow/change/evolve - heck, lets be real here - I WAS WILLING TO DO WHATEVER IT TOOK TO RECOVERY & I MEANT IT WHEN I SAID IT - all because I was feeling & living so poorly & didn't want to live this way & feel this way forever.
Through pain(emotional) + fear facing + hard work + many tears, I am 1 of many recovered. But, I HAD TO DO THE WORK.
Don't fear recovery - EMBRACE IT. Set forth out into the world to empower yourself w/ education & knowledge about anxiety disorder - not as a crutch, for fear of letting go - cause of the unknown. Knowledge is power - when you empower yourself - the fear lessons & you win.
LENORE
The reason the effects of doing the "daily routine" only last for a day is BECAUSE YOU TOLD YOURSELF THAT - honest. Remember, our minds are very powerful - so if you've already convinced yourself it won't work - it won't. You're simply creating add'l anxiety. Consistancy ='s results & results/recovery takes time!It does not happen overnight - it takes time & takes really hard work - but it is possible.
You'll hear a variation of the same thing I'm about to tell you, fr others who have also recovered fr anxiety disorder: <span class="ev_code_RED">recovery fr anxiety disorder is not easy - its hard work & probably 1 of the hardest things you will have to do. It takes your ALL & just when you think you have given it your all - IT REQUIRES MORE. It takes time - change does not happen overnight. We didn't create these cumulative negative behaviors overnite - they were created via a series of YEARS - so, how could we expect them to go away overnight = PRACTICE PATIENCE. You need to make recovery fr anxiety disorder your #1 priority - meaning, no matter what - you're going to work the program day in & out. You're going to apply the skillset taught day in & out, no matter what & no matter how hard it will be. You're going to do whatever is feasably possibly on your behalf to recover: whether it be journaling = this helps getting yourself to a place where you feel safe & comfortable to admit what you're thinking & feeling & TO FEEL THEM. You could do RESEARCH - Lucinda's program is PHENOMINAL - as we said fr my old neighborhood - HER PROGRAM IS ALL THAT & A BAG OF CHIPS, LOL. However, there is similiar knowledge out there - read books - go out there & understand what anxiety disorder really is - when you do, you will EMPOWER yourself. We are creating a totally diff way of life for ourselves - so there will be instinctive resistance. That's ok. Remember, WHAT & HOW & WHY the way we use to do things is WHAT GOT US ALL HERE @ ANXIETY DISORDER'S DOOR in the 1st place. So, if - "we always do what we've always done, we'll always get what we've always gotten."</span>
You have to want RECOVERY FR ANXIETY DISORDER - SO BAD, YOU COULD TASTE IT. That, no matter what, YOU'RE GOING FOR IT - YOU'RE GONNA MAKE IT HAPPEN, NOT SETTLING FOR ANYTHING - IF YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND SOMETHING, BY GOSH, YOU'RE GOING TO GO OUT THERE & FIND A WAY. You need to be willing to do all the work- that is where recovery comes fr.
I'm no superhero - I'm just simply a person who had severe anxiety disorder. Mine was so bad, I was forced to not be able to work for 3 yrs & was 100% dependant on my husband. My EXISTENCE,was beyond poor. I don't refer to it as my life or living - for I didn't feel as though I was. I was in a constant state of beyond comprehension CRYPLING + PARALIZING + INHIBITING + LIFE RESTRICTING FEAR 24/7. It was experiencing that state I'm referring to - & all that it emcompassed - THAT WAS THEN & REMAINS NOW - my motivation. Thats not to say I was acting out of fear - no, I was not. RAther, it so impacted my life & me(mentally + emotionally + physically + spiritually)that I resolved to NOT WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY "FOREVER". I simply became <span class="ev_code_RED">WILLING</span> - I became willing to face my past + myself, & feel the pain necessary for change to happen. I was willing to take myself places I had never been - forcing myself to feel the very things I feared - so that I could gift myself w/ inner peace. I was willing to grow/change/evolve - heck, lets be real here - I WAS WILLING TO DO WHATEVER IT TOOK TO RECOVERY & I MEANT IT WHEN I SAID IT - all because I was feeling & living so poorly & didn't want to live this way & feel this way forever.
Through pain(emotional) + fear facing + hard work + many tears, I am 1 of many recovered. But, I HAD TO DO THE WORK.
Don't fear recovery - EMBRACE IT. Set forth out into the world to empower yourself w/ education & knowledge about anxiety disorder - not as a crutch, for fear of letting go - cause of the unknown. Knowledge is power - when you empower yourself - the fear lessons & you win.
LENORE
Your greatest challenge isn't someone else. It's the aching i your lungs & the burning in your legs & the voice inside you that yells "CAN'T". But you don't listen. You push harder & hear the voice that whispers "CAN". An you realize that the person you thought you were is no match for the one you REALLY ARE.
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herebedragons
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- Joined: Fri Sep 07, 2007 3:11 pm
There is a quote: "...Faith without works avails us nothing...". I am firmly convinced that I HAVE to use the principles daily, applying them to my daily life and as I do so, the practice reinforces the info. This program will only work, to the extent that I work it or use it.
Another quote I love is from the ancient Persian philosophy: Trust in God, but tie your camel. If I don't follow thru with my part then NO knowledge or faith can help me.
herebedragons
Another quote I love is from the ancient Persian philosophy: Trust in God, but tie your camel. If I don't follow thru with my part then NO knowledge or faith can help me.
herebedragons
"As lang as Dragons fly in human imaginations, then Magic be a relative term"
"Fram thas life tae tha next..."
"Fram thas life tae tha next..."