Did anyone feel blah after starting the program?

Believer08 · Post by **Believer08** » Thu Feb 28, 2008 11:55 am

Yes I do have an anxiety/panic disorder. Since starting this program it showed me how I treated everything in my life as if it were a life and death. Now that my mind isn't focusing and zooming in on negativity I feel weird...kind of blah...I'm on my second week and I pray that this weird feelings go away.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 28, 2008 12:39 pm

Allow me to rephrase in a more empowering way....I'm being healed from anxiety/panic disorders but since starting the program I have been feeling kind of ....blah....I almos want to say a bit depressed? I'm on my second week of this session and I have not felt that blah in YEARS.............

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 28, 2008 1:20 pm

I am on my second week. I have been depressed now for a year and sorta thought this would lift me up but as of yet it has not. I have become more dazed and zoned since starting the program

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 28, 2008 2:13 pm

Believer08- I've had this happen to me before -when the anxiety subsided I almost felt like I was getting depressed. What I came to realize though was that I had become so addicted to the anxiety adrenaline high as I call it, that I forgot what normal felt like. I got used to the downshift of anxiety and found out it is OK. I wasn't really blah I was just without all the drama of anxiety. This may not be your case but it is worth a thought.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Feb 28, 2008 2:41 pm

I believe you are absoloutely right Mary. With the blah not only did my heart rate completely decrease but a new emotion that I am not use too. For so long anxiety/andrenaline was/has been my life. With this new experience it has triggered some panic for me because it is new territory for me...When I went for a walk I felt so much better now I'm trying to calm down the internal panic I have created, thank you for your response which makes so much valued sense.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 29, 2008 8:01 am

Mary,
That makes a ton of sense to me. I am in my seventh week now and I have noticed this feeling (come and go) which I thought was depression, but now that I think about it, it is probably just the addict in me missing that adrenaline high of anxiety. You have no idea how productive/destructive (depending on the activity) I was when I was on hyperdrive. Now I kind of don't know what to do. Hmm.. again this illness perplexes me.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Feb 29, 2008 8:15 am

Yes Jugray I can relate. I just spoke with a counselor and she said it was calmness I was now feeling. It scared me at first...I also thought I was going into depression. Now I have to learn when it comes back not to be afraid of it...but to be happy and proud that I was able to achieve it. A goal that was met. Now I have to figure out how to get it back so I can be comfortable with it....so now its not BLAH its.....CCCAAALLLMMMNNNEEESSS

CAlfonso · Post by **CAlfonso** » Fri Feb 29, 2008 8:30 am

At one point when I was sitting and reading I actually said to myself "Get up and do something you're not doing anything you're just sitting here!" My reply to myself was "There is nothing that needs to be done right now and I AM doing something, something I like doing -reading, so self "shut up." Crazy huh. But it worked. Insights are good but then comes the "now what?" And hopefully another insight will come and the cycle continues. This is a good thing!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Mar 01, 2008 12:52 am

That is great!!! With session 2 its teaching me how to listen to that inner negative voice that doesn't allow you to stay calm but to stay in overdrive mode. I can't wait for that calmness feeling to come back.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Mar 03, 2008 7:04 am

Wow - that's exactly how I've been feeling today. Had a good weekend, quiet time for myself and the Program and came to work so BLAH - thought I was getting depressed again too. It's so cool that we're actually recovering - this blah isn't blah at all. It's a calm, no drama, productive day. What a blessing. Thanks again all, Laura.