life is good - and it's a long post!

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Mon Dec 14, 2009 12:34 pm

you are becoming a HERO to me!!!! you made a mistake - someone jumped on it with both feet - and you corrected said mistake - all without whipping yourself into their frenzy. yay for you!

i do not understand the necessity of making a big deal out of mistakes. as you said, stuff happens. and most of the time it can so easily be corrected. why some people live with the need to glorify another's mistake totally escapes me. i guess it's a power thing? or pettiness?

i got annoyed at work today with one of them. there's something about sactimonious behavior that makes me want to start screaming and never stop. yet that is MY problem. some people will never stop being who they are therefore it is up to ME to get over it, walk away, block it out, get a lobotomy, undergo electric shock therapy - you get my general drift LOL

today was gift day at work. every year i buy christmans ornaments for my work friends - a few are such wonderful friends - the kind you can call in the middle of the night - AND they'll listen and care!!! i put the ornaments in darling little bags and carry them a few at a time to different areas. my questions are: have you been naughty or nice? if they've been nice, i say "i'm sorry"! if they've been naughty, i say "good for you"!!! LOL these are not expensive gifts - just carefully picked out and prettily packaged by me. these are gifts to my friends from my heart.

the thing is, i simply could not give "them" a gift. did they know i was giving out my annual christmas ornaments? yes. i thought about the things they've done just the past year - the emails and phone calls behind my back to my boss, blindsiding me at every turn. not just once, not just twice. over and over. they have no love for me in their true hearts. and i no longer have love for them - but i did for so long despite their behavior. forgive and forget? i did that for 8 years. last year i gave them what i gave my other friends. it meant nothing either way. this year it does. i feel bad/sad/guilty not giving. now, in writing this, i realize i've given so much of myself to both of them only to have it rejected, my good intentions thrown back in my face. that has always been their choice, their gift to me.

so that was my day - highs and lows. and yes, it was a good day!

it will not stop raining here. it was drizzling, misting and foggy this morning on the way to work. my response to the weather? i pretended i was living in london - in fact, i'm writing from my flat in london right now. i so want to go horseback riding in england - a dream of mine!!!! LOL this afternoon the fog and drizzle turned into a steady rain - now a lot of this area is under a tornado watch and severe weather watch. of course, there's a flood watch in effect. i'm going to have to buy overshoes!

hope your tomorrow ROCKS!!!!!!!!!

Stagerlee · Post by **Stagerlee** » Tue Dec 15, 2009 2:26 am

Hey manofmusic and Karm, you both are really rockin. Thanks for the kind words man+ and you really have a handle on keeping kool. I was a chief union steward at main post office downtown for several years. Thems were everywhere especially on the graveyard shift I worked. After all the problems thems created and all the noise thems made it was rare that thems made any positive difference. I think its their way of feeling important. Karm I too want to horseback in England only my ride will be in the country with castles in the backdrop. So watching progress is totally fun and even though I am retired now at the ripe old age of 54 I am using the keep kool techniques dealing with this Christmas shopping. I love all the decorations but hate crowds. Anyways have a great workweek,,Bruce

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Tue Dec 15, 2009 11:04 am

hi bruce! that's where i too want to ride. i don't want to see london but the countryside. i want to feel the land - see the rolling hills - the cottages and castles. someday i will achieve this dream! so you're retired? how lucky are you!?! i'm going to work forever LOL there will be no retirement for me. i didn't start working until my 40's - so oh well. i just tell my sister i started backwards and that maybe it's for the best.

it's still rainy and gloomy here - all day! i heard a rumor on tv about tomorrow's weather - sunny and dry - i can't wait to see the sunshine!

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Tue Dec 15, 2009 1:56 pm

Good evening !!!!

Bruce - You're retired already ??? Good for you ! I try not to be envious, but I can't help it this time ! LOL If I play my cards right, I hope to be retired in another 10- 15 years.
......I hope. I really don't want to work until 65. I don't think I can take it ! LOL

Karma - One of my bosses (I have 3) tried to pin a screw up on me today. What he didn't know was that I keep notes ! I calmly showed him the notes of the way the work should be done and if it wasn't done properly, then he needed to talk to the person that lined me up.......it was him ! He doesn't like admitting when he's wrong, so he just walked away. I stayed calm for the rest of the day again ! I'm staying focused on the holidays.

Maybe I'll take a holiday in my mind tomorrow. London is good (my ancestors are all from Wales and Ireland.....a little bit of France too). I think I'll go to Australia tomorrow. (I have access to the internet at work....that should help ! LOL). Always wanted to go there. Other then that I'm more of a northern person. I'd like to go to the Yukon or Northwest Territories....during the summer. Don't think I'd like 6 months straight of darkness during the winter.

Hope tomorrow goes grrrrrrrrrrreat for all.

P.S. - Don't feel guilty about not getting "them" a gift. I think "they" probably didn't expect one anyway.

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Tue Dec 15, 2009 2:18 pm

it was a good day. i stayed upbeat and happy. so many people have taken a day off here and there that the office is like a glass half full. yet there is enough going on with those who are friends to keep things positive.

i will make up some more gift bags tonight. they went fast! i started counting in my head -when i was putting them together sunday night - and got lost or sidetracked somewhere along the way. i have SO many people i like so much there - how great is that? as for them, whether a gift is expected really doesn't matter. i've made my choice - from my heart.

i just did an hour of yoga and meditation. i feel wonderful - all stretched out and calm. my favorite show - the office - is on tv. the dogs are calm and lying next to me. i forgot to eat dinner LOL

so you take notes at work? good for you - very smart. and you remained calm and collected? you must be freaking everybody and their brother out to the nth degree and then some. way cool!!! question - did you change how you were doing whatever the guy didn't like?

if it's sunny tomorrow, i'll walk on my lunch hour and pretend to be - i don't know where. i guess my flight hasn't arrived yet LOL

i hope your tomorrow is wonderful, great, super, awesome, and everything that is practically perfect!

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Tue Dec 15, 2009 11:37 pm

I think you are referring to "them" where I work. Well....amazingly, "them" don't bother me too much anymore. In fact, 1 of "them" is actually talking to me like an adult ! I don't know about the other one though. If it all gets out of hand and they act like 5 year olds again, I do my very best to ignore.

I'm typing this in the morning before I head off to work. It seems that everytime I turn on the TV when I wake up, it's always the news and it's always bad ! LOL I'm doing my best to stay as calm as possible in the morning. So instead of the TV, I go on the net.

Hope today went great for you !

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Wed Dec 16, 2009 12:25 pm

it was another good day - yay for me!!! i decided since i have to take friday off as a vacation day (or lose it) to take tomorrow off as a personal day. what does this all mean? i'm off until january 4th. i've been about as good as i possibly can the past several weeks. something told me since i HAVE been so sweet and precious to run forrest run LOL

tomorrow, i'm taking mama and me on a christmas shopping day before the rain starts again. i can't wait! will there be trauma and drama between the two of us? of course! but there will be a lot of laughter too. we are who we are - a mother/daughter team - you do the math LOL

in the mornings, i turn on the tv to catch the local news and weather since i don't read the local newspaper. it's just something i'm in the habit of doing. then - being american LOL - i listen to good morning america because i like the happiness and what seems to be true friendship among the cast. i like to have a clue - just a bit of one - as to what's going on in the world. for a long time i quit watching the news completely because - well just because.

oh and before i forget - it was SUNNY here today!!!!!!!!! yay for me

i so hope your day was practically perfect!

manofmusic · Post by **manofmusic** » Wed Dec 16, 2009 1:31 pm

You're officially on vacation now ?!?!?!?!? Good for you ! You deserve it. Take time out to enjoy all of the good things now.

Make sure you take good care of your mom ! My folks live 3 blocks away from me. They are both in their 80's now. Every morning on the way to work, I drive by their house to make sure everything looks intact from the outside. After work, I call them to make sure everything's ok. Dad's on full time oxygen, but mom's a spitfire ! She'll probably outlive me ! LOL

Work was good AGAIN today. I'm almost waiting for the tornado to blow in ! LOL Tomorrow will be a stressful day because a few of the jobs I'm working on are due. I'm hoping it all turns out good. It's too close to Christmas to be stressed !

It was a sunny day here too ! It was kind of cold, but SUNNY !!!!!!

Have fun with your mom tomorrow. When you feel stressed with her, she's your mom......and she'll beat the living crap out of you if you get out of line ! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

When you're out and about tomorrow, think of me stressed out at work ! ...actually I'm getting good at keeping my cool at work.

karmaberry1 · Post by **karmaberry1** » Wed Dec 16, 2009 2:06 pm

i understand the checking up on your parents. mama and i are in touch 24/7. she's also in her 80s and lives alone too. we take care of each other. she's got more get up and go than i ever thought of having LOL and yep, she can take me down physically and verbally in a heartbeat LOL

i think i have everything taken care of at work that needed to be done. i asked the head of the division if she needed me tomorrow for anything - and if so i would be happy to work. she said to take the day if it was ok with my director. i got in touch with other departments to make sure they knew i'd be out so they would be on call if anyone needed anything. the project i was working on is finished and emailed.

i gave out more of my little christmas bags today to people who have smiled and shared happiness with me this past year. i get more out of giving than receiving. one girl gave me the prettiest little bracelet today and i just about turned inside out thanking her. someone had told me the other day she has a hard time accepting gifts - now i know what she meant! it's strange how it's easy to give and hard to receive. or maybe it's a southern thing? LOL

before i left, i caught up with one of my bestest friends. we are now officially on call with each other for the dreaded holiday blues. i told her i may be calling her from UNDER my bed and to be prepared. she's just hoping if we go down, it won't be at the same time LOL

another friend is leaving for germany tomorrow to spend christmas with her mother and sister. i told her not to be surprised if me and another friend of hers showed up AT her mother's door IN germany. she left work about half scared LOL x forever

there are 2 wonderful things you've given me with your posts. the first is that you're having "a wonderful life". the second is you've made me re-realize and re-remember that i have such kind, generous, loving, fun friends who truly make my world a wonderful place! for that, thank you so much!!!

i hope your tomorrow is filled with light, laughter, and all that is good.

Stagerlee · Post by **Stagerlee** » Wed Dec 16, 2009 5:19 pm

Good day to you two, man+ I commend you on the note taking. I used to do it and I counciled many of my coworkers to do the same. Wow Karm I see your weather and it looks like you may be waterlogged,lol. I just heard we are going to have a white Christmas, just like the ones I used to know,,lol...sleigh bells ringing,,sorry,, So it is begining to look alot like Christmas, and the best to the most positive two I know, Bruce