totally freaking out

DMP720 · Post by **DMP720** » Thu Jun 26, 2008 4:18 am

okay so im having an anxiety attack while typing this...but for some STUPID reason I was on yahoo answer because I was looking up a dream interpretation and while I was on there,....there was a new question someone asking if they could die from a panic attack...well....of course I clicked it..duh...and all these people were saying yes etc etc...and I wanted to go through the computer and just put all these people saying these stupid things in a room with ME...and everyone else dealing with panic and anxiety and make them SEE what WE go through every FREAKIN DAY.

Im done venting about that but...I feel like venting some more about this..

My boyfriend who I live with got a new job. He is gone from 6.45 am until about 5:15 pm...Its a real good paying job so he had to take it...its reallll far away too...like 45 min. I freak myself out so bad everyday because I cant talk to him...He was the only one who I really called to calm myself down..if I ever felt doubtful I would call him..well..now I cant. I cry about it everyday. It just seemed like my life was getting in order...now this. I need some advice,...I dont know how to keep my mind busy..or what to do when or call when I freak out... Im still scared of these stupid body syptoms.. I dont know how many times you guys or my therapist...or anyone has to tell me that my heart wont explode and I wont die...ahh!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jun 26, 2008 4:33 am

You are reaching out that is a positive thing. Remind yourself what you do right, put down the bat and hug yourself, nurture yourself. I sometimes call the crisis hotline when I need to talk to someone, it is free and it is ok.
We won't die from anxiety attacks, we have to feel the feelings and walk through it. Try and be kind to yourself, have you ever done anything bad because you are having an anxiety attack, so why would you start now. It is so hard and so scary and so confusing, but you can get past it, it will take time and work, you must believe you can do it or you wouldn't be trying. I hope you can take this advise in the loving spirit it is given. Take what you like and leave the rest. Keep posting each day, keep reaching out. you are worth it.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jun 26, 2008 4:42 am

whats the crisis hotline #?? Thank you for your kind words,,i swear any affromation thats not mine is wonderfuk

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jun 26, 2008 4:53 am

The crisis hotline # is in any phone book and is free. I used it once and they are very nice and will talk with you. If you need someone to talk to, call them!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jun 26, 2008 5:36 am

You will get through this. Just remember, it is only temporary. I know it doesn't feel that way, but it is. Cindyrella is right, you need to be kind to yourself. You would never yell at your boyfriend or any close friend or family member and treat them poorly if they were going through this, so please do not beat yourself up, love yourself, baby yourself and tell yourself, like you would anybody else, it will be okay, you will get through this. Just remind yourself that you are a capable, self-reliant woman who is her own safety net. Good Luck and let me know how things are going.

LisaLisa

derfy · Post by **derfy** » Thu Jun 26, 2008 5:37 am

I understand perfectly how do you feel. A few months ago my son moved out of the house and I was left alone during the day. I had to overcome that and it took me a while. Now I feel more comfortable at home alone. Not there quite yet but improving. One thing it helped was to plan my day setting times of the day to clean or go grocery shopping, et.. If I was very panicky I would come to chat that way I didn't feel alone. Everyday I would plan something even dinner and the day would go faster. Hope this help. Distract yourself and plan our day.
Dalma