I would like to offer some words of encouragement to everyone out there. As some of you know I finished the program a year ago but it is only in the last 3 months that I've "got it". I am now my own safe person and my own safe place. I am doing things and going places I would never have thought possible because I have found my faith in God and of course this program. I have a sense of confidence in myself that no matter what I will be ok.
These last few weeks have been a little rough for me. I have had some real health issues going on. Three weeks ago, I was hospitalized over night for a severe allergic reaction to an accidental ingestion of nuts. My family and I had gone for icecream and the icecream must have been accidentally cross contamintaed with nuts.
On Tuesday, I went for a breast MRI and had an allergic reaction to the contrast dye used in the MRI. I spent the afternoon in hospital. I am on alot of meds for the allergic reaction and I have not been sleeping well. I had started to notice, last sat, that I was feeling "weird" and began to notice myself beginning to obesses over mistakes I have made and the past. I initially thought oh no its back.
It took me some time to put it together but I finally figured out that i was distracting myself from having to deal with the worry of what if the MRI shows an abnormality. Now this last few days the lack of sleep has helped kick up the anxious/obessessive thinking. But what;s so cool now is that I know what it is and I have the tools to help myself.
Even though I'm feeling weird and obessessing about dum stuff at least know I am able to "catch it" before it gets out of hand and change my thinking. I am now talking back to myself and asking myself what's really bothering me. In the past i would have been paralyzed with fear and unable to function.
Despite these last few weeks, I am still feeling good about myself. I am living my life and more importantly enjoying it. I am being extra kind to myself and telling myself it's all right and I will be fine. Thank God.
Thank's for listening. I hope this helps someone not to give up and be discouraged with life. If I can overcome the panic attacks, the severe anxiety and the depresion I have battled all my life, You can do it! Keep the faith. YOU ARE SO WORTH IT.
Take care and God Bless.
Words of encouragement
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Something I have noticed which in a way is a gift for people with anxiety and depression is that we are very in tune with our bodies. Very aware. For me it has taught me to know my body better. Although it has taken me a long time to get there, so I hope all of you can get a handle on our anxiety/depression by catching it early and calming down before it gets out of control. For me it has given me more confidence that I am getting a step closer to control