That's quite a story Slim !
I haven't been able to sign in to this site in a while. I kept getting booted out ! So, here I am ! LOL
Hope all is going good with everyone !
I haven't been going for my walks much (due to my own laziness), but I WILL go for my walks again starting tomorrow. I have to. I feel like I'm turning into a slug ! I'm eating really good, but after the crazy days at work, all I can do is just sit and stare. Nothing bad is going on, it's just really busy right now.
I'm managing to keep a smile on my face as I stare into space. LOL
life is good - and it's a long post!
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karmaberry1
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glad you're alive and well!!!! i've missed you.
work is the same only not being taken down. boss doesn't really acknowledge me. it is what it is.
i've been walking the last week or so on the river with pony. it's cooled off here finally! yayyyyy the weather has been in the 80s even!!!! and sunday it rained all afternoon - it was so welcomed by me!
i went monday for my blood work results. everything is down - yayyyyyyy. didn't have to increase the metformin or go on another diabetic pill. i still have work to do there - it's still too high - but it's better. my weight is down to 123 - YES!!!!
i've made the decision it's time to start stepping outside my comfort zone. i need to start driving farther and going places i'm not used to. i'm not really scared about it because i know i can always turn around and come back home. it's time for more. i feel it.
like you i'm vague at work. week before last i concerned several people because i wasn't my happy upbeat positive self. they were actually worried? go figure. i was pretty beat down by the words from my boss and the break up. i'm past it now - i think.
the break up had it's final go round tonight. it is in all truth over. i've moved on. it was time. i wrote a lot about it and am deleting it. bottom line? i am who i am and i both like and love myself.
your's in happiness and with a smile!
karma
work is the same only not being taken down. boss doesn't really acknowledge me. it is what it is.
i've been walking the last week or so on the river with pony. it's cooled off here finally! yayyyyy the weather has been in the 80s even!!!! and sunday it rained all afternoon - it was so welcomed by me!
i went monday for my blood work results. everything is down - yayyyyyyy. didn't have to increase the metformin or go on another diabetic pill. i still have work to do there - it's still too high - but it's better. my weight is down to 123 - YES!!!!
i've made the decision it's time to start stepping outside my comfort zone. i need to start driving farther and going places i'm not used to. i'm not really scared about it because i know i can always turn around and come back home. it's time for more. i feel it.
like you i'm vague at work. week before last i concerned several people because i wasn't my happy upbeat positive self. they were actually worried? go figure. i was pretty beat down by the words from my boss and the break up. i'm past it now - i think.
the break up had it's final go round tonight. it is in all truth over. i've moved on. it was time. i wrote a lot about it and am deleting it. bottom line? i am who i am and i both like and love myself.
your's in happiness and with a smile!
karma
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forever young 06
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karma,
I know what you mean. I need to get out of my comfort zone. As if you have places that you won't go to they will crop up and remind you
then you will become more anxious the more you think about it the more the anxiety increases.
there are 3 or 4 going thru the program again. I thought about joining them but just kept reading their post and thinking about the program watching my thoughts trying to be more positive.
i know what you mean at work there is always something coming up or some one creating stress but we don't have to keep reacting about. keep us posted I love to read your post they are uplifting
I know what you mean. I need to get out of my comfort zone. As if you have places that you won't go to they will crop up and remind you
then you will become more anxious the more you think about it the more the anxiety increases.
there are 3 or 4 going thru the program again. I thought about joining them but just kept reading their post and thinking about the program watching my thoughts trying to be more positive.
i know what you mean at work there is always something coming up or some one creating stress but we don't have to keep reacting about. keep us posted I love to read your post they are uplifting
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karmaberry1
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i was without internet service practically since thursday night - arghhhhhhhh. LOL at myself. i love the internet - use it for everything LOL
i'm glad you find my posts positive. i want them to be silly and fun and all that jazz!
it's finally cooled off here - wow!!! it was in the 70's today. i had to shut the back door last night it was so cool out. we went from hot hot hot to cool overnight.
i laid low over the weekend. everybody and their brother has that blasted stomach virus at work. it's being passed around like nobody's business. i was home friday with it then didn't do much of anything over the weekend except clean the house a bit. i am ms. exciting LOL
i'm still as happy as if i have good sense! how is everbody else? LOL
karma
i'm glad you find my posts positive. i want them to be silly and fun and all that jazz!
it's finally cooled off here - wow!!! it was in the 70's today. i had to shut the back door last night it was so cool out. we went from hot hot hot to cool overnight.
i laid low over the weekend. everybody and their brother has that blasted stomach virus at work. it's being passed around like nobody's business. i was home friday with it then didn't do much of anything over the weekend except clean the house a bit. i am ms. exciting LOL
i'm still as happy as if i have good sense! how is everbody else? LOL
karma
I am new to the program but not this panic disorder, I love reading your posts they help alot. The going out of your comfort zone this part is hard for me , For I know I will have a panic attack, I have not got that far . The idea of a panic attack doing something tht will cause one is so scary for the panic is so scary and intense, beyond believe mine are 24/7 just little to med to worse to awfull.Originally posted by karmaberry1:
not a big deal?!?!?!?! oh girl yes it is!!!!!
you went outside your comfort zone - the biggest deal ever. i'm so happy for you. and guess what? anyone anywhere who'd not been there in a long time would have had the exact same feelings of a bit whatever you felt. it's - the dreaded word - NORMAL!!! LOL
i'm so happy for you sweetie. the sky's the limit - the world is your oyster - the journey of a 1000 miles begins with a single step - and on and on and on!
rock on sister friend!!!! i'm smiling for you right now.
karma
Going to Take My Life Back
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karmaberry1
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welcome to the program!!!! you're going to learn a lot and even start to have fun again - really you will. i just throw my feelings - basically my self - out here and get so much support. you'll find that too!
getting better doesn't come easy for me. maybe for some it has - i couldn't be happier for them! for me it's been falling and getting back up. like you, i've had the "condition" for so many years. what i can say is it's absolutely positively NO FUN!!!! getting better IS FUN!!!!
the last quarter of my day was spent in customer service training. translation - evidently some people who answer the phones have annoyed people - ergo everybody got training. i love what one of my friends said as we were leaving - "well that's an hour and a half of my life i'll never get back." we laughed too hard LOLOL i didn't and don't take having to go to something like that personally - not at all. i know how good i am. and no i'm not bragging - just stating a simple fact. i treat people the way i want and deserve to be treated - with dignity and respect.
i drove myself and 2 good friends to the training. they are such GOOD friends. i didn't feel even the remotest hint of anything but joy and freedom - yay for me! i'd made arrangements with one of the girls last week for her to go with me and she'd called out sick this morning. she called me before lunch and said she was coming in so we could still go to the training. she said she had committed to me last week. i told her it was fine and i'd found someone to go with me but she said - no - i told you i'd go with you and i will. how's that for love?
what's the point to that story? LOL i guess i'm sitting here knowing how lucky i am to have friends who love me back - warts and all - and don't pass judgement or make me feel badly about myself. yes - i am one of the luckiest people ever in my friends!!!!
hope everybody is rocking and rolling!!!!
karma
getting better doesn't come easy for me. maybe for some it has - i couldn't be happier for them! for me it's been falling and getting back up. like you, i've had the "condition" for so many years. what i can say is it's absolutely positively NO FUN!!!! getting better IS FUN!!!!
the last quarter of my day was spent in customer service training. translation - evidently some people who answer the phones have annoyed people - ergo everybody got training. i love what one of my friends said as we were leaving - "well that's an hour and a half of my life i'll never get back." we laughed too hard LOLOL i didn't and don't take having to go to something like that personally - not at all. i know how good i am. and no i'm not bragging - just stating a simple fact. i treat people the way i want and deserve to be treated - with dignity and respect.
i drove myself and 2 good friends to the training. they are such GOOD friends. i didn't feel even the remotest hint of anything but joy and freedom - yay for me! i'd made arrangements with one of the girls last week for her to go with me and she'd called out sick this morning. she called me before lunch and said she was coming in so we could still go to the training. she said she had committed to me last week. i told her it was fine and i'd found someone to go with me but she said - no - i told you i'd go with you and i will. how's that for love?
what's the point to that story? LOL i guess i'm sitting here knowing how lucky i am to have friends who love me back - warts and all - and don't pass judgement or make me feel badly about myself. yes - i am one of the luckiest people ever in my friends!!!!
hope everybody is rocking and rolling!!!!
karma
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manofmusic
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I'm baaaaaaaaaaaack LOL
Karma ! Were you annoying people on the phone again ????? LOL You went to training just so you could get out of work, didn't you ? LOL
Hope all is going good there (even if the good times are all in your imagination...LOL)
Work is going surprisingly well ! I'm even putting in a bunch of overtime.....which is a good thing these days.
This Monday is the Canadian Thanksgiving. A 3 day weekend coming up for me ! I can't wait to sleep in a bit.
I decided that I'm going to rip apart my bathroom that is off my bedroom this weekend. I need to insulate it better. I want to put in a new tub and shower and a glass block wall on the end of the tub and a cedar plank ceiling and a tile floor. I love ripping stuff apart. I can't wait to see what I uncover. I need to take the floor right up first, so hopefully I don't end up in the living room below....
Hope all is going good for all !
Karma ! Were you annoying people on the phone again ????? LOL You went to training just so you could get out of work, didn't you ? LOL
Hope all is going good there (even if the good times are all in your imagination...LOL)
Work is going surprisingly well ! I'm even putting in a bunch of overtime.....which is a good thing these days.
This Monday is the Canadian Thanksgiving. A 3 day weekend coming up for me ! I can't wait to sleep in a bit.
I decided that I'm going to rip apart my bathroom that is off my bedroom this weekend. I need to insulate it better. I want to put in a new tub and shower and a glass block wall on the end of the tub and a cedar plank ceiling and a tile floor. I love ripping stuff apart. I can't wait to see what I uncover. I need to take the floor right up first, so hopefully I don't end up in the living room below....
Hope all is going good for all !
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can'tdanceandcan'trelax
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