In a slump..?

[Goober25]

Hi Everyone,

Hope you are panic, anxiety and depression relieved if not free today. I, on the other hand, am going through a weird little phase. In September of 2008 I had a complete breakdown - clinical depression. It was a horrifying experience that lasted until May. Even though I was beginning to recover in May, I was still having a relapse every once in awhile. Things have been really good for the past six months or so but lately something has changed.

I am feeling more subdued, tired, anxious and lacking enthusiasm. As a substitute teacher I had all of last week off but when I got called to work today, I had no desire to go (even though I did). Something is scaring me but I don't know what it is. That feeling like something bad is going to happen.

Granted these symptoms could be caused by numerous things: holidays, holidays being over, my dad experiencing some alzhiemers (and fear of him dieing), and the snow that hit New York last week -- I'm not quite sure how to pull myself out of it.

I bought Lucinda's new book but to be honest, I never even finished her 12 step program. I would get to the 5th or 6th tape and stop. Because I was feeling better. Maybe my resolution should be to complete the whole program.

Anyhow - any suggestions or recommendations to help get me back on track before these feelings manifest into a relapse would be very much appreciated.

Hope you are all well.

Goober