Out of Balance

DMP720 · Post by **DMP720** » Tue Jul 01, 2008 2:55 am

Anyone ever feel...just really "out of balance" Ivebeen on my period for a few days now and just feel really realllyyy bad. Crying non stop 24/7 dont feel like doing anything at all...Ive gained like 30lbs every since (despite working out 5 days a week)I've been dealing with anxiety a year ago..so when I put clothes on nothing fits and makes me feel even WORSE and want to cry more. Blah...thats how I feel..just blah and sad. I cant get myself out of this funk lately.

I just feel like im not happy. Nothing makes me happy. I dont feel like im on the right path. Sooo confused. Sooo sad.

the only time im happy is when im busy at work..thats it.. I work at an icecream place so it makes me happy. I take 10mg of lexapro a day...and at least that helps me control my stress levels...I just want to be happy again. I cant find the BALANCE! Either I gogogogogogogo or I sitsitsitsitsit lol...
Any adive or encourgament....

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jul 01, 2008 2:58 am

And im very obsessive lately. I get on a kick and dwell on it.. I obsess over scary thoughts of....hurting myself and not want to be here(BUT I DO WANT TO BE HERE!!) and obsess over my weight...and over that im not doing what I went to school for...and that I LOOK STRESSED AND UGLY...I need someone to hit me with some reality

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jul 01, 2008 3:07 am

Wow it almost feels like I am writing that post. I feel the SAME WAY. Nothing makes me happy I just do it to pass the time until I can go to bed. I have gained a little weight too and every morning when I am getting dressed I am disgusted. I try to work out 3 to 4 times a week but it doesnt help. I try thinking positive and staying busy, but when I am busy I want to be doing nothing and when I am doing nothing I want to be busy. I am constantly uncomfortable and on edge. I have those feelings too and I wish I could tell you how to get better but I don't know because I am in the same position. If you ever want to talk you can private message me and I will be happy to talk

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jul 01, 2008 3:16 am

I've been feeling the same way too recently. I dont want to do anything but when I'm not doing anything I feel guilty but when I'm working I feel like I just want to go home and lay around. I'm happy at work sometimes and other times I am just stressed. I feel like i can't get a good balance either. I'm trying positive self talk when I remember too but usually I just keep focusing on the negative.