Hi,
I'm on week 8 and doing better. I'm facing my fears and still have some anxiety. I've been having more anxiety attacks lately which I attribute to our stressful situation. We are hoping to move 2500 miles away to California this summer and we are trying to finish remodeling our house which we've been working on pretty much constantly for the past 18 months.
I have applied for a nursing position in CA and they want to fly me out for a formal interview.
Now I have flown before, but only 2 times. I chose my flights, airline, ect, but I'm afraid that the hospital will just send me the tickets. I don't want to be in a really small plane, 737 is what I flew in before and I would prefer that. Also I know that Southwest has a very good crash history, or lack thereof and would feel safer flying with them again. If they choose the flight, I may have 3 connections, I don't want to be sitting at airports and dragging the time on.
I've always been afraid to fly, probably from the time I was six, I always heard my mother say that she would never fly in an airplane and if they crash, you are dead, ect... Therefore, I've never had a fair chance not to be afraid.
For the record I forced myself to appear very calm when we flew before for the sake of my kids. They are not afraid to fly and are very excited about it.
Anyone else afraid to fly??? Some of my what if's:
What if the plane crashes?
What if a fire starts in the aircraft and we are burnt alive?
What if I have a panic attack and feel like I want to get out and get some fresh air?
What if we have to make an emergency landing for some reason?
What if I am so afraid that I just start crying?
I'm terrified of police and what if I act strangely on the plane because I'm afraid (crying or feeling like I need to walk around alot, ect) and the flight attendants call the police when we land?
OK, I think that's about it. I know that chances are, I'm going to be just fine. I feel guilty getting on an airplane with my kids, like I am risking their lives or something and I'm a horrible parent.
Take care,
Ocean