I'm living a country song....

bevhembree · Post by **bevhembree** » Thu Dec 09, 2010 6:10 am

"well you know those times when you feel like there's a sign there on your back that says I don't mind if you kick me, seems like everybody has. things go from bad to worse, you think they can't get worse than that, then they do!"

Oh well, I guess this down period too shall pass. Please say a prayer for me to be uplifted and I shall pray for each one of you. THANKS! Bev

Paisleegreen · Post by **Paisleegreen** » Thu Dec 09, 2010 6:32 am

Prayers sent your way!

What's going on right now with you?

bevhembree · Post by **bevhembree** » Thu Dec 09, 2010 9:28 am

OH, hubby and I had another fight last night though I was convinced it would take two to fightm and I didn't participate. But it got going, and I can actually repeat some of the names I was called last night- idoit and heifer. The threats of kicking me out and divorce showed up again, how crazy, lazy, I am. Oh, he was going to see to it that I would lose my daughter over an attempted suicide three years ago which I have had extensive successful treatment for, which he'll admit on a good day and actually praise me for it. Not to mention that he would see me living in the gutter mentally and physically. I did jump in then and tell him he had en evil heart and boy did it get worse. He's reading the Bible every night and teaching Sunday School now, and I just thinks he gets the devil in him with his anger. All over me asking if he'd like some corn with what he was grilling. He failed to tell me til things calmed down that his work was thinking of taking him off salary and putting him on just commission. So I guess I was just a kicking post for his frustrations.
Well, long story but thanks for letting me talk about it and get it off my chest. It feels better and yes, he has apologized. But scars were left in my mind and on my heart. It's scary to hear those things, which I forgot to mention how he was going tell my folks all these things about me too. He was trying to isolate me and was really a bully, I think. I have to pray the Bible will help him and God will soften his heart and tongue. If you would, pray for him too. I don't know how many more of these episodes I can take.....
God bless you all for listening and for your prayers. Beverly

Paisleegreen · Post by **Paisleegreen** » Fri Dec 10, 2010 5:34 am

Hi Beverly--I'm sorry you had to go through that. I understand how a husband can vent like that, but it isn't right. My husband did the same thing a while back when I was in a "discussion" with a son that was telling DH and I while we were watching TV late at night about certain circumstances about his schooling and employment opportunities.

When I asked on simple question, he turned it back on me, and then it got this son upset and this son took off in his truck all upset because his feelings were hurt.

So then DH was upset and stormed off to sleep in the guest room and then came back to tell me if anything happens to this son, he would blame me.

Anyway, things haven't been quite the same since then, except that is when I came here.

So with Lucinda's CDs and being able to post on here plus I have a new psychologist, things are much better.

I understand was afraid of "losing" our son and was mad at me that I confronted him on the issue that was bothering me. But my husband didn't need to show me disrespect in the first place. He by allowing this son to sort of take over, but then DH has his own issues he needs to work on.

Anyway, you are not what DH told you were. You are a survivor.

Hang in there. Paislee

kaldeb · Post by **kaldeb** » Fri Dec 10, 2010 7:07 am

I understand about the kicking post. Sorry you have to go through this. I am going through something similar with my hubby. We are now living in separate houses and it is better. He is verbally abusive and the anxiety I have had increased with every fight.

Paisleegreen · Post by **Paisleegreen** » Fri Dec 10, 2010 8:27 am

Hi kaldeb-- I'm sorry about what you have had to go through. DH sleeps in the other bedroom since he wants to listen to the radio at night when I want to sleep. I've spent many years being the one to leave the room to let him sleep, since he worked during the night.

But that has changed more and I'm claiming the bedroom now as my peaceful place. Since I'm the one that can hear very well and he can't hear unless things are turned up. And refuses to go see a Dr. So those are some of the things I'm working on with him and a therapist.

bevhembree · Post by **bevhembree** » Fri Dec 10, 2010 10:18 am

kaldeb,
I'm sorry for what you are going through. At least we can relate to each other and pray for each other. I will be thinking of you!!!!

Paislee,
you are a dear friend and mentor and counselor. Thanks for your words and support.

God bless you both!

Paisleegreen · Post by **Paisleegreen** » Sat Dec 11, 2010 12:05 pm

Thank you, Bev

Paislee