I'm tired.....
of feeling not worthy, of feeling guilty, of feeling like i'm a failure. of thinking I'm unlovable, of judging myself and being my own worst enemy and critic. I'm hoping that as I go through session 9 all of these feelings of guilt and shame are increasing because I am going through a growth spurt. It's hard. really hard to let go of these yucky thought patterns. I know deep down they only cause suffering, but in some sick strange way it's all I've known and at least it's predictable. I think that's why I'm having such a hard time letting go.
Aleisa, drag out that old journal, note pad, etc. and start using the 'reversal' of negative thought pattern. Begin to use your positive thought dialogue/I'm creative,smart,intelligent, etc. etc. etc. Growth spurts just force us to keep up the "positive dialogue". It's in YOU! You can do it!!! It's all about our "thinking" and you know that!!! and you have it in you to "change" it! It's all about how WE respond...remember that my friend 
take care and God bless.
take care and God bless."O God, you are my God. Earnestly I seek you;my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water. I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory. Because your love is BETTER than life,my lips will glorify you. I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name, I will lift up my hands." Psalms 63