I am so extremely proud of myself! So yesterday I got all the results from my doctor from the tests she did on me because I was having chest pains. i already knew the results from my EKG, Echo and stress test (all very positive) so I was going to the doctor to get my blood and chest x ray results and to see what her opinion on me was. Well first of all I used session 3 a lot yesterday. I have to take the bus into east oakland which, if you don't know the area it is extremely poverty striven and alot of crime happens there. I took the bus and BART alone and of course was nervous about going into east oakland and going to get the final results and for my doctor to tell me what was wrong with me if anything. Well I allowed myself to be nervous which immediately calmed me down I used positive self talk to keep me focused. As soon as my doctor came in she said "anxiety, just anxiety, everything is fine and actually your as healthy as a horse." I was so glad. I then asked her how to get off my xanax to which she replied, "just stop taking it." She said if I feel like its a crutch I probably dont need it anymore and should not take it for the next 3 days and see how I feel." Then she said the scary words, " start tonight so youre off by monday " ( which is the day I have school) she really encouraged me by saying "well you have work at 3pm so if you need a nap you can sneak one in, but honestly you do work spacey and tired anyway its not a big deal."
I told her all about the program which she knew all about! she was asking if it really worked and all these questions (I think she wants it!) it pretty much ended with her telling me that I was on the right path, get off the xanax and Im really healthy! SO Positive!
Anyway so last night was the night. I knew I had to do it, no more excuses. I have had problems with drugs in the past and I will use any excuse to be able to take something, but not last night. I set the pace for my sleep long before i actually layed down. I turned off the tv about an hour or two before bed, drank chamomile tea, took valerian root and sounds sleep (herbs) an hour before bed and my melatonin half hour before bed. I made sure early in the day I had made my bed and my room was clean so I wouldnt be frustrated. I read my card, wrote down negative thoughts I was having like of how scared I was and remembered to be very kind to myself. My boyfriend gave me a massage which was great of him and I turned on that relaxation tape and was asleep within 5 minutes!!
Not the end though, woke up in like 2 hours and turned the relaxation tape back on, I was starting to get panicky so I immediately got up distracted myself by reading a magazine in dim light. I also remembered in the newsletter after session 3 in the workbook one of the counselors told a really negative client who had sleeping trouble to say every night to herself, "I am a good sleeper, I love my bed etc ( you should read it write it down and recite it to yourself) I went back to bed about an hour later and laid there using positive self talk being very kind to myself and repeating that phrase over and over. I did NOT let my anxity turn into a panic attack.
All in all I fell asleep about 45 minutes after laying in bed again and got some good natural sleep. I woke up with a sense of pride I havent had in a long time. Now I know what lucinda means by "youll never know you are ready until you do it." I was always wondering when will I? when will I?" You just gotta do it!! All of you who wrote blogs on sleeping I thank you too, sleepless mom was one who said she would lay in bed and not chase sleep but just relax, that really helped me!
I am so glad to have found this program I feel so good and am so proud of myself right now!!
I DID IT! I SLEPT MED FREE!!!
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Congratulations from me too. I also have done the same , but I didn't use the tea. I keep waking up around 1:30 am. There's something significant about that time. I asked my Mom what time I was born, nope that wasn't it. I warmed up a glass of milk and listened to relaxation tape, that worked. Last night no milk but alot of self talk.
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New to the group...hi Jocie...good for you!
Your post just stood out to me (I am on Sess3).
I having been trying reflexology to address the neuro basis/result of anxiety and resultant insomnia. It works like anaesthesia for me. I could only afford about three sessions. Learned enough thereafter!
I having been using my tape too! It works everytime.
Your post just stood out to me (I am on Sess3).
I having been trying reflexology to address the neuro basis/result of anxiety and resultant insomnia. It works like anaesthesia for me. I could only afford about three sessions. Learned enough thereafter!
I having been using my tape too! It works everytime.