Intrusive thoughts during relaxation or hypnosis
Hi I completed the program about two years ago an it has made me so much more aware and prepared for things to come. The one thing i never really got a grasp on was being able to relax. Anytime i try to relax or have tried hypnosis, i start having horrible thoughts. For example if a relaxation or hypnosis cd says imagine yourself confident and less inhibited, i start thinking "what if i take it to the extreme and lose all inhibitions and kill someone". This totally freaks me out and then i cant think about anything else. I start think what if this subconsciously releases some sort of evil inside of me? I don't think i would ever hurt anyone but these thoughts seem to stop me every time i try to relax. they seem to only come up when i try to relax or if i'm very stressed. Has anyone ever gone through this? does anyone know why it happens? If so has anyone ever conquered this? i really need help so your advice is very much appreciated. Thank you.
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Hello Bibi, I'm sorry you're having such a hard time with this. What you speak of is an obsessive scary thought. I do not know what is going on in your life right now that you would need to be distracted from but there may be something. This is not something you can simply replace on paper and have things be fine so you'll have to take a diffrent approach. In order to overcome an obsessive scary thought you have to distort it, further distort it i guess. Instead of distorting it in a scary way, distort it in a positive way. Write down the thought that goes through your head and some funny statement after it. Read that 5-10X a day for 2 weeks.
For example if i had that thought (I've actually thought if i stayed in the present moment then i would never be worried about anything and I'd lose myself and not be able to think for myself), I would imagine losing my inhibitions and just stripping off all my clothing and walking around the city, in the libraries and coffee shops and someone else would be in control of me making me fart in peoples faces while they're eatting, maybe nude table dancing in the library, cartwheels in the shopping mall, have a bowel movement in the middle of a grocery store, making out with mops, licking random people on the sides of their faces and many other silly things. If its a fear of killing someone, imagine the noises you would make while trying to do so but you are trying to kill them with a giant teletubby stuffed toy and see how the other person would respond.
Hope that helps,
Mike
For example if i had that thought (I've actually thought if i stayed in the present moment then i would never be worried about anything and I'd lose myself and not be able to think for myself), I would imagine losing my inhibitions and just stripping off all my clothing and walking around the city, in the libraries and coffee shops and someone else would be in control of me making me fart in peoples faces while they're eatting, maybe nude table dancing in the library, cartwheels in the shopping mall, have a bowel movement in the middle of a grocery store, making out with mops, licking random people on the sides of their faces and many other silly things. If its a fear of killing someone, imagine the noises you would make while trying to do so but you are trying to kill them with a giant teletubby stuffed toy and see how the other person would respond.
Hope that helps,
Mike