I'm Proud of Myself

Tye · Post by **Tye** » Sun Jul 20, 2008 4:34 pm

This week has been interesting. I started out knowing that I would have to work on some of the things that I avoid. I went to Costco (similar to Sam's Club). I was sweating and nervous before I even walked in the door. I had my support person with me cheering me on. I was scared, and I made it through to do all of the shopping, but had to leave before going through the checkout. I was a little disappointed in myself, but thought hey, I went in the store. something that I haven't done in years!

Then yesterday, I went to the grocery store. I had a few anxious moments, but talked myself through them. This time, I made it through the checkout line. Yes, I was sweaty and dizzy, but I wasnt shaky and I calmed myself enough to not run.

Today I ran errands again. Went to All American Recreation to look for a new foosball table, then to Radio Shack, and took a long walk. The walk was the hardest, but again I did it! I did it, and I'm so proud of myself.

I wasn't going to share this because I was thinking, "Is this really a triumph?" Then I thought, Tye that's a negative statement. I changed it. Of course it's a triumph. I am doing things now that a few weeks ago or more accurately for the past 6 years I wouldn't have done. So to me, it's a triumph. =)
I'm happy.... and I feel really good.

Barb G. · Post by **Barb G.** » Sun Jul 20, 2008 4:50 pm

It is definitely a triumph. I am so proud of you. Keep up the good work. Inch by inch it's a cinch, yard by yard it's hard. Little by little we'll all get there. Keep on keeping on. I'm encouraging myself right now too so thanks for the triumph!

TracyH · Post by **TracyH** » Mon Jul 21, 2008 4:18 am

Tye...ABSOLUTE triumphs!!! Awesome job(s)...I share the same hurdles as you, when it comes to "obstacles" that I think/thought heightened my anxiety levels (I think because the very scariest of panic attack for me, happened in a store)...as I'm going thru the program I've learned the store setting had NOTHING to do with my panic attack coming on...it was just in the store that my negative/scary thinking caused me to panic and "what if"...
I whole heartedly applaud you on your GREAT strides...keep going!
Best wishes!

SCDon · Post by **SCDon** » Mon Jul 21, 2008 4:22 am

Congrats. Those are certainly triumphs. Ihad to laugh because I worked in a Costco's from last Sept. till this April. i go back to get med refills. I still have some odd feelings in there
,even though it's a different one from where I worked. But, I use my skills and even walk around a little. We must celebrate our triumphs. They make us feel better!!

Mary Wargo · Post by **Mary Wargo** » Mon Jul 21, 2008 4:35 am

Of course this is a triumph- To be able to do something you haven't been able to do for 6 years! Yay for you.

Tye · Post by **Tye** » Mon Jul 21, 2008 5:40 am

Thanks everyone! Your comments made me feel even better.

Unicorn1524 · Post by **Unicorn1524** » Mon Jul 21, 2008 6:24 am

Congrats, Tye. Everything we do that improves our situation makes it that much better the next time. Good for you!

I am also proud of myself. I had an extremely busy weekend (traveling more than 14 hours, a family reunion, another family party). Usually I will get tired from doing too many things in a short period of time, and then I will get sick. I realize that my illnesses are from anxiety, so even though I'm tired today, I'm not sick! It gives me hope that I will be able to resume all my former activities.

Keeping the Faith · Post by **Keeping the Faith** » Mon Jul 21, 2008 6:42 am

It's ABSOLUTELY a triumph! I'm jealous! This is an issue I am working on currently and it's a slow process but I'm getting there too!

Congrats!!!

sleeplessMom · Post by **sleeplessMom** » Mon Jul 21, 2008 2:54 pm

Tye: Thank you so much for sharing your triumph...and it certainly is that. You should feel really good about the progress you are making, and it sounds like you did a great job not getting discouraged the first time when you did all those brave things but didn't quite make it through the check out, then you were able to the next time you tried. I, too, have been shy about posting in Triumphs. I will get through something that I feel really good about, then I think "what if" I post it in Triumphs and then I have a set back later on? Let's not second guess ourselves! A good thing is a good thing!

Tye · Post by **Tye** » Mon Jul 21, 2008 3:46 pm

Teri,
That's great that you did all of those things! Something to proud of! AND you didn't get sick! That's awesome.

Keeping The Faith,
Thank you. You will get there too. Like the CDs say, just do it and feel the anxiety and know you'll get through it. Not that I'm terribly strong, but I was I was there with you to help you out. For us to help each other out.

sleeplessMom,
I'm glad I'm not the only one that feels that way. But I posted and got some responses back that made me feel really good. Anything that you do that you couldn't do before; if you feel good about it, it's a triumph! So post please!
Reading everyone's comments, and posts make me feel more normal. It feels good to know you're not losing your mind or going insane, and that there are people out there just like you.

Now, I have yet another thing to do this week. Go to the dentist to have my wisdom teeth pulled. I cannot tell you the anxiety I feel just from knowing that I have to go through with it. But I'm going to do it, and get through it.

Peace and Love,

Tye