Think I had a Good Day without Losing My Mind

Engine2 · Post by **Engine2** » Sun Apr 06, 2008 1:06 pm

So, I had debated whether or not I should post about my day. Never like to be selfish or self-centered like my step-mother use to accuse me of, but then I was reading NBGuy's post and thought I should put a good message up here about my day and not breaking down.

I had a great Saturday w/o much anxiety, though being on call for work I kept anticipating a bad weekend of phone calls because the last couple of months that is how work has been for all of us on-call guys. So, that comes and goes and I have a good day with the kids (and wife).

We started the day with the little league parade and then from there we did a bunch of things, including playing outside. It was a great day.

At 1am (Sunday morning) I got a work call, that took about 5 minutes and I was up for a bit.

I went to bed around 2am and then got a call from my brother's cell phone around 5am.

It was my sister and she was asking me about how the cell phone company could or could not track phones since she said she got robbed at gun point and the guy took her and her friends cell phones.

My sister is 19 and HOLY COW I was thinking that she is so lucky. I mean, what kept him from doing something more terrible.

My sister goes to college in the same state that my younger brother lives in (thank god) as at least she had someone to be with after an event like that.

So, we spoke for a bit, she assured me she was alright and I then went back to bed.

Woke up a little later with the double interruptions to my sleep and when I made myself breakfast I had my chest tightness, etc and felt that I might have a panic attack.

I spoke to my oldest son (age 6), eating breakfast, and trying to read the paper.

I acknowledged that I might have a panic attack and decided not to take a pill.

I have since made it all day and have done well. Still feel a little tense, but even my wife acknowledged that what my sister went through likely could be playing havoc on my brain.

I know this is long, but overall I thought it was a good day as i was able to accept what might happen and push through it.

In the end, it was a great day.

gotta run, kids are barking!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Apr 06, 2008 1:42 pm

Good job, Engine2! A good day indeed. It sounds like a tough one, but you rose up. That's great! Here's to a good one you can build on. God bless!

epa · Post by **epa** » Sun Apr 06, 2008 2:30 pm

Hi Engine.

You are such a strong person. When I was having trouble with anxiety, I couldn't even bear to hear bad news about strangers on television. You are doing great! Stay stong and courageous. I have a feeling, you are going to be anxiety-free real soon.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Apr 06, 2008 3:18 pm

that is really good. great job working through it in a very tense situation. hope you have a good week

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 6:42 am

Engine2 first of all I feel so bad for what happended to your sister and thank God that she made it through that without any physical injuries. But, you did WONDERFUL

considering the interuptions. After feeling like your not normal for so long, it makes you appreciate things like watching a parade and playing outside with the kids. Good for you!! And remember YOU are in control, anxiety is not.

mack · Post by **mack** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 7:06 am

Engine2,

So thankful to hear that your sister is OK!

And so proud of you! AWESOME job!!! DOn't you dare think that is selfish or self-centered! That is what these boards are for! FOr you to post concerns and get answers and support...and for you to post accomplishments and get positive reinforcement! You got mine for sure!!!

Good job! You did great getting through the anxiety - and accepting it and floating was right on target! Good for you!

Dawn

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 8:27 am

Congratulations engine 2 on your accomplishments. I'm glad to hear that your sister is ok. That was very scary and you we're able to deal with it. Give yourself a pat on the back for a job well down. Take care and God Bless.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 8:45 am

Good Job Glad your sister is ok, and It looks like you're coping with it good too! Hang in there!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 9:48 am

It's never self-centered to share your successes:). Anytime anyone of us shares our triumphs, it helps all of us so it is the most unselfish act you can do-taking the time to type and encourage all of us:)!

Take care,
luvpiggy

Dsrtdwllr · Post by **Dsrtdwllr** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 10:19 am

Thanks everyone!

I am still hanging in there though some of my normal physical symptoms have me hanging on the edge of my seat.

Spoke to my mom for a few minutes today and she is totally freaked out about my sister, so, she is making a point to drive down to the college and spend the day with her Saturday.

I tried to reassure our mom that my sister is strong and all will be OK.