Some thoughts on a Sunday

[jaywalker]

After two very big victories in my battle with anxiety in the last couple of weeks, the past week has been less than encouraging. I’ve had quite a bit of anxiety the last few days and yesterday especially. Although I did get out and accomplish some things, it was not without a panic attack. Yesterday morning I had an attack while I was out buying the equipment I needed. It pretty much ruined the rest of the day because I felt so bad after it subsided. Yesterday afternoon I had to get back out and pick up some sealer for a crack that has appeared under my kitchen sink. Again, I had a panic attack while I was there. In the end I got everything done that I needed to get done, but with a great deal of trouble.

I’m frustrated at myself because I know why I’ve stepped backward the last few days. Since starting this job I have not been participating regularly in the program I’m using to try and conquer my fears. The idea is that I will listen to the sessions two or three days a week, write in my journal daily and practice the relaxation exercises daily. I didn’t do any of that this week. I let the job be my excuse, but in truth there really is not one. I’m going to redouble my efforts this week upcoming to get back on track so that when I do have free time I can use it for something other than getting caught up on sleep.

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[jillzmind]

Jason

Way to go on getting stuff done that "had to be done" that is SUCCESS!
You sure are a go getter. The man with the plan haha. Kudos for taking action and giving yourself the TLC you need. I think you will do well.
Take it easy,
Jill~

[jaywalker]

thanks, Jill...I'm tryin'!

[SeaRunner]

Jason -

I'd give yourself a HUGE pat on the back for what you've accomplished. The fact that you confronted your fears when you were feeling your worst is so much more powerful than dealing with your anxiety when everything is great. So, I don't think you really have stepped backward at all. You clearly are learning how to cope with your anxiety. Congrats!

Be well,
Jamie