Struggles with family and anxiety

[123Happiness]

Hi,

I feel so upset right now. I live with my immediate family and there is always so much fighting. Tonight it happened between my mom and one of my brothers and of course it got ugly with lots of yelling and cursing. It's so hard for me living here epeciallyl because I'm dealing with anxiety. I'm still very afraid to be alone and deal with agoraphobia and being very dependent. I wish I could move out of here and go live somewhere where I can heal and work on myself properly. My family is very unsupportive just overall in terms of caring about if I struggle with anxiety or whatever else. I hate being so dependent on them though to feel safe. I hate that I am so afraid to be alone and that I don't have anywhere else to go, not even a friend's house especially when stuff hits the fan. I hate how mean spirited and self righteous my family can be, how they look down on others who aren't "perfect" like them. What gets me even more is that my mom claims to be a Christian/Catholic with strong beliefs and morals, yet she can treat people like garbage at the drop of a hat, including people who have supported or helped her. She's extremely two face, as is the sister who I live with also. I'm venting right now and I know I definitely need to seek help for myself outside of here and that's what I plan to do tomorrow.