After a good day at work, I came home and did NOTHING !!!!!!! I didn't even feel guilty at all about it. I came home, kicked back, channel surfed, watched bits a pieces of a bunch of TV programs and did that until the Biggest Loser came on (which I'm watching now). I will go to bed fully relaxed and I WILL get a good night sleep. I woke up very tired this morning. I got 7 hours sleep, but still woke up groggy. It took a few hours to get going. I find that I get panicky if I get that way. It makes the drive to work interesting to say the least ! LOL
Hope all went well today !
life is good - and it's a long post!
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karmaberry1
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i checked the history on my computer - the boys were looking up "manic" LOL
i was tired today too when i got home from work. i kicked back and actually took a nap - something i've not done in a long time! i was in bed at 10:00 last night - so that was 8 hours of sleep!!!! i think part of being tired is from the weekend - and that's a good thing.
good for you that you managed to breathe through not feeling great this morning! you are a hero!!!!!
i just looked and appear to have gotten most of the paint off the soles of my feet LOL i took my shoes off when i was painting the chairs!
me and 2 good friends played walmart employees today - and the long line of customers. i was the cashier and had a customer with something without a bar code. i had to call for a price check on register 21. one friend was the supervisor - we had to consult on how to handle it. then my other friend was the one who had to go find the price out - and it was time for her scheduled break. it was the funniest thing ever. i think we should do a video and put it on youtube LOLOL
i hope, my hero, your tomorrow is wonderful!!!!
i was tired today too when i got home from work. i kicked back and actually took a nap - something i've not done in a long time! i was in bed at 10:00 last night - so that was 8 hours of sleep!!!! i think part of being tired is from the weekend - and that's a good thing.
good for you that you managed to breathe through not feeling great this morning! you are a hero!!!!!
i just looked and appear to have gotten most of the paint off the soles of my feet LOL i took my shoes off when i was painting the chairs!
me and 2 good friends played walmart employees today - and the long line of customers. i was the cashier and had a customer with something without a bar code. i had to call for a price check on register 21. one friend was the supervisor - we had to consult on how to handle it. then my other friend was the one who had to go find the price out - and it was time for her scheduled break. it was the funniest thing ever. i think we should do a video and put it on youtube LOLOL
i hope, my hero, your tomorrow is wonderful!!!!
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karmaberry1
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i made it through wednesday - yay and sigh LOL
i'm not tired like i was last night. when i first got home, i just sat in the back yard looking at the sky and the clouds. i love making cloud pictures. it was so nice to just kick back and relax in private. around 7:00 mama and i went for a walk then to the grocery.
how was your day? practically perfect i hope!!!!
i'm not tired like i was last night. when i first got home, i just sat in the back yard looking at the sky and the clouds. i love making cloud pictures. it was so nice to just kick back and relax in private. around 7:00 mama and i went for a walk then to the grocery.
how was your day? practically perfect i hope!!!!
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Heather Hunter
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Originally posted by karmaberry1:
i made it through wednesday - yay and sigh LOL
i'm not tired like i was last night. when i first got home, i just sat in the back yard looking at the sky and the clouds. i love making cloud pictures. it was so nice to just kick back and relax in private. around 7:00 mama and i went for a walk then to the grocery.
how was your day? practically perfect i hope!!!!
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karmaberry1
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i had a good week - and i'm so glad it's friday!!!!!!
i came home and mowed the front yard in the SUNSHINE - it was wonderful. it's supposed to rain here tomorrow - i think. who knows? we do need rain. such a wet winter and now so blasted dry - one extreme to the other.
remember how i've worked so hard to achieve a cottage inspired pond/pool in the back yard? well i love the look - and evidently so does a big snake! i was headed to my favorite sitting place and heard a rustling in the periwinkle. the boys went after the rustling sound like a shot. i figured they were after a big lizard. nope. a big snake. i got them to leave it alone the best i could and it went through the fence into the back part of the yard - i'll be wearing boots the next time i go down there! i didn't want them to grab it and bring it to me. pony's done that before and it is a tad horrifying.
after the snake left, i sat down and pony stayed right next to me - hypervigilent. i looked up pictures of southern snakes - i.e., they ssssay "hiss ya'll" LOL i think it's some type of water or hog nosed snake. they're not poisonous - they just scare the fool out of me! i'll be carrying a hoe with me the next time i work out there.
the mosquitoes are out. i'm hoping this means there will be lightning bugs soon!!!!
so what's shaking? how's tricks? where are you?????
i came home and mowed the front yard in the SUNSHINE - it was wonderful. it's supposed to rain here tomorrow - i think. who knows? we do need rain. such a wet winter and now so blasted dry - one extreme to the other.
remember how i've worked so hard to achieve a cottage inspired pond/pool in the back yard? well i love the look - and evidently so does a big snake! i was headed to my favorite sitting place and heard a rustling in the periwinkle. the boys went after the rustling sound like a shot. i figured they were after a big lizard. nope. a big snake. i got them to leave it alone the best i could and it went through the fence into the back part of the yard - i'll be wearing boots the next time i go down there! i didn't want them to grab it and bring it to me. pony's done that before and it is a tad horrifying.
after the snake left, i sat down and pony stayed right next to me - hypervigilent. i looked up pictures of southern snakes - i.e., they ssssay "hiss ya'll" LOL i think it's some type of water or hog nosed snake. they're not poisonous - they just scare the fool out of me! i'll be carrying a hoe with me the next time i work out there.
the mosquitoes are out. i'm hoping this means there will be lightning bugs soon!!!!
so what's shaking? how's tricks? where are you?????
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manofmusic
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A good week ? AWESOME !!!!
It's not the snakes that freak me out.....it's the bats. Yes, they still freak me out. Mice with wings.......yikes ! You have lizards crawling around outside ????????? Maybe bats don't seem so bad !
It was one of those weeks. Nothing bad happened at all, so I don't know why it was one panic attack after another for me. I slept well (except for last night....I ate too much right before bed and had strange dreams because of it), so I don't know why the other days were chucked full of attacks ? I almost got up and ran out of work. I started to sweat so I went to the washroom to collect myself. I'm ok now, but who knows about later on. I was doing so well too. I will continue to do well too, but I have to get over this first. I wanted to go for my walk at the river, but I chickened out. I know that the walk would've done me a world of good, but I stayed home instead. I work tomorrow morning, so I WILL go for the riverwalk after work. I WILL go right from work to the river. I WILL complete the walk. There, now that it's out there, I have to go. I promised myself.
I'm glad that the week went good ! I read about your Wal-Mart thing at work ! LOL I pictured your mom getting you wedged between the cart and the checkout counter ! LOL That made the attacks go away for a bit.
Until tomorrow !
Here's to a rockin' weekend !
It's not the snakes that freak me out.....it's the bats. Yes, they still freak me out. Mice with wings.......yikes ! You have lizards crawling around outside ????????? Maybe bats don't seem so bad !
It was one of those weeks. Nothing bad happened at all, so I don't know why it was one panic attack after another for me. I slept well (except for last night....I ate too much right before bed and had strange dreams because of it), so I don't know why the other days were chucked full of attacks ? I almost got up and ran out of work. I started to sweat so I went to the washroom to collect myself. I'm ok now, but who knows about later on. I was doing so well too. I will continue to do well too, but I have to get over this first. I wanted to go for my walk at the river, but I chickened out. I know that the walk would've done me a world of good, but I stayed home instead. I work tomorrow morning, so I WILL go for the riverwalk after work. I WILL go right from work to the river. I WILL complete the walk. There, now that it's out there, I have to go. I promised myself.
I'm glad that the week went good ! I read about your Wal-Mart thing at work ! LOL I pictured your mom getting you wedged between the cart and the checkout counter ! LOL That made the attacks go away for a bit.
Until tomorrow !
Here's to a rockin' weekend !
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karmaberry1
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you're just have a mild setback - nothing more. remember that!
it's the excitment of spring and the positive energy you've gotten. i think you may be tired? also, how is your back?
question. are you eating enough? and if so, the right kind of foods? are you drinking enough water and laying off coffee and cokes? too much sugar?
panic/anxiety feels awful - how well we all know!!!!! just relax and go with it as much as you can if you feel it coming. it's true that peace lies on the other side of "it"!!!!!
i think i told you that one morning i was having a time getting to work - i was fighting the fear tooth and nail - and talking to my sister on my cell. i finally said i couldn't take it anymore and wasn't fighting it anymore - just let it make me crazy. she was saying fight it fight it. yet when i leaned into the fear, it went away almost that fast. it was simply amazing! could i do it right now if it started? i have no idea. but i know that day that going with it - leaning into it - letting go of the fighting - made it completely dissolve.
do let me know how tomorrow goes! and remember to breathe!!!!
signed your mom, sister AND friend, karma
it's the excitment of spring and the positive energy you've gotten. i think you may be tired? also, how is your back?
question. are you eating enough? and if so, the right kind of foods? are you drinking enough water and laying off coffee and cokes? too much sugar?
panic/anxiety feels awful - how well we all know!!!!! just relax and go with it as much as you can if you feel it coming. it's true that peace lies on the other side of "it"!!!!!
i think i told you that one morning i was having a time getting to work - i was fighting the fear tooth and nail - and talking to my sister on my cell. i finally said i couldn't take it anymore and wasn't fighting it anymore - just let it make me crazy. she was saying fight it fight it. yet when i leaned into the fear, it went away almost that fast. it was simply amazing! could i do it right now if it started? i have no idea. but i know that day that going with it - leaning into it - letting go of the fighting - made it completely dissolve.
do let me know how tomorrow goes! and remember to breathe!!!!
signed your mom, sister AND friend, karma
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manofmusic
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Yep, you mentioned the call to your sister and yep, I relate.
This morning, I forced myself out of bed, forced myself into the shower, forced myself to choke back some breakfast. I forced myself into my truck and forced myself down the road to work. I got there and BOOM an attack hit. I breathed my way thru it and I made it ! I think the attack came on because I was expecting it to happen. I think that if I went to work and just focused on what I needed to do once I got there, the attack wouldn't have happened. Well, it did and I got thru it just like I do any other attack. Now, normally, I would've just gone home after a day with attacks in it. I know I said that I was going to go for my walk at the river, but it was raining quite hard. It stops then starts and so on and it's been doing that all day so far. I decided that today would be the day I tackled Home Depot and some plant places. I did that right after work. I went into Home Depot and felt like I was going to get the spins. I fought it and walked through Home Depot anyway. I got some plants there and then went to a plant place down the street and got a few more. I think I'll head out to the country tomorrow. I want to get a Japanese Maple to put beside the bubbler rock. I worked outside from 11:00 until 4:00 (when it wasn't raining.) I think I worked 3 1/2 hours total. That was better than a walk, I think.
Tomorrow morning, I'm off to my folk's house for breakfast then for the riverwalk. Hopefully I can make it out to the country for the tree. They put one away for me.
Hope you are having a restful (or productive) weekend !
This morning, I forced myself out of bed, forced myself into the shower, forced myself to choke back some breakfast. I forced myself into my truck and forced myself down the road to work. I got there and BOOM an attack hit. I breathed my way thru it and I made it ! I think the attack came on because I was expecting it to happen. I think that if I went to work and just focused on what I needed to do once I got there, the attack wouldn't have happened. Well, it did and I got thru it just like I do any other attack. Now, normally, I would've just gone home after a day with attacks in it. I know I said that I was going to go for my walk at the river, but it was raining quite hard. It stops then starts and so on and it's been doing that all day so far. I decided that today would be the day I tackled Home Depot and some plant places. I did that right after work. I went into Home Depot and felt like I was going to get the spins. I fought it and walked through Home Depot anyway. I got some plants there and then went to a plant place down the street and got a few more. I think I'll head out to the country tomorrow. I want to get a Japanese Maple to put beside the bubbler rock. I worked outside from 11:00 until 4:00 (when it wasn't raining.) I think I worked 3 1/2 hours total. That was better than a walk, I think.
Tomorrow morning, I'm off to my folk's house for breakfast then for the riverwalk. Hopefully I can make it out to the country for the tree. They put one away for me.
Hope you are having a restful (or productive) weekend !