I had success about 3 years ago cutting back my medication (Paxil) from 20 mg per day to 10 mg per day. It was a wonderful and proud feat to be sure. It gave me hope that one day I could be medication-free. Then my busy life went on and I never took the next step until last month when I spoke to my doctor about how to get off medication completely. I started the plan to go from 10 mg per day to 5 mg per day for 6 weeks. However, it's been a major struggle since I started. Lots of highs and lows. Today is the first really bad day where I just feel sick to my stomach and (physically and mentally) anxious - kind of like having the stomach flu with panic attacks

. Thus, I'm restarting the program to help me get through this struggle. I'm sure there are others out there with this struggle. I don't want to deter anyone from tapering off medication or from getting on medication. It was just unfortunate that I was so young and naive about it. I'm not sure medication was a mistake since I was very sick back then, but I neglected to realize how taking medication daily over a very long period of time could prove harder and more problematic later in life. There is a real struggle to get off medication once dependent on it. For me, the dependency has lasted for over a decade. Thank goodness for this program, because it helped me more than once in my life. I hope it can help me realize my goal of being medication-free.
I probably would not bother with this struggle and just stay medicated... for now, but my biological clock is ticking and the medication poses too many health risks to take during a future planned pregnancy. Medication is a serious concern for WOCBA (women of child bearing age). It helps to have a doctor (or to find a doctor) that listens and understands the hardship. Not all doctors are attuned to medication dependencies and withdrawals. I think I just lucked out with mine.