The last time I wrote I had made a positive step towards dealing with my anxiety and moving forward from my miscarriage. This time I made a move in my career.
I have been a special ed reading teacher for the last five years. This year they decided to make changes to our program and how it will be presented to children. I was completely uncomfortable with the new presentation so I interviewed for another position.
I used the techniques used so far to combat the anxiety I felt before the interview and was very happy with the way it went. I left feeling confident. I started to doubt myself after my friend and co-worker found out that she received a position at the same school I interviewed for and I did not. I felt myself falling back into negative thinking and for the first time I realized that I have low self-esteem. I know that might sound surprising that I never realized that, but I never did. I think that was a huge step for me towards my recovery.
Anyway, after a couple of days of feeling like I did not get the job and trying to find the positives in that, I found out I got the job! I struggled with leaving a job that I know so well and working with people and children that I love so much, but I know that I would not be happy giving my students less than they deserve. I faced my fear of change and am traveling the road less traveled for me, and although nervous, I am actually looking forward to the new journey!
Until next time....wishing everyone a content filled day....enjoying those precious present moments!
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