hi, I am new here. My husband ordered me this program a few weeks ago bc he has been worried about me. I only just opened it this week bc I just didn't want to face it. Filling out the workbook for session 1 was a crazy eye opener. I checked off almost every box.
Trouble is I am having a hard time getting going. I got through the intro DVD and half of session 1 but can't seem to find a good time to continue. I have a toddler so listening at home is hard, and at work I could listen but nosy people if you know what I mean.
Also, my biggest overall anxiety is money. Probably for at least the last 3 years I have had serious financial trouble bc I am literally afraid to look at my bank balance, keep track of my checking accounts, it is the hugest form of avoidance and when I do manage to check it I either want to die from the mess I made w/ overdrafts or, if the balance is positive, puts me on a huge high until the next OD letter comes in the mail. I also literally avoid paying bills by tossing them in the trash. I don't WANT to be like this so why am I? Is this common from anxiety or am I just really selfish? I hate myself for this. I don't understand it. Prior to this I used to obsess over my accounts, always tabulating in my head then I went on Zoloft for depression and I just stopped caring. Going off didn't change anything and now I walk around a lot with that sense of bewilderment Lucinda talks about.
Hi, new here
I agree with your husband. You do need this program. You mention that you don't want to be like this, and here is the story: If you really, really don't want to be like this, then do work the program. Work it exactly as the instructions tell you, and spend a week on each session. Journal, too. If you can get some headsets, you can listen to the CD's anywhere. Do you have a CD player in your car? That is another good place to listen. Bewilderment? I could write a book about feeling bewildered and depressed. It's what I felt every morning. This community is always here for you, too. Welcome. 
Oh my, this is like looking into a mirror.
I'm surprised (though I don't know why) to see that there is someone else who is the same way as me about money. My life is completely unmanagable because of it! The only difference is that I don't throw my bills in the mail -- instead they are just scattered all over my house along with the junk mail. It would be an improvment just to have the bills in ONE place or some idea of how much (rather little) cash I have in my checking account.
I HATE living like this! I used to balance my checkbook down to the PENNY and even would spend HOURS if it was a couple cents off!
I'm surprised (though I don't know why) to see that there is someone else who is the same way as me about money. My life is completely unmanagable because of it! The only difference is that I don't throw my bills in the mail -- instead they are just scattered all over my house along with the junk mail. It would be an improvment just to have the bills in ONE place or some idea of how much (rather little) cash I have in my checking account.
I HATE living like this! I used to balance my checkbook down to the PENNY and even would spend HOURS if it was a couple cents off!
Okay Pecos. You and I were writing at the same time, so I'm just reading what you said.
I'm going to take your suggestions for me too.
This is ODD, but it never occured to me to take the CDs with me. I watched the first DVD and somehow got it in my head that I'd need to be sitting home at the DVD player for the ENTIRE program -- which of course isn't true as I can do CD's on a portable player in my car! THANKS!
I'm going to take your suggestions for me too.
This is ODD, but it never occured to me to take the CDs with me. I watched the first DVD and somehow got it in my head that I'd need to be sitting home at the DVD player for the ENTIRE program -- which of course isn't true as I can do CD's on a portable player in my car! THANKS!
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Hi miller and WELCOME ABOARD!!
Boy can I relate to some of the same issues you mention. We too are having a terrible time financially and although I don't throw my bills out ( I want to ) it's just so hard juggling them to keep everyone at least a little happy. I too used to be very organized with the bills..always stapled each months together and paid them as they arrived but since my husbands company closed down and the pay dropped in half and I don't have any income we are strugling week by week just barely surviving and are in debt which really is a sore subject for me and greatly causes a lot of anxiety and fear. All we can do is take it one day at a time and do our best to get ourselves feeling better about us. I believe we could all climb the highest mountains and manage all life throws at us if we can just stop living with all the anxiety and depression and I know we all will if we really want it badly enough to work our butts off and never take quitting as an option. I have had a terrible 6 days and today I am ready to fight again for a life I want to enjoy for the first time in 40 some years. This is not going to beat me ever again. We are all in this journey together even if we are at different junctions in the road so lets just make this program do what it is proven to do and get to the happy end of this worthwhile trip we are taking. I'm pulling for everyone!
You find time anyway you can and start those baby steps towards a brand new wonderfull life you and all of us deserve to be living.
Be good to you, always!
God Bless
Boy can I relate to some of the same issues you mention. We too are having a terrible time financially and although I don't throw my bills out ( I want to ) it's just so hard juggling them to keep everyone at least a little happy. I too used to be very organized with the bills..always stapled each months together and paid them as they arrived but since my husbands company closed down and the pay dropped in half and I don't have any income we are strugling week by week just barely surviving and are in debt which really is a sore subject for me and greatly causes a lot of anxiety and fear. All we can do is take it one day at a time and do our best to get ourselves feeling better about us. I believe we could all climb the highest mountains and manage all life throws at us if we can just stop living with all the anxiety and depression and I know we all will if we really want it badly enough to work our butts off and never take quitting as an option. I have had a terrible 6 days and today I am ready to fight again for a life I want to enjoy for the first time in 40 some years. This is not going to beat me ever again. We are all in this journey together even if we are at different junctions in the road so lets just make this program do what it is proven to do and get to the happy end of this worthwhile trip we are taking. I'm pulling for everyone!
You find time anyway you can and start those baby steps towards a brand new wonderfull life you and all of us deserve to be living.
Be good to you, always!
God Bless
BELIEVE YOU CAN CONQUER ANYTHING~ AND YOU WILL !! I DID IT, YES !!!!!
Thank you so much. Today I am taking my check register to work with me and I have the goal of trying to get that in order by midnight tonight. It should not be too bad, I at least lately have stopped writing checks altogether and stopped using my debit card within a week after payday. My Dh (we have separate finances,kind of for this reason) gives me cash each week and I use that mainly but I hate feeling dependent on him when I know I should be taking care of things myself.
I cannot remember not being depressed. Dr's don't seem to have enough knowledge or even care to diagnose. I suffered with long bouts of shortness of breath and panic attacks for years and many trips to the Dr before I myself realized it was anxiety. The Dr's were always so quick to say asthma or allergies and send me on my way. Even now I am pretty sure I am bipolar (took me a long time to realize bc I don't have many high episodes) and just got off a high period. I haven't crashed yet though, I think the Good Days pills are really working!! I didn't even realize I was going to get my period (TMI I know) because I am usually suicidal in the 2-3 days leading up (no joke). Maybe just a fluke but I do feel more energetic on the pills.
SO today I have the goal of facing my checkbook and listening to ALL of session 1. I hope to keep visiting here, I am glad to have this place to come to for support.
I cannot remember not being depressed. Dr's don't seem to have enough knowledge or even care to diagnose. I suffered with long bouts of shortness of breath and panic attacks for years and many trips to the Dr before I myself realized it was anxiety. The Dr's were always so quick to say asthma or allergies and send me on my way. Even now I am pretty sure I am bipolar (took me a long time to realize bc I don't have many high episodes) and just got off a high period. I haven't crashed yet though, I think the Good Days pills are really working!! I didn't even realize I was going to get my period (TMI I know) because I am usually suicidal in the 2-3 days leading up (no joke). Maybe just a fluke but I do feel more energetic on the pills.
SO today I have the goal of facing my checkbook and listening to ALL of session 1. I hope to keep visiting here, I am glad to have this place to come to for support.
[QUOTE]Originally posted by Aura:
I don't throw my bills in the mail -- instead they are just scattered all over my house along with the junk mail. It would be an improvment just to have the bills in ONE place or some idea of how much (rather little) cash I have in my checking account.QUOTE]
I am just like this. I have mail EVERYWHERE in my house and I'm always afraid to look at my checking account balance.
I don't throw my bills in the mail -- instead they are just scattered all over my house along with the junk mail. It would be an improvment just to have the bills in ONE place or some idea of how much (rather little) cash I have in my checking account.QUOTE]
I am just like this. I have mail EVERYWHERE in my house and I'm always afraid to look at my checking account balance.
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