I just faced my two biggest fears!

lilsismj · Post by **lilsismj** » Tue Apr 22, 2008 6:31 am

I can't believe that I did it, but I did.

1. I have worried about taking/changing meds ever since my doctor finally got me on the ****tail that was working. I am scared (or at least I thought I was) to take new meds and deal with side effects. But about three weeks ago my doc put me on birth control for ovarian cysts and I didn't even think about it. I didn't realize that i had even started taking new meds until the other day. It just hadn't occurred to me, which means that it never occurred to me to be scared. Huh?

2. I went on a date...and I didn't freak out before hand. And let me tell you...I am a FREAK about dating. It has always been my biggest, insta diarhea kind of anxiety/fear. But I did it and it was fabulous. I had a really good time. And I haven't over thought it. I am also going on my second date tonight!

I haven't been on a second date in at least three years. It's like someone else took over my body and just went and lived!

When I stopped and thought about it, i got excited AND I got a little nervous at the same time. Can I keep this up? Is this feeling going to go away? But, i try to put that out of my mind and just keep moving forward.

No matter what happens from here, I am proud I got this far. This has been a really big accomplishment for me. These are two things that I NEVER thought I would be able to do, but I did it! I did it and so can you.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Apr 22, 2008 7:05 am

It's like someone else took over my body and just went and lived!

hee hee hee -- that's so great -- i love that quote

it sounds like your hard work is really paying off.
ok, i'm a little

jealous. . . but mostly proud of your accomplishments--and encouraged

! i'm so happy for you!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Apr 22, 2008 7:33 am

It is a wonderful feeling isn't it? When you realize that you did something without going thru the same old same old of worrying, ruminating, and obsessing about it beforehand. Congrats!

lost_1 · Post by **lost_1** » Tue Apr 22, 2008 7:46 am

Hey lilsis. That's fantastic! Have a great second date! Keep us posted.

Ocean · Post by **Ocean** » Tue Apr 22, 2008 8:39 am

Congrats!!! Good to hear you are improving. Keep truckin'!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Apr 22, 2008 9:07 am

Thanks everybody. It is a really great feeling...not that I still don't have trepidations. I've heard the people on the tapes say that it feels really weird to feel good when it's the first time. It does. It feels really weird.