So Ok . . I know some of you wonderful people know my story. I have been on anti depressants now for 12 days!!! I am staying very hopeful with them too. Well i def had some good days but the past 4 days i have been feeling bleh and depressed and irritable but i can safely say this must be because of my PMDD that i have. I get real anxious and depressed etc a week before my period and i just started taking Yaz (birth control pill prescribed for my PMDD)one month ago and right now i am on the placebo pills and 2 days till my pack ends and start a new one. . . anyway, i guess I am pretty impatient and when one little thing goes wrong i feel like thats it!!!! I'm never gonna get better etc. . Well, i feel sad cause i was feeling good on my new anti depressants than started to feel bleh again and im scared this means the meds stopped working or something like that. Guess i'd like reassurance that the meds are still going to work. But the thing is I'll feel depressed and feel my obsessive thoughts start to creep up but im noticing that im getting tired over it and just say "whatever " when i get like that. I mean i still feel bad but its like im sick of reacting to it. I used to seriously freak out when i got this way. I would feel soooooo hopeless and now i don't think of it as being so hopeless just see it as being sooooo annoying and i don't think about when it'll go away. . . i guess this if floating? I mean i still get anxious/depressed over these thoughts but i don't panic like before.. . . i dunno is this me getting better? I dunno anymore. can someone enlighten me lol? thank you all
ps- is obsessive thinking caused from anxiety or depression? I do know my neg. thoughts cause me to be depressed. . just curious how to label the obsessive thoughts.
Is this part of the recovery process??
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Holly,
I'd say that it's a small piece of the recovery puzzle for sure. My counselor just recently told me that my being angry more rather than fearful is a huge and great sign that I'm getting better. Hope that encourages you.
I do have to say that I sense the desperation in your posts, much like me sometimes where I'm wanting to fix myself so badly. I'd encourage you to think a bit about the desperation and try to remember realistically that this could take a long time. There are lots of habits to break, fears to part and uncomfortable feelings to float through. In a recent book I read, it emphasized that the more open we are to it taking a long time, the shorter it may actually be to recover.
Are you on meds for depression? I thought they took a few weeks or more to make a difference.
I'd say that it's a small piece of the recovery puzzle for sure. My counselor just recently told me that my being angry more rather than fearful is a huge and great sign that I'm getting better. Hope that encourages you.
I do have to say that I sense the desperation in your posts, much like me sometimes where I'm wanting to fix myself so badly. I'd encourage you to think a bit about the desperation and try to remember realistically that this could take a long time. There are lots of habits to break, fears to part and uncomfortable feelings to float through. In a recent book I read, it emphasized that the more open we are to it taking a long time, the shorter it may actually be to recover.
Are you on meds for depression? I thought they took a few weeks or more to make a difference.
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kdlady,
as far as i know, you are correct...i was told when my dr prescribed effexor for me that it takes atleast 3 weeks for it to get into the system.
holly, i can totally feel you and know where you are right now. i also can get the sense of all of the hard work that you are putting into recovery.
i know that for me, anxiety is a very sneaky thing, and when I believe that I am symptom free I will notice that I have a tight chest, or a cloudy head, or a "tired" head feeling. then when i become aware of this, i begin to get nervous or my heart might flutter. i have to really let it go, and float with the feelings for them to subside- which for me is difficult, because my natural tendency right now is to bear down and fight!
one thing that seems to work for me is distraction. do you distract yourself during the day? any activities that really take you out of yourself?
my family went to the Smoky Mountains of TN this past weekend, and for the 1st time in months (maybe even a year?) I was completely symptom free from Saturday evening until Monday afternoon.
when i met with my counselor on tuesday, i suggested that the unfamiliar places, etc took me out of myself to just relax and enjoy.
work seems to do this, as i am anxious going into work and then it fades. i don't realize that it is gone until i am leaving to go home. anxiety, ofcourse is waiting for me as i leave...but the lesson for me is that i was distracted and out of myself for atleast 2-3 hours.
i am finding that exercise and church also do this for me.
do you have any hobbies or things that release you from yourself and you can be completely immersed in to DISTRACT yourself?
i don't know if it helps, but distraction may cut down on some of the obsessive thinking, which may lessen your symptoms.
as far as i know, you are correct...i was told when my dr prescribed effexor for me that it takes atleast 3 weeks for it to get into the system.
holly, i can totally feel you and know where you are right now. i also can get the sense of all of the hard work that you are putting into recovery.
i know that for me, anxiety is a very sneaky thing, and when I believe that I am symptom free I will notice that I have a tight chest, or a cloudy head, or a "tired" head feeling. then when i become aware of this, i begin to get nervous or my heart might flutter. i have to really let it go, and float with the feelings for them to subside- which for me is difficult, because my natural tendency right now is to bear down and fight!
one thing that seems to work for me is distraction. do you distract yourself during the day? any activities that really take you out of yourself?
my family went to the Smoky Mountains of TN this past weekend, and for the 1st time in months (maybe even a year?) I was completely symptom free from Saturday evening until Monday afternoon.
when i met with my counselor on tuesday, i suggested that the unfamiliar places, etc took me out of myself to just relax and enjoy.
work seems to do this, as i am anxious going into work and then it fades. i don't realize that it is gone until i am leaving to go home. anxiety, ofcourse is waiting for me as i leave...but the lesson for me is that i was distracted and out of myself for atleast 2-3 hours.
i am finding that exercise and church also do this for me.
do you have any hobbies or things that release you from yourself and you can be completely immersed in to DISTRACT yourself?
i don't know if it helps, but distraction may cut down on some of the obsessive thinking, which may lessen your symptoms.
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Hi Holly & Everyone,
My first AD was Effexor and although my doctor told me it would take a couple of weeks to start feeling it's effects the pharmacist told me at least 4 -6 weeks. Well the pharmacist was right. It was 6 weeks of being so nauseated, no appetite and still depressed. I remember the 1st day I woke up feeling like a huge weight had been lifted off my mind and body...it was the best day I had in so many years. I had motivation to do things again. I did the white tornado through the house, called people and talked with enthusiasm. So be patient with the meds...they do take time...and each med is different..each body is different. Just try to live each moment, hour, day, and relax by doing anything that is comforting...even naps.
I'm praying for you all, everyday.
Take care.
My first AD was Effexor and although my doctor told me it would take a couple of weeks to start feeling it's effects the pharmacist told me at least 4 -6 weeks. Well the pharmacist was right. It was 6 weeks of being so nauseated, no appetite and still depressed. I remember the 1st day I woke up feeling like a huge weight had been lifted off my mind and body...it was the best day I had in so many years. I had motivation to do things again. I did the white tornado through the house, called people and talked with enthusiasm. So be patient with the meds...they do take time...and each med is different..each body is different. Just try to live each moment, hour, day, and relax by doing anything that is comforting...even naps.
I'm praying for you all, everyday.
Take care.
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Hi, I have been on/off the cycle of anti-depressants for years now. You must be patient. It does indeed take 2-4 weeks to start feeling the effects of meds. However, please be aware that the getting better can create more depression. I know it sounds strange, but I have always used selective memory to get through the tough times and when the meds started working, things started to come back to me. They had just been waiting to be dealt with. Because I know to expect this in myself I can prepare for it, and usually can come up with a plan and support to get through it. Good Luck and be patient, Lexa