Ok. So i got a call last Wednesday early in the morning they told me to go in at 7:00am. I told them i couldn't do it since i didn't get enough sleep at all and i am scared of getting in a car.
I called them back knowing that i seriously need all the help i can get and they took my appointment back.
I went in the car with headphones and just breathed, i was shaking alot but kept thinking that it was for the best and i was proud of myself that i went there i got to talk to a good psychiotrist who was actually in Savannah and no where i am but through a computer webcam and mic set up in the office.
He wanted to put me on ativan? i think its sort of like xanax and should help since i am too sensative to antidepressants. I get that on Thursday..
On the way back i had to wait alot of hours since i was with some of my family going places.. but i was so tired from not getting any sleep that it was kind of making me feel down instead of hyped up with anxiety.
As we were heading back we almost got into a car wreck sicne someone stopped.. that gave me a panic attack and felt like my soul had jumped out of my body..
Now i'm back home and the past few days i've been trying to fix my sleeping since i sleep in the day and stay up at night. I've been trying to stay up all day sometimes i sleep off and on weird hours and for teh past days i've been eating 1 time a day fast food just like taking out my frustrations on eating junk food and now today after the past few days of messed up sleeping and junk food my stomach ... feels horrible.... it feels so tight worse than it was and the constipation hurts badly and my pelvis has sharp pains in it and i feel pressure on it and my stomach and back bad then my body starts aching.. i'm keeping taking the Prilosec but i know i need to start eating alot of stuff to help me be not constipated.. its just.. what i don't understand is..
Can anxiety make your stomach tight really bad? it just hurts... and i am getting some urethra and bladder spasms again after they had went away a few days ago..
Now nights when im trying to fix the sleeping i am getting extremely anxious and my mind races when im about to try to sleep and i think of all the stuff in the past and things i hate and it just makes me upset and hard to sleep and im breathing hard and my chest feels cold and all of this stuff is happening..
What i want to ask is .. does anyone think its because of my visit going out of the house causing all of this stuff ? or is it just the sleeping and food ? i'm not sure.. I really hope these stomach pains will stop an dgo away once again.. i keep thinking its something serious but it has happend before and stopped a while so i dont know. maybe im overthinking everything..
I'm sorry to post this i have lots of stuff running through my mind.. i was thinking of not posting anything but i havent been talking to any friends at all lately i've been sort of sleeping all day then not sleeping and its just all messed up.. too much on my mind i can't seem to rest.. and the pain i am feeling in my pelvis and stomach i keep thinking its not going to go away even if it is going to go away my mind is just so messed up right now
I keep trying to push myself to sleep at a normal time so i can be up in the day since everyone is yelling at me to also so i can go to the gateway visits easily and my whole body aches almost everyday and lately its been stomach aches and tightness in pelvis and back and its just pain everyday stressing to even get out of bed for the past few days after the car ride i have been in the bed everyday only to get up and do laundry, dishes, take a bath or cook something. ... i can't relax with these pains i hope relief comes soon.. i just keep praying to god for the relief.............
Facing the Fear
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I am NO doctor, so this is just my humble opinion.. For now, find a medication that will help get you functioning again. This is what meds are for! At the same time, starting working through the program, if you are not already.
Hang in there xlostgirlx! You can get through this! Praying for you!
John
Hang in there xlostgirlx! You can get through this! Praying for you!
John
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Well I am not doctor either, but I will try to help. First and foremost, your anxiety absolutely CAN AND WILL make you physically discomforted. The more you remind yourself about your eating habits the more you are convinced that you stomach is rebelling 
. I once was convinced I was pregnant, my anxiety got SO HORRIBLE about it that I was having every single symptom. THis is true, and to this day I believe anxiety is capable of ANYTHING!! First off, calm down, take any advice the doctor is giving you, and try to remind yourself that YOU control your thoughts. Replace them with positive reinforcement. "So I ate a few days of junkfood, I am standardly amazing on my diet, and if I choose to go back to my eating healthy, there is nothing stopping me. This will not severely injure me"
I recommend the meds WITH some other routes, which is exactly what you're doing.
You are on the right track and you don't even know it!!
Keep it up and HANG IN THERE!!
I'm rooting for you.
. I once was convinced I was pregnant, my anxiety got SO HORRIBLE about it that I was having every single symptom. THis is true, and to this day I believe anxiety is capable of ANYTHING!! First off, calm down, take any advice the doctor is giving you, and try to remind yourself that YOU control your thoughts. Replace them with positive reinforcement. "So I ate a few days of junkfood, I am standardly amazing on my diet, and if I choose to go back to my eating healthy, there is nothing stopping me. This will not severely injure me"I recommend the meds WITH some other routes, which is exactly what you're doing.
You are on the right track and you don't even know it!!
Keep it up and HANG IN THERE!!
I'm rooting for you.