hi everyone,
Sorry if this is long but I really hope it helps.
I have had scary thoughts for the past two years on and off my thoughts were always about me going "crazy" first I thought I had schizophrenia then i convinsed I was Bi-Polar. I could never turn them off I thought about it everyday every second I always felt spacey always wondering when it would hit and if i would read symptoms I would convince myself that I was going to get them. My Anxiety was gone for about six months when it came back full blown I went back into therapy but this time I needed to be more proactive cause i knew that this was the only way I was going to get any better i began researching my symptoms but nothing would expalin why this was happening and then I found the answer that I was looking for. Our scary thoughts are coming from our unconsious the thoughts that we have are not really what causing this we all have automatic thoughts that come from our unconscious. I read that there are three main thoughts and fears that people have one is the fear of losing our minds the other is sexual thoughts and the last is the thought of dying. The fear of going insane is really the fear of being alone the thought of dying is really the fear of the unknown and the sexual thought is really guilt. once i read that it all came together for me my anxiety started when I was getting married my fiance was always traveling and never home i would have to leave my family and essentially be alone I broke off my enggement and my anxiety was gone. I met somone knew and he had issues my anxiety came back because I would have to breakup with him and be alone. My fear of losing mind mind would mean that I would be alone no one would love me anymore no one would want to be with me i would probably be locked up is a hospital somewhere alone. this is where it was all coming from I am sure if everyone looks deep inside themselves this will make sense. I still have a way to go because now I have to figure out a way to get over the true fear of being alone. I really hope this helps some of you like it has helped me.