fear of dieing

rev. christopher · Post by **rev. christopher** » Sun Mar 15, 2009 11:18 am

my anxtety and panic attacks witch i see to have at least one or two a day. comes froms the fear that something is worng with me that i am so scard that i am goin to die. if i think about it to much i end up have a bad panic attack. i find my self sitting around thinking of whats wrong with me now. a bump a strange smell are temp change even breaze some times can put me in panic mode i have been taking paxil for 2 weeks now cant tell that i am even on the drug. i also have xanax as a recuse med are prn. when get worse when i am alone. i wont drive anymore do even wont to step out of the house. i just hate living like this i want my life back.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Mar 16, 2009 2:43 am

I'm sorry you feel this way Reverend... I hope that you have Lucinda's program... It definitely has been making me feel like a new person... Just KNOW that you will get your life back... it's a process... but as in all accomplishments in life you have to work hard for it... Stay on this site... You have a lot of support here... it feels good to know that you're not alone... here... ur not alone!!! GOod luck... You will be back to ur old self again in no time.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Mar 16, 2009 3:35 pm

Death is my biggest fear as well. I have thought I have had just about every disease out there. When something in my body felt strange, I would obsess over it which would lead to a terrible panic attack. I am still sometimes afraid that its not anxiety, but a rare serious illness. This is something that I am working on and have made some progress. I just think calming thoughts and let myself know that I am a strong and healthy person who is becoming a new person. I REFUSE to let my life continue like it was. How far along are you in the program?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Mar 17, 2009 2:23 am

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Iv'e been there before. That was seven years ago before I got the program. The two main things that helped is positive self talk and the breathing exercise. I was on Meds also. It took about a month before the meds started working. Give it some time you will feel better. I took meds for five years and now Iv'e been off for three and with the knowledge i have about panic disorder i have managed my symptoms very well. Everyone has anxiety, you just have to learn to get it under control. My worst fear was that I was going to pass out and never be able to control myself and keep passing out. I was obsessed with the fear. Not once did I actually become unconcious. Anxiety is a lier. If feels horrible and out of control but that is a lie, you are in control. Hope this helps I have been there and It was horrible living in constant fear. You can overcome this. Take one day at a time and use the skills from the program. Before you know it you will be getting better and better.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Mar 17, 2009 4:04 am

christine,

I just had to thank you for your comment "Everyone has anxiety, you just have to learn to get it under control."

that means alot to me, as I know this to be true as well, but seldom here it from others.

anxiety is a normal, human emotion. what is not normal, is when we have it disrupt our lives like in an anxiety disorder.

last year about this time, i was hit with a horrible panic disorder that would keep me up at night for hours on end. through the 1st 3 weeks of this program, i have successfully gotten control of the panic.

however, my mind still prefers to what if things and my perhaps only lingering symptom is not having a clear head.

it is really annoying to me, as I was always extremely bright. my mind was always so sharp. to feel foggy or cloudy really hurts, and my thoughts will often center around "why do i always feel unclear in my head?", or "what if it isn't anxiety?".

anxiety breeds anxiety.

i have brief moments of being "clear", or not having to make an effort to concentrate, and it always comes from FOCUSING ON OTHERS or THE TASK AT HAND.

Distraction.

But lately I find myself getting really frustrated over the length of time that this is taking to get "back to normal".

When do I stop trying to be ok (ie- symptom free), and just be?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Mar 17, 2009 4:18 am

I believe I can understand your concern and frustration of how your head feels because I had and still do on occasion do the same thing.
But I truly think that when my brain does this it is going through a "transitional" phase. I know this may sound hokey, but if you think about this concept of your brain trying to change it's thought patterns from one extrmeme to another, there has to be an in-between. I went through this when I was trying to re-train my thought patterns. It's not a bad thing, and it will stop soon. Eventually it will taper off and you'll not even be aware of it. Sometimes my brain tries to revert back to my old ways and that's when I feel the fogginess again, but I'm glad because it alerts me that I need to be more in-tuned with what's going on and not let it happen. It's short-term. Trust me. And if you're still not convinced, go to the doctor and be checked out, and you'll just be more assured.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Mar 17, 2009 4:31 am

i can buy that Libby,

as i worked a horrible job for 5+ years, and i believe that the nature of the job and the environment not only are breeding grounds for stress and anxiety, but may have been what led to the panic as while working there i always felt cloudy headed (talking YEARS here).

i have now been out of said job for 10 months, happier, but still foggy-brained. not as bad as working at that he!! hole mind you, but annoying nonetheless.

I live with this every day until around the evening time (6pm) it seems to fade.

i see a doctor regularly, and see a counselor once a month. after some cognitive restructuring with the counselor, i have had a few sessions now where i come out and almost feel mentally vibrant and free again.

its times like that remind me that it is anxiety or the 'in-between' state that you mention.

i'm just getting tired of living with it for like, 10 months now after leaving the job.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Mar 17, 2009 5:04 am

Reverend..I am so sorry you are suffering from these panic attacks...I was agoraphobic for 21 years, and lived in a constant panic attack...I ordered the "Attack and Anxiety Program" and learned the tools, and took action...I can honestly say, that I am now panic free...I prayed for years for a way of escape, and I truly believed Jesus made the way through this program...Here is a link that you will find comforting to you soul--- Father's Love Letter-Video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BKmdIdQg3Ks

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Mar 18, 2009 5:07 pm

I thank you for your comment that Jesus helped you through! I am a very religious person but feel as if my faith as well as me is lost somewhere like I am not me but I pray and pray and truely believe even if i have to make myself believe that this program is the answer to my prayers! And also today i had that aweful scared stomack and chest spacy feeling like I am gonna die or I can't take this anymore am I gonna commit suicide or hurt myself??? I NEED ADVICE AND HELP!!!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Mar 18, 2009 6:44 pm

Ash...I am so sorry you are suffering and feel stuck in this panic and anxiety state...That feeling is horrible...I lived in a panic attack for years before I even knew what I was having...I was watching the Oprah Winfrey show, and that specific day they were doing a special on panic attacks...That is when I found out what they were, but, it took me years and years to come up with anything that would help me...I went to the public library and checked out every book that I could find on panic attacks, and nothing seemed to help...It wasn't until I found the StressCenter.com program that I recovered....So, if you will do the program, and use the tools, you will overcome the same as I did....That spacey feeling is just your brain's way of protecting itself when it is in over-load...It is actually a great thing...If you would tell yourself this when you have that spacey feeling, and do the breathing exercises; this would help you tremendously...You are not going to die from a panic attack...I had them for 21 years, and am now 46, and I am more alive than I ever was....If you have a fear of hurting yourself, then, I guarantee you that is just your anxiety talking...I had a fear of an object, and I was afraid that I would get up in the night, and hurt myself with that object, so, I hid that object every night...I didn't want it to be where I might see it...I won't tell you what the object was, because I do not want you to develop a new fear...I try and be very careful about this thing, because we have a tendency to develop new fears, when we are suffering from panic and anxiety attacks...I did not want to hurt myself, but, I was afraid that I would...If you are really suicidal, and do want to hurt yourself, then, I beg of you to seek professional help...If you are just afraid you will, but, don't want to, then it is just your anxiety, and as you work through the program, these anxious symptoms will disappear....
I check on here every day or do to see who has responded, so, if you need so more advice, or answers to new questions, then I will be here for you....I pray you do the program...I promise you it will help you more than you could ever imagine...I will be praying for you...God Bless...