Hi guys,
I was just starting to feel better and I feel like I sabotaged it! With my anxiety/depression I have a lot of disassociation/depersonalization, it is my biggest symptom. So, I was at Barnes n Noble yesterday and I starting reading a book about Disassociative Identity Disorder. I had so many of the symtoms that the people had that I started freaking out and thought that maybe I am misdiagnosed. They say that DID can be confused w/ anxiety and depression, so that just sent me over the edge. I often feel detached, "not real", going through the motions, mechanical like people w/ DID but the one thing they lack, that I have plenty of is emotion. They feel constantly "numb" and one guy said he couldn't even cry when his mom died!
Please help I'm making myself completely nuts with this!!!
So mad at myself!!
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Roc,
you are no longer allowed to go researching anything other that what's in the program right now.
I am the same way. If hear about something, I either have it, or I'm worried about when I'll get it.
Focus on your program and working on writing down your thoughts and turning them into positive. This is going to be a long hard battle to recovery. But we'll get thru it! You have the skills to stop worrying about the DID. You do not have it. I feel detatched and disassociated all the time. It's part of the anxiety. It's your brains way of taking a little rest when we've been sending it into overdrive. We will get through this. Take it one minute at a time!
you are no longer allowed to go researching anything other that what's in the program right now.
I am the same way. If hear about something, I either have it, or I'm worried about when I'll get it.
Focus on your program and working on writing down your thoughts and turning them into positive. This is going to be a long hard battle to recovery. But we'll get thru it! You have the skills to stop worrying about the DID. You do not have it. I feel detatched and disassociated all the time. It's part of the anxiety. It's your brains way of taking a little rest when we've been sending it into overdrive. We will get through this. Take it one minute at a time!
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You have emotions this is not you. Let it go, you are okay. You are driving yourself nuts with this, stop (you have the key). Replace this with positive thoughts. ~I do not suffer from DID, I suffer of anxiety and depression. I'm working thru my problems and I will get better with time.~
Your anxiety is tricking you to believe this, its your minds way of turning on the brakes and "sabotaging" your progress. Let it go, its a new day and you obviously do not suffer from DID
You are obviously a passionate person!
Your anxiety is tricking you to believe this, its your minds way of turning on the brakes and "sabotaging" your progress. Let it go, its a new day and you obviously do not suffer from DID
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Hunny,
I hate to say it, but you really need to NOT read stuff like that. The fact that you reacted with fear after reading that, only proves you have anxiety. Trust me on this. You do not have DID. You would KNOW if you did. Did you feel anxious and panicky after reading that book? Yes. Do you know what that means? It means you have an anxiety disorder. And being spacey is a very common symptom of anxiety, one of the most common. Usually with DID you have not the slightest clue as to who you are. I think you have a bit of an idea. As for me, I know. I am 22 years old living in Minnesota with my boyfriend and I work as a typesetter in an office building. See? No identity disorder there. Do I feel spaced out a lot? You bet. Symptom of anxiety, that's all. I've been learning how to accept it for what it is and live with it. When you accept it, surprisingly enough, it eases up. I usually feel really funny when I wake up and going to bed and I try to accept it and float with it. I let the feelings/thoughts be there and I go about my business. It's when you are afraid of them and fight them, that they become a major problem and stick around. The truth is they are harmless and so are your scary thoughts. Keep that in mind and please, for the sake of yourself, stop researching other crap. Focus on anxiety.
I hate to say it, but you really need to NOT read stuff like that. The fact that you reacted with fear after reading that, only proves you have anxiety. Trust me on this. You do not have DID. You would KNOW if you did. Did you feel anxious and panicky after reading that book? Yes. Do you know what that means? It means you have an anxiety disorder. And being spacey is a very common symptom of anxiety, one of the most common. Usually with DID you have not the slightest clue as to who you are. I think you have a bit of an idea. As for me, I know. I am 22 years old living in Minnesota with my boyfriend and I work as a typesetter in an office building. See? No identity disorder there. Do I feel spaced out a lot? You bet. Symptom of anxiety, that's all. I've been learning how to accept it for what it is and live with it. When you accept it, surprisingly enough, it eases up. I usually feel really funny when I wake up and going to bed and I try to accept it and float with it. I let the feelings/thoughts be there and I go about my business. It's when you are afraid of them and fight them, that they become a major problem and stick around. The truth is they are harmless and so are your scary thoughts. Keep that in mind and please, for the sake of yourself, stop researching other crap. Focus on anxiety.
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hey roc26. as everyone else said " stay away from the books that have nothing to do with anxiety/depression". i to like to read about health, and the mind, other sickness/ cures. thats how we throw ourselves in the "what if" state. which trust me, we do not need. try reading a book on jokes. or comedy, or love story, or something funny, do crossword puzzles. or something to take away that "WANT" to read diagnoses. stay clear of there. we wanna point the finger to something other than anxiety, but what it comes down too. is that, thats what we have, plain and simple. no other problems, focus on the program, easier said then done, but that one moment u start feeling good. go straight to the program, the minute ur feeling down, reasure urself about how far u've come in the program, and no reading in ur down times. k. or good ones for that matter. good luck..