My obsessive & scary thoughts are all about getting depression. I can jump to the what-if thoughts about it after any type of emotion/feeling like sad, irritated, disappointed, scared, etc. I automatically think the feeling is "wrong" and that I "shouldn't" feel it. I then worry it means I have depression and it really scares me because I worry about it getting out of hand.
This is a pretty deep fear for me and I realize is the theme for me: fearing that loss of control, helpless and hopeless feeling.
Has anyone worked with a similar obsessive/scary/what-if thought?
Any suggestions on how to counteract it especially when it's SO frightening and strong?
My obsessive thought...
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It'stimetolivefree
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I feel as I am starting to get out of the hole or depressed abiss. But it fels wierd. You see my babysitter committed suicide when i was 13 and it really hit me. This is when anxiety took over. I was afraid I would do it because she did it type thing. It has come back again and at times I get anxious/worried or times of depressed thoughts I get those feelings or racing thoughts. But at the same time someone could talk to me and I sound and say great things or I could even be enjoying myself. I could be out golfing and randomly get the thoughts or feelings. Its as if my body has taken over in a positive way but my mind is just so negative as I carry out positve things and at times even enjoy. Its really wierd.
SO YES I am right there with you!I I am araid that I will lose control at times and do somethign I don't want to do or get way to depressed etc. But hey the worst feelings I truly believe are passed us and we are on the road to overcome this soooo....I BELEIVE WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH THE WORST SO WE KNOW WE CAN HANDLE IT!! SO HOPEFULLY THIS CALMS YOU DOWN!
SO YES I am right there with you!I I am araid that I will lose control at times and do somethign I don't want to do or get way to depressed etc. But hey the worst feelings I truly believe are passed us and we are on the road to overcome this soooo....I BELEIVE WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH THE WORST SO WE KNOW WE CAN HANDLE IT!! SO HOPEFULLY THIS CALMS YOU DOWN!
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stephyannette
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My biggest obsessive scary thought is losing loved ones. I am always afraid I won't be able to cope or I might freak out have have no one. They are my support system, so if I lose them I might lose myself. The future is also a scary thought for me.
When I first started taking meds again, I started having obsessive thoughts that the meds were going to make me lose control of my mind and I would end up becoming a homocidal maniac. This was around the time earlier this year when that kid went to the school with a gun and killed some classmates. He was on meds, so I thought that was also going to happen to me.
I don't know how I stopped letting some of those thoughts scare me. They just kind of lost intensity, and I don't really think about some of those bad things anymore. Maybe it's my body finally working with medication, or maybe it's going to counseling. I am not really sure.
When I first started taking meds again, I started having obsessive thoughts that the meds were going to make me lose control of my mind and I would end up becoming a homocidal maniac. This was around the time earlier this year when that kid went to the school with a gun and killed some classmates. He was on meds, so I thought that was also going to happen to me.
I don't know how I stopped letting some of those thoughts scare me. They just kind of lost intensity, and I don't really think about some of those bad things anymore. Maybe it's my body finally working with medication, or maybe it's going to counseling. I am not really sure.