I went through the program about 2 years ago, and everything was great, However I appear to be on a course of total self destruct at the min.
I have gained 14lbs in this past 2 months, I have started drinking rather heavy again I.E drunk Friday and Saturday night, I am having issues sleeping, I see every hour on the clock at night, I wake up with palpitations, I have started missing days at work and today received a written warning for attendance. I can't get up in the mornings, it takes me 2 cups of coffee and a bowl of sugary type cereal like Lucky Charms before I can function. I have become very rude and ignorant to people especially my family, I snap easily, I have got into debt on totally stupid things this past while I.E buying things I dont need and cant afford.
Its not anxiety, I have been down that route before, may be depression but I don't feel depressed as such, just pi$$ed of in a bad mood 99% of the time.
What is going on??
I seem to be stuck on self destruct and don't know what to do?
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Hi,
In this case, since you do not think it is anxiety or depression, I would seek the help of a trained counselor. There are many other medical conditions, and mental health diagnoses that incorporate some of the symptoms you are describing. For example, people with bipolar disorder, adjustment disorders, and addictions often exhibit self-destructive symptoms. I am not a medical doctor, not a counselor, and I am not trying to scare you at all, but I just want to encourage you to seek professional help so that you can get to the answers you need.
Take care,
luvpiggy
In this case, since you do not think it is anxiety or depression, I would seek the help of a trained counselor. There are many other medical conditions, and mental health diagnoses that incorporate some of the symptoms you are describing. For example, people with bipolar disorder, adjustment disorders, and addictions often exhibit self-destructive symptoms. I am not a medical doctor, not a counselor, and I am not trying to scare you at all, but I just want to encourage you to seek professional help so that you can get to the answers you need.
Take care,
luvpiggy
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Ew not good, I had thought of bi-polar but then I got checked for that when I was in one of my health anxiety bouts not so long ago, god I pity my poor doctor back then, I had everything that was going, or I thought I did.Originally posted by luvpiggy:
Hi,
In this case, since you do not think it is anxiety or depression, I would seek the help of a trained counselor. There are many other medical conditions, and mental health diagnoses that incorporate some of the symptoms you are describing. For example, people with bipolar disorder, adjustment disorders, and addictions often exhibit self-destructive symptoms. I am not a medical doctor, not a counselor, and I am not trying to scare you at all, but I just want to encourage you to seek professional help so that you can get to the answers you need.
Take care,
luvpiggy
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Dear Pear,
I can relate very much to what you are saying. I have been going through annxiety and depression for years. I am seeing a therapist and recently had a break through. I would get horrible "annxiety" then feel guilty. It was a cycle I was really stuck in. I also like you drank on weekends. Then it escalated into drinking almost daily. No matter how hard I tried I couldnt seem to stop. What I have recently discovered is that some annxiety and depression is caused from repressed anger. When I finally made this connection my annxiety suddenly decreased and my depression has begun to lift. I have been involved with trying to modify my behavoir for years. What really seemed to work for me is this. When I feel what I had described as annxiety, I then try to go back and see what I was thinking about. Sure enough its something with my past Now i know its really my anger making me annxious. Its also why I was drinking. It was a an attempt to get the anger to go away. I was seriously worried I would harm someone if I was angry. I'm not saying im cured but it has helped to have this extra self awareness. IM in the process of trying to resolve the anger I have. Both at those who have wronged me and anger at myself for allowing it or not being able to do something about it sooner.
I can relate very much to what you are saying. I have been going through annxiety and depression for years. I am seeing a therapist and recently had a break through. I would get horrible "annxiety" then feel guilty. It was a cycle I was really stuck in. I also like you drank on weekends. Then it escalated into drinking almost daily. No matter how hard I tried I couldnt seem to stop. What I have recently discovered is that some annxiety and depression is caused from repressed anger. When I finally made this connection my annxiety suddenly decreased and my depression has begun to lift. I have been involved with trying to modify my behavoir for years. What really seemed to work for me is this. When I feel what I had described as annxiety, I then try to go back and see what I was thinking about. Sure enough its something with my past Now i know its really my anger making me annxious. Its also why I was drinking. It was a an attempt to get the anger to go away. I was seriously worried I would harm someone if I was angry. I'm not saying im cured but it has helped to have this extra self awareness. IM in the process of trying to resolve the anger I have. Both at those who have wronged me and anger at myself for allowing it or not being able to do something about it sooner.
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Yes I am filled with anger and bitterness, I often drift back to things people have done on me, and thing about what I should have done in the situation and in turn get me more angry, AT work I can't show this side of me, but at home I will snap at the children over the smallest things. The drinking at the weekends is freedom for a while from all my troubles, however come Sunday evening it comes back worse. If I had to pick one emotion I experience most often it would be frustration.Originally posted by Mary bea:
Dear Pear,
I can relate very much to what you are saying. I have been going through annxiety and depression for years. I am seeing a therapist and recently had a break through. I would get horrible "annxiety" then feel guilty. It was a cycle I was really stuck in. I also like you drank on weekends. Then it escalated into drinking almost daily. No matter how hard I tried I couldnt seem to stop. What I have recently discovered is that some annxiety and depression is caused from repressed anger. When I finally made this connection my annxiety suddenly decreased and my depression has begun to lift. I have been involved with trying to modify my behavoir for years. What really seemed to work for me is this. When I feel what I had described as annxiety, I then try to go back and see what I was thinking about. Sure enough its something with my past Now i know its really my anger making me annxious. Its also why I was drinking. It was a an attempt to get the anger to go away. I was seriously worried I would harm someone if I was angry. I'm not saying im cured but it has helped to have this extra self awareness. IM in the process of trying to resolve the anger I have. Both at those who have wronged me and anger at myself for allowing it or not being able to do something about it sooner.
Everyone here knows I go down this route but it sounds like all the substances you are putting in your body is not doing you much good at all.
You are taking in a lot of toxins via alcohol, refined sugar, caffeine, etc. and you might have a dependence on them. Once it starts to leave you body, you feel crappy, and you go into detox mode and your body cries out for more via cravings.
And yes, these substances will make you moody and snappy because it has an enormous effect on your nervous system and blood sugar levels. The highs and lows from alcohol, caffeine and refined sugars are very common.
So my suggestion would be, look at cleaning up your diet and getting into a good exercise regimen and you will start to feel tons better.
Warning: the first 3 days you will get some heavy detox like headaches, tiredness and body aches but stick it out and in no time you'll feel fantastic.
You are taking in a lot of toxins via alcohol, refined sugar, caffeine, etc. and you might have a dependence on them. Once it starts to leave you body, you feel crappy, and you go into detox mode and your body cries out for more via cravings.
And yes, these substances will make you moody and snappy because it has an enormous effect on your nervous system and blood sugar levels. The highs and lows from alcohol, caffeine and refined sugars are very common.
So my suggestion would be, look at cleaning up your diet and getting into a good exercise regimen and you will start to feel tons better.
Warning: the first 3 days you will get some heavy detox like headaches, tiredness and body aches but stick it out and in no time you'll feel fantastic.
Focus on what you want, not what you fear...