I am New

Moonlightsage · Post by **Moonlightsage** » Mon Dec 22, 2008 9:01 am

I just sign up to this chats and e-mails, and
it's giving me an anxiety to figure out how to
work this system. I wish it was esier. I don't
even know if I am doing it right at this moment.
I am on the program for a month now and at first
I was very exiated,felling good etc. Yesterday
I started feeling fear and depression again, just like a light switch. I called the Stress
Center and was very dissapointed with the conversation. I told the lady that I have bi-polar and she told me that program probably will not help me. It was very discouraging. I am not quiting though, I will continue, I have nothing to loose anymore just my mind. I have been crying today,but I have to pull myself together and go to work. I am a Flight Attendant and I supposed to smile and take care of others, so like Lucinda said I will fake it till I make it.Did anyone else had some moments
of discouragment from the company? Moonlightsage

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Dec 23, 2008 6:20 am

Hi, I am new to this chat. I have recently started the program. I decided to start because my boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me. He was my best friend...my rock...and now I feel completely alone. i have been suffering with anxiety for about 8 years and I was holding myself together by depending on him. Now that he is gone, although we still hang out in the same groups which makes it more difficult, I cant seem to cope. I find myself reaching out to every person I can find in my phonebook for some kind of reinforcement and support but I feel like i am pushing them away with my negativity. I cannot seem to find peace and comfort within myself and I cant go out with my friends without feeling like I am stuck in this little shell that I cant break out of because I am in so much pain. I dont know how to let go and move on. Im so angry and depressed and scared of the future...I dont know what to do anymore. Im am so lost.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Dec 23, 2008 6:31 am

Hi I am new to this also and can feel for you. I feel the same way. Scared and stuck.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 08, 2009 5:54 am

Hey my daughter is going through the same thing. She thought she would marry this guy and depended on him as her rock. She is back at school and all alone. I can feel for you. Part of my problem with anxiety is constant worry about her.