Scary obessive thoughts- I can't belive there back

bna · Post by **bna** » Mon Sep 22, 2008 12:36 pm

I have been doing really well. Now for some reason for which I am not completely sure of, the scary obessive thoughts are back.

They started yesterday and they have been coming off and on most of the day. This evening they came in full force.

I know they usually happen if I under stress and tired. I seem to be having a difficult time with them. I am trying to breathe through them and trying not to react to them. I just got off the treadmill and bike which I have been on for the last 1/2 hour. Feel a little better. But I'm annoyed that there back.

The more I'm trying to deflate the fear, the worse they seem to get. I know I am giving them power but its so darn difficult to float with them tonight.

I guess I'll pull out the program and review lesson 10. I finished the program last spring. I had been thinking lately I would benefit from restarting the program. I guess this is a good time.

Thanks for listening. take care and God Bless.

JIMMY A · Post by **JIMMY A** » Mon Sep 22, 2008 12:53 pm

This is my first post, so bear with me. My name is Jimmy A , and I'm on the program less than a week. My anxious thoughts and feelings began a few months ago. I own my own business , which is doing fine , but I ran into a series of stressful instances which culminated, after two months, with my visit last month to my doctor. I was given two types of medicine, which I'd like to stop. I began thinking every day, what if one of the trucks break down. What if a customer drops my product. I got a case of the what if's. I really don't know what else to say, I just wanted to express some thoughts for now.

change · Post by **change** » Mon Sep 22, 2008 12:55 pm

Hi bna, It always helps to review the tapes. I finished about 3 weeks ago, and I'm so much better, but I still review certain tapes regularly. I listen to them in the car all the time. They keep me grounded.

Try not to dissapate your fears. Don't run from them because they'll chase you down. You're going thru a little growth spurt and you'll get on track again. Feel your fears and just keep going. Doing your exercise is really helpful and just try to get to your positive thoughts. This will pass. You know it always does. Maybe just try to journal a bit and write down what may be bothering you. That always helps me. Most times it really helps me figure out what's bothering me. It could be something someone said, or something I read that scares me and I'm dwelling on it. When this happens now I keep telling myself to get "out of my head" and stay in the moment and notice the good things around me.

Hope this helps. I'm thinking of you and I know you'll get thru this.

Take care, Donna

MelMbrsl75 · Post by **MelMbrsl75** » Mon Sep 22, 2008 1:17 pm

Hi there. I am sorry you are having to face this again.

I have the same issue with scary obsessive thoughts.

Mine have gone away. There are still many times that the thoughts will rear it's ugly head. The best way that I deal with this is to remember these are just thoughts and no more than that.

It is so important that you remember the skills you have learnt.

Boon · Post by **Boon** » Tue Sep 23, 2008 4:47 am

bna - sometimes we are avoiding something and sometimes we are not. You'll need to determine that. However, there is no need to dig too deeply. What you need to know will come to you in the present moment. The most important thing right now for you to do is to tell yourself that you are not going to follow the scare voice anymore. No more talking back to it. None. You can say: Whatever. That's it. You'll have some anxiety with this exercise but only for a short time. Eventually the thoughts will subside and you'll have your peace back. Because we never really completely stop hearing from this scare voice, this is an exercise to remember and to use throughout your life. You'll be a pro at dismissing - before any adrenalin has even released.

monty'smom · Post by **monty'smom** » Tue Sep 23, 2008 5:27 am

They started yesterday and they have been coming off and on most of the day. This evening they came in full force.

Hi bna,

Just a question...do you remember anything that took place prior to the scary thoughts starting?

Hope you work through this and feel better again...very soon.

God Bless and keep you strong.

bna · Post by **bna** » Tue Sep 23, 2008 7:42 am

Thank you everyone for your words of encouragement. I have committed to restarting the program today. I reviewed lesson 1-2 this am.

I know I will move through it. That it's just a growth spurt but it has me a bit down. I feel like I am being bombarded by these scary thoughts about the past. I know I am causing it but it absolutely stinks. I am doing my best to let it pass. Sometimes it does and then comes back again later, seemingly stronger.

I am telling myself I am ok, just anxious scarey thinking it will pass. I am trying to be compassionate towards myself and trying to keep myself busy. While trying to read a few verses from my Bible, I came across some things that made me feel worse. I used my breathing to get through it.

I feel a little "weird" while out and about doing errands. part of me feel like what if people knew that I'm having scarey irrational thoughts. What would they think? Part of me wants to share them with my husband, who for the most part is wonderfully supportive but I don't want him to think here we go again.

I think my expectations of myself and others are a little out of whack. Hopefully by reviewing my skills I'll be able to get back on track.

I keep asking myself why is this happening. I do know that asking "why" only makes things worse. By dwelling on the whys and the thoughts, I am giving them power over me.

I need to float. I know I am my safe person and that's why I'm hesistant to share these scary thoughts with my husband. I do have an appointment with my therapist in the am. and She's pretty good at helping me piece together things.

Thank you all once again. I'm already feeling better after this written this and a good cry, while typing it. Take care and God Bless.

Sevon · Post by **Sevon** » Tue Sep 23, 2008 8:43 am

Have your husband listen to the cd i am here
for you. my daughter listed to it and what a
difference she has never been supportive of my
issue and the change is great. of i have been
praying for a change and i believe this is a too
the lord is using and gonna use for my children and myself. so encourge him to listed to it.
if he hasnt'.it will help him understand wha t u
are going thru better and it gives him ideas on how to help and u and himself.

monty'smom · Post by **monty'smom** » Tue Sep 23, 2008 9:38 am

Originally posted by Sevon:
Have your husband listen to the cd i am here
for you. my daughter listed to it and what a
difference she has never been supportive of my
issue and the change is great. of i have been
praying for a change and i believe this is a too
the lord is using and gonna use for my children and myself. so encourge him to listed to it.
if he hasnt'.it will help him understand wha t u
are going thru better and it gives him ideas on how to help and u and himself.

Hi Sevon,
I think I have heard the song but not sure who does it.
Could you please tell me. There is another great song that is so fitting as well. It's Michael Buble, Care.
At least I'm almost certain it's him. LOL

Thanks and Good Luck!!