afraid of what I will do
I hear people talking on the program about how they are afraid of what they will do or act in certain situations but is anyone afraid they will act out violently or out of control? I can often picture myslef acting in such outrageous manners like I picture myself throwing a book across the room or such screaming at the top of my lungs in a public place! I feel like since I can picture myself doing it then I am really going to act that way. Is anyone else afraid of how they will act or afraid that they will completely lose it and just start acting crazy??
There is times that I am scared to death of just losing it as well Allison. "What if" I can't stop myself from throwing things when I am mad? "What if" I can't stop myself from ripping my clothes off and running through the mall....See the pattern? It is the what ifing that gets us and the more you dwell on it the more it scares you. I found that I try to find humor in what goes through my mind helps. Like oh well if I run through the mall naked, I am sure I will give some old man a good smile for the day. Try not to dwell on the nagative in it, there is always positive sometimes we just have to dig real dig to find it in ourselves.