im lost
i was functioning fine just 2 short months ago now im in the middle of this rollercoaster i have a 2 year old son i look at him in i start to cry cause his daddy is so messed up i took leave from work and soon i have to go back i have so many bills and my poor wife is working her but off sometimes i just want to die but my family needs me but im so scared and misreable please help
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You sound in so much pain. Do you have anyone in your family to share these feelings with?It also sounds you have a lot of stess due to financial concerns on top of the emotional pain.Please do not keep this inside.I hope maybe someone will respond with more insight and wisdom. Also hold that precious child. In the past just holding my child helped me to get through some dark thoughts. Work this program. Pray even if it feels God is not listening.
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wayneg,
Two years ago, I sat in front of the TV flipping channels for no apparent reason, crying my eyes out (literally shaking all over and sobbing and hyperventilating)concerned about my son who was suffering from depression at the time, knowing, that by my own example, he had not learned effective coping skills in life,(OK so I didn't know it was the coping skills at that moment, but I knew my actions and words had spilled over into his life) and desperately praying to God to guide me in some way to help him and deliver me from the grips of panic attacks, anxiety and bouts of depression.
Yup, I was a mess and had known it for years and even had doctors telling me now and then with my trips to the ER that I should get meds for anxiety.
Well I didn't, for almost 30 years.
So anyway, that very night while flipping channels I hit on a channel playing Lucinda's infomercial. It stopped me dead in my tracks.
Somehow I caught the infomercial right at the beginning and after listening for about 2 minutes said" OMG that's ME".
You know, I really believe that God intervened here and was probably saying something like " Hey you, here's something that can help, take it , I'm throwing it right in your lap, it's just what you need and now you have to make a choice".
It was amazing. I ordered the program the next day , thinking that I'd probably send it back, but what the heck, I'll try it out.
My negative thoughts always popped in there somewhere.
Please understand, I had given myself every "reason" in the book for many many years as to why I was the way I was.
I was abused as a child, verbally and physically, was born with multiple heart defects and have had 13 surgeries throughout my life-heart and others-was married in the past to a very abusive man, was disabled from a car accident 10 years ago, dealt with a verbally abusive sister that most people would have shipped off to an abandoned island somewhere
, (hah you think I jest here),suffered with daily, horrendous panic attacks, eventually became agoraphobic to the point that I could not drive at all by myself, and constantly beat myself up every day with negative thoughts, lowering my self esteem into the pits.
Am I OK now? Yes. Better than I ever could have imagined. I have strength from growing with life's experiences, I have courage that I never dreamed would be a part of me, I have gained so much wisdom from my own pain and become a help to others, I have accomplished many good things in life that I now give myself credit for and I'm finally CONTENT and PEACEFUL most of the time.
The bottom line here. You CAN get off that roller coaster. It's a conscious decision and it takes work to get there and it's worth every minute you spend getting there.
For yourself, your wife and that beautiful little son of yours, make the choice to change.
We decide to stay the way we are or we decide to change. One brings misery and one brings comfort. IN deciding to change ourselves, we also bring comfort, confidence and increased self esteem to our children.
My own children, now in college, REALLY appreciate the new me. Actually just the old, lovable me,
with awesome coping skills now. They always loved me, but now they can truly see by example, that life has it's tough spots, but that doesn't mean there aren't lots of good, even fabulous moments in between.
If you don't have this program. Please. Try it out. If you do have it, please work at it with all your heart and mind, step by step.
I sleep better now, feel better, and see and experience life from a whole new perspective now.
Huge hugs and prayers for you.
Two years ago, I sat in front of the TV flipping channels for no apparent reason, crying my eyes out (literally shaking all over and sobbing and hyperventilating)concerned about my son who was suffering from depression at the time, knowing, that by my own example, he had not learned effective coping skills in life,(OK so I didn't know it was the coping skills at that moment, but I knew my actions and words had spilled over into his life) and desperately praying to God to guide me in some way to help him and deliver me from the grips of panic attacks, anxiety and bouts of depression.
Yup, I was a mess and had known it for years and even had doctors telling me now and then with my trips to the ER that I should get meds for anxiety.
Well I didn't, for almost 30 years.
So anyway, that very night while flipping channels I hit on a channel playing Lucinda's infomercial. It stopped me dead in my tracks.
Somehow I caught the infomercial right at the beginning and after listening for about 2 minutes said" OMG that's ME".
You know, I really believe that God intervened here and was probably saying something like " Hey you, here's something that can help, take it , I'm throwing it right in your lap, it's just what you need and now you have to make a choice".
It was amazing. I ordered the program the next day , thinking that I'd probably send it back, but what the heck, I'll try it out.
My negative thoughts always popped in there somewhere.
Please understand, I had given myself every "reason" in the book for many many years as to why I was the way I was.
I was abused as a child, verbally and physically, was born with multiple heart defects and have had 13 surgeries throughout my life-heart and others-was married in the past to a very abusive man, was disabled from a car accident 10 years ago, dealt with a verbally abusive sister that most people would have shipped off to an abandoned island somewhere
, (hah you think I jest here),suffered with daily, horrendous panic attacks, eventually became agoraphobic to the point that I could not drive at all by myself, and constantly beat myself up every day with negative thoughts, lowering my self esteem into the pits. Am I OK now? Yes. Better than I ever could have imagined. I have strength from growing with life's experiences, I have courage that I never dreamed would be a part of me, I have gained so much wisdom from my own pain and become a help to others, I have accomplished many good things in life that I now give myself credit for and I'm finally CONTENT and PEACEFUL most of the time.
The bottom line here. You CAN get off that roller coaster. It's a conscious decision and it takes work to get there and it's worth every minute you spend getting there.
For yourself, your wife and that beautiful little son of yours, make the choice to change.
We decide to stay the way we are or we decide to change. One brings misery and one brings comfort. IN deciding to change ourselves, we also bring comfort, confidence and increased self esteem to our children.
My own children, now in college, REALLY appreciate the new me. Actually just the old, lovable me,
with awesome coping skills now. They always loved me, but now they can truly see by example, that life has it's tough spots, but that doesn't mean there aren't lots of good, even fabulous moments in between. If you don't have this program. Please. Try it out. If you do have it, please work at it with all your heart and mind, step by step.
I sleep better now, feel better, and see and experience life from a whole new perspective now.
Huge hugs and prayers for you.
Pearpickinporky,
Hugs. From reading other posts of yours, you have this program.
How about taking it out again and step by step working through the whole program???
It's recommended to work through the program a second time with a few weeks break in between.
The second time through for me really reinforced the first time and added to the strength of my coping skills.
Not saying that we never experience depressing times in our lives again, we just learn how to deal with them and not let them take over our lives.
Try to keep in mind, those anxious, negative thoughts and actions are what get us depressed and can keep us there. We don't just float around in life getting depressed for no reason. Our negative thoughts take us there, arm in arm with the anxiety.
God bless.
Hugs. From reading other posts of yours, you have this program.
How about taking it out again and step by step working through the whole program???
It's recommended to work through the program a second time with a few weeks break in between.
The second time through for me really reinforced the first time and added to the strength of my coping skills.
Not saying that we never experience depressing times in our lives again, we just learn how to deal with them and not let them take over our lives.
Try to keep in mind, those anxious, negative thoughts and actions are what get us depressed and can keep us there. We don't just float around in life getting depressed for no reason. Our negative thoughts take us there, arm in arm with the anxiety.
God bless.
Wayneg,
I'm so very sorry to hear you are having such a difficult time. I assure you, you are not alone.
Those of us on this site, know where you are and understand. I hope you have ordered the program and are starting it. It has been the answer for me. I ordered the program back in 2000 and completed it. I have not regretted it a day. It has been the best investment I have made in myself and for my family. The program isn't easy, it's not an overnight fix, but this condition isn't easy and it takes time to recover. This program works, but you must make it a priority, do all they say to do, then you will see the results you are looking for. You will see amazing changes in yourself and your life for the better. You can feel better, you can do this. I was not functioning at all, in a constant state of panic 24/7. Could not even sleep. But because of God's Mercy and this program which I truly believe was Heaven Sent, I am a different person. My life is happy and content. Life isn't perfect, nor are we, and I won't tell you, you will never feel anxiety again. But the difference is, you will know what it is, you won't let it scare you so, and you will have the life coping skills this program teaches you to handle whatever situation life has for you. You deserve to be happy, and this program can give that contentment and peace you are longing for.
I am living proof. If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here. We can send private messages back and forth and I will help anyway I can.
You hang in there, don't give up. Your family needs you, and you need them. This is something you need to do for yourself and your family. This program is so wonderful. Anyway I am here if you need me and there are so many countless others here that are wonderful compassionate people who will help anytime. Come to the chat rooms too. It has helped me to talk there.
Your Friend
Angla
I'm so very sorry to hear you are having such a difficult time. I assure you, you are not alone.
Those of us on this site, know where you are and understand. I hope you have ordered the program and are starting it. It has been the answer for me. I ordered the program back in 2000 and completed it. I have not regretted it a day. It has been the best investment I have made in myself and for my family. The program isn't easy, it's not an overnight fix, but this condition isn't easy and it takes time to recover. This program works, but you must make it a priority, do all they say to do, then you will see the results you are looking for. You will see amazing changes in yourself and your life for the better. You can feel better, you can do this. I was not functioning at all, in a constant state of panic 24/7. Could not even sleep. But because of God's Mercy and this program which I truly believe was Heaven Sent, I am a different person. My life is happy and content. Life isn't perfect, nor are we, and I won't tell you, you will never feel anxiety again. But the difference is, you will know what it is, you won't let it scare you so, and you will have the life coping skills this program teaches you to handle whatever situation life has for you. You deserve to be happy, and this program can give that contentment and peace you are longing for.
I am living proof. If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here. We can send private messages back and forth and I will help anyway I can.
You hang in there, don't give up. Your family needs you, and you need them. This is something you need to do for yourself and your family. This program is so wonderful. Anyway I am here if you need me and there are so many countless others here that are wonderful compassionate people who will help anytime. Come to the chat rooms too. It has helped me to talk there.
Your Friend
Angla