life is good - and it's a long post!

[karmaberry1]

mano - you gutted it out - good for you! i think the yawning is the body's way of getting more good air back into the body. we tend to hold our breath - even when we're deep breathing - when panicking. throw in those feelings are so physically draining - and there you have it!

my week was not stellar. tuesday i was blindsided by my boss telling me i was making a bad situation worse - and that i knew it. the email made no sense then - makes no sense now either. i'd been left out of the loop - nothing new there - and had no idea it was a bad situation. but the email was so cruel and vicious it was like a sucker punch both in the face and in the stomach. i've been physically hit that way before so trust me i do know.

i was in shock after reading it. i guess i went pale. it was about an hour before my lunch hour. a friend went with me to lunch and told me "they aren't allowed to treat people that way at work." all i said to her was she had either led the most charmed of lives there or was much better at her job than me. i told her i've been beat down like that for 9+ years now. i will say while it's nothing new - i'm always stunned when it happens.

i won't respond to the email - not in writing or verbally. if my boss wants it to go further it will have to be with the head of the department then human resources.

more than anything in this world i do not understand why people are mean in the workplace. is it just because they can be? never in a million years would i be capable of treating anybody with the meanness i've endured there.

but thinking about it now - why would grownups make the choice to be so mean to one another? there is goodness in the world for all to see and enjoy. i prefer being gentle and kind. i don't like to be angry or to inflict hurtful and painful words on anyone. when i have - and yes i have i'm most imperfect! - it leaves me physically and emotionally sick inside. even when the words are right on target!!!!

i guess some people live for drama/trauma/pain/chaos/vindictiveness. i'm not one of those people. i live to love and laugh. it's a choice - my choice.

ok i've vented to the nth degree and then some. sorry if any part of this sounded like a lecture. it wasn't intended as such LOL

i hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. that's my plan - and i will make it happen!

karma

[manofmusic]

Karma ! - Does your boss treat anyone else there like a piece of garbage or it directed mostly at you ? If the emails make no sense, then maybe she's trying to tick you off on purpose. That's certainly not unheard of in any business. The right thing to do is what you said. Take it to a higher authority and get it straightened out. You can't go thru that anymore. You're only doing damage to yourself internally by doing so. On Monday, see how things go and if it's more of the same thing, set up an appointment or go see Human Resources about this. Tell them that this is far from the first time this has happened and you need it stopped now. I had a similar situation. The difference was that I directly spoke to the jerk. For you though, it may be better to go to the top. I know you've mentioned this stuff before. You can't (and should never) have to deal with this in the workplace. In Canada, they just passed a law that now makes workplace bullying illegal. There was never a law before. But today, more and more of it goes on. That's why the law needed to be passed.

Talk with them and let me know how it went !

Actually, it sounds like there may be some resentment or envy on your bosses part towards you. Maybe he / she is just plain scared.

[karmaberry1]

there is nothing in place in the state i work preventing workplace bullying. throw in it's a fire at will state - and there you have it. i don't see going to hr as an option. that will only add fuel to whatever fire that is already burning. talk about revenge - i can't even think about it - it would be beyond horrible!

i'll just do what i've always done - look the other way and pretend it doesn't matter - that it never happened.

dr. phil would ask me "how's that working for you?" my answer back would be "well i have insurance."

people don't change. they are who and what they are. i learn that more and more every day. i'll be fine. it's a choice.

today i've made a choice to be outside in the back yard. my pool is deep green. i've totally disproved - without intending to - that a salt water pool can and will turn green if left for me to tend. i consider it a gift as my favorite color is green - it's easier.

i went to the pool place a bit ago for yet more chemicals - sigh. even they're tired of me - really! i had some free floating anxiety going on driving there and it's only about 2 miles. i'm going to put the anxiety down to yet another blasted stomach virus that's been going around - it slammed into me thursday afternoon starting with a bad headache! then what happened at work - big shock there! and the fact the person i was seeing and i parted ways - last contact by phone on wednesday night.

it was a BIG week as you can see - none of it pretty - no, not at all.

now i'm going to head for my kitchen with a broom and start clearing it out. the boys deserve a kinder, gentler, cleaner place to hang out!!!! LOL

karma

[forever young 06]

karma,
sorry to hear of your work problems. Some bosses can really throw their weight around. They feel powerful. like lucinda says we can't control other people but we can control how we react. Be less affected. You have come a long way and you can get thru this too.

wow you still got your pool open I have closed mine down but it is warmer there longer then here. you are better than all this hang in there.

[karmaberry1]

between work and the break up of what may or may not have even been a relationship i'm a bit down -feeling insecure and all that jazz. i'll rally - i always do.

thank you so much for your kind words. they are so welcome right now!

karma

[manofmusic]

I guess the laws are different wherever you go. You shouldn't have to put up with that kind of garbage. Follow your heart and do what you feel is right. Do what I do......keep an updated resume handy at all times because you just never know.

Sorry to hear about the break-up. Wanna go for a beer ? LOL Cheers.

[karmaberry1]

me? drink alcohol? LOL x forever but i'd have a club soda. give me a call - i'm waiting by the phone!

i guess i'm not relationship material. doesn't make me happy or sad. i just get a bit of the blues is all.

i will say the not being able to drive to relationship person's house took it's toll. my problem became their big problem. i find that annoying and selfish to the nth degree and beyond. yes there was more to it than that - but that part just flat out tap danced on my very last nerve. bottom line? relationship person - hereafter referred to as rp - knew about my issues with driving 5 years ago and again now. this was nothing new. i heard it then - i reheard it now. well take me as i am or leave me alone. rp will always find someone to be with that doesn't have driving issues - rp did that 5 years ago. period. the end.

i push myself hard enough to make it through MY life - i don't want others pushing me at the same time. i simply don't need it - but more importantly i don't want it.

but again there were other issues going on at the same time - and i'm going to say 105 issues would be low balling it - sigh and duh at myself

oh well it is what it is - and it was what it was. to quote a line from seinfeld - "live and learn - at least we lived." that's pretty much how i go through life.

i took my dog pony for a 2 mile walk on the river walk a bit ago. it was hot. whatever breeze there'd been before was gone gone gone! i guess the temperature hit the mid-90's today? i know there wasn't a lot of humidity - yayyyyy. i can take the heat - it's the humidity here that will slam you mercilessly to the ground aka total smack down LOL

i'm getting ready to do laundry for the upcoming week. i'm so looking forward to monday morning! LOL at myself i promise you this much - i'm not dreading it! i've been there - done that - bought the t-shirt and moved on. i'm trying SO hard to overcome the things that go on there. i did NOT focus on them this weekend - not a bit.

i hope everybody's upcoming week rocks!

karma

[manofmusic]

Then a round of Club Soda it is ! Cheers ! It sounds like it's RP's loss anyway. Shrug it off.

.....Well Elaine, it looks like ANYTHING can be compared to a Seinfeld episode ! LOL

Work for me has been as close to a dream as it can get. No problems to report. I'm waiting for the storm. (I really need to stop thinking that way.)

Were you able to make any progress at work ?

[karmaberry1]

we are absolutely right on target - life IS a seinfeld episode LOL

work is better. i haven't seen the boss much - she's very busy this year. she retires the end of june and i do understand and know they've loaded her beyond almost human AND humane endurance with work. and yes the people who put her on overdrive know exactly what it is they've done. nobody is a fool - even i know that. that sounds vague but makes total sense to me sigh and lol

i go in and do my job better than most ever could or would. that is my anthem - i've always said it about my work ethic.

i am taking a couple of hours sick leave tomorrow to go with mama to her heart doctor. it's her 6 month check up and while he is VERY good he is from india. mama can't understand OR hear his soft voice. i interpret and me and mama argue in front of him over my opinions re her health. it seems to amuse him. he more than knows i question any and everything regarding mama's health. i always will. it's who i am.

i'm in a good place tonight. i'm happy and peaceful.

mano - i understand your mindset of wondering and waiting for the next storm. never think for a minute i don't. it's my world too. always questioning the when and where of the next tactical assault. again, i'll never understand why people feel the need, the priviledge to behave that way. it's so not the who of me i know i never will have that understanding. for that i'm glad.

hang in there. tomorrow is thursday - a gift for me since i thought it was tuesday all day long!!!!! LOL at myself

karma

[*slimjim]

This is a story one person from church told us about that I wanted to share with you all:


When you awake alive in the morning, thank Creator for it.

“Let me explain the problem science has with religion.”
The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.

“You’re a Christian, aren’t you, son?”

“Yes sir,” the student says.

“So you believe in God?”

“Absolutely.”

“Is God good?”

“Sure! God’s good.”

“Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?”

“Yes”

“Are you good or evil?”

“The Bible says I’m evil.”

The professor grins knowingly. “Aha! The Bible!” He considers for a moment. “Here’s one for you. Let’s say there’s a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?”

“Yes sir, I would.”

“So you’re good...!”

“I wouldn’t say that.”

“But why not say that? You’d help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn’t.”

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. “He doesn’t, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Can you answer that one?”

The student remains silent. “No, you can’t, can you?” the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax. “Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?”

“Err, yes,” the student says.

“Is Satan good?”

The student doesn’t hesitate on this one. “No.”
“Then where does Satan come from?”

The student falters. “From God”

“That’s right. God made Satan, didn’t he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?”

“Yes sir.”

“Evil’s everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything, correct?”

“Yes”

“So who created evil?” The professor continued, “If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.”

Again, the student has no answer. “Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?”

The student squirms on his feet. “Yes.”

“So who created them?”

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question. “Who created them?” There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized. “Tell me,” he continues onto another student. “Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?”

The student’s voice betrays him and cracks. “Yes, professor, I do.”

The old man stops pacing. “Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?”

“No sir. I’ve never seen Him.”

“Then tell us if you’ve ever heard your Jesus?”

“No, sir, I have not.”

“Have you ever felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?”

“No, sir, I’m afraid I haven’t.”

“Yet you still believe in him?”

“Yes”


“According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?”

“Nothing,” the student replies. “I only have my faith.”
“Yes, faith,” the professor repeats. “And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.”

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of His own. “Professor, is there such thing as heat?”

“Yes.”

“And is there such a thing as cold?”


“Yes, son, there’s cold too.”


“No sir, there isn’t.”

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain. “You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don’t have anything called “cold”. We can hit down to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.”

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

“What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?”

“Yes,” the professor replies without hesitation. “What is night if it isn’t darkness?”

“You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it’s called darkness, isn’t it? That’s the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn’t. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?”

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester. “So what point are you making, young man?”

“Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.”

The professor’s face cannot hide his surprise this time. “Flawed? Can you explain how?”

“You are working on the premise of duality,” the student explains. “You argue that there is life and then there’s death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can’t even explain a thought.” “It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.” “Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?”

“If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do.”
“Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?”

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

“Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?”

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided. “To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.” The student looks around the room. “Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor’s brain?” The class breaks out into laughter. “Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor’s brain, felt the professor’s brain, touched or smelt the professor’s brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir.” “So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?”

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable. Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. “I Guess you’ll have to take them on faith.”

“Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,” the student continues. “Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?” Now uncertain, the professor responds, “Of course, there is. We see it every day. It is in the daily example of man’s inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.”

To this the student replied, “Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God’s love present in his heart. It’s like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.”

The professor sat down.

The student was Albert Einstein.
Albert Einstein wrote a book titled God vs. Science in 1921.




IN GOD WE TRUST!