i need some advice or support
Ive been suffering from panic since i was 16. im now 22. i dont have a normal life im always anxious i think im agoraphobic. as i write this im crying cause theres just no helping me. i cant get relief from this and im at my breaking point. i want to give up and just die cause atleast i wouldnt have to deal with this fear anymore. i remember what it was like to be normal and fear free. i see my friends living that way and i want my life back. i pray and ask god to help me and i get no response. i dont have medical insurance so i cant get my meds my mom has to get them from her doctor. i cant get affordable counseling cause i cant work and have no income. my mom is my safe person and i have serperation anxiety so she is tired of it to. ive not only ruined my life but my moms too. i cant do this anymore. im sad all the time. i dont want to kill myself but i wish i would just die and get it over with. i need help some kind of help. i wish there was a magic pill. im so scared ill live this way for the rest of my life and never amount to anything. i want so bad to make my family proud and be proud of myself. i cant do that like this. please if you have any help for me please let me know.
Indysgirl
First off you can do this. I was exactly like you although mine started to get bad that last year of high school.....and it continued to downslide and I got to the point that I wasnt working, I was afraid to be home alone so I would have my husband drive me to my moms before he went to work early in the am so I would be with them......going to the mailbox was as fearfull to me as jumping out of an airplaine. What had happened to me why I was such a fun girl. But you know what? We can what if that and what if this but it doesnt matter how it happened it did and we can fix this. I promise you that.
Im living proof. I am now 37 years old and Im married for 15 years have two beautiful children and I am doing it. Is everything sunshine and roses everyday no it isnt but thats ok I can handle that now. and you will be able to also
I know you say money is an issue right now due to not working but if you can get the program its going to change your life! I did this without medication. I tried some therapy but you know what the $$$$ I spent on that oh my gosh.
Its hard to believe but you feel this way because we allow it to happen. Just listen to your post....very negative (and thats to be expected its hard to be positive when you cant understand why something is happening) but you can start to turn it around. God has answered your prayers he brought you here to this forum and to this program hes giving you a clear cut sign he cant MAKE you take hold you have to do that.
The skills in this program are priceless.....you will learn how to breath correctly something we dont do and that causes us to feel crumby, youll learn how to approach life with a positive attitude and how to talk to yourself so that you are encouraging and inspiring not selfdestructive, youll learn how to eat and exercise to boost your energy levels. These are just some examples the list of priceless information goes on and on.
Dont give up....Im going to Private Message you cuz theres something I want to say so look for it ok.
YOU CAN DO THIS>
Dodger
First off you can do this. I was exactly like you although mine started to get bad that last year of high school.....and it continued to downslide and I got to the point that I wasnt working, I was afraid to be home alone so I would have my husband drive me to my moms before he went to work early in the am so I would be with them......going to the mailbox was as fearfull to me as jumping out of an airplaine. What had happened to me why I was such a fun girl. But you know what? We can what if that and what if this but it doesnt matter how it happened it did and we can fix this. I promise you that.
Im living proof. I am now 37 years old and Im married for 15 years have two beautiful children and I am doing it. Is everything sunshine and roses everyday no it isnt but thats ok I can handle that now. and you will be able to also
I know you say money is an issue right now due to not working but if you can get the program its going to change your life! I did this without medication. I tried some therapy but you know what the $$$$ I spent on that oh my gosh.
Its hard to believe but you feel this way because we allow it to happen. Just listen to your post....very negative (and thats to be expected its hard to be positive when you cant understand why something is happening) but you can start to turn it around. God has answered your prayers he brought you here to this forum and to this program hes giving you a clear cut sign he cant MAKE you take hold you have to do that.
The skills in this program are priceless.....you will learn how to breath correctly something we dont do and that causes us to feel crumby, youll learn how to approach life with a positive attitude and how to talk to yourself so that you are encouraging and inspiring not selfdestructive, youll learn how to eat and exercise to boost your energy levels. These are just some examples the list of priceless information goes on and on.
Dont give up....Im going to Private Message you cuz theres something I want to say so look for it ok.
YOU CAN DO THIS>
Dodger
hi,
i had what you have and after i went through the program and got the skills and tools i continued on my journey and am now able to do anything i want to do..if you do not think that you will ever get better then you want..you have to want to in order to get well..it takes time to do that and i had it all my life nd am now 61 and will never give in to something i can beat..you said that you prayed and asked GOD for help and got no response..sometimes we have to be still and he will answer in his time. remember that his time is different from ours..i do not mean to sound mean but you have to get mad at it in order for something to work.your mom is your safe person..my room was my safe place when i was in that situation. then when i got remarried my wife was mine and i was hers...i know your mom loves you and would do anything to hep you...now what you have to do is to try and do a few things at a time and tell her how much you appreciate what she has done for you..please let me know how you are doing. i will help in any way that i can..you will be someone and will be free of this..you will not live like this the rest of your life..the reason i did was because i did not get help when i could have and waitied so long..take care and know that you are in our thoughts and prayers and GOD BLESS..
DON
i had what you have and after i went through the program and got the skills and tools i continued on my journey and am now able to do anything i want to do..if you do not think that you will ever get better then you want..you have to want to in order to get well..it takes time to do that and i had it all my life nd am now 61 and will never give in to something i can beat..you said that you prayed and asked GOD for help and got no response..sometimes we have to be still and he will answer in his time. remember that his time is different from ours..i do not mean to sound mean but you have to get mad at it in order for something to work.your mom is your safe person..my room was my safe place when i was in that situation. then when i got remarried my wife was mine and i was hers...i know your mom loves you and would do anything to hep you...now what you have to do is to try and do a few things at a time and tell her how much you appreciate what she has done for you..please let me know how you are doing. i will help in any way that i can..you will be someone and will be free of this..you will not live like this the rest of your life..the reason i did was because i did not get help when i could have and waitied so long..take care and know that you are in our thoughts and prayers and GOD BLESS..
DON
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Susan Horrom
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indysgirl
I spent the last year in useless fear and guilt and I just figured it out between my journal and the 3rd week program. I was almost afraid of anyone in town I had to prepare myself to go shopping at the grocery store. Sometimes it would take me 1/2 day to get it together. But a couple days ago I was writing in my journal and there it was. I was obsessing over somthing that wasn't even my fault. My head feels lots clearer now. I can't wait to see whats next.
I spent the last year in useless fear and guilt and I just figured it out between my journal and the 3rd week program. I was almost afraid of anyone in town I had to prepare myself to go shopping at the grocery store. Sometimes it would take me 1/2 day to get it together. But a couple days ago I was writing in my journal and there it was. I was obsessing over somthing that wasn't even my fault. My head feels lots clearer now. I can't wait to see whats next.
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Susan Horrom
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annastime1
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never give up
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Hello!I so feel this way!I've been pushing myself out of my house with help of family {not my husband}He's very negative and absolutely gives me no support.Actually just the opposite.Anyway I had been housebound for almost 2 years.I'm getting out now but I have to say it's been a heck of a struggle.The other day i had to go out and I just broke down saying that it's just to hard!Needless to say I went anyway!I was freaking out but i understand that it's all forward from here.I've also been praying and the whisper that i keep hearing is "Trust Me"!That is what I'm doing.I just want to say that I to have this terrible anxiety everyday but I'm not giving up!I also don't have money for getting help.I've suffered from this for 12 years!The true help comes from god and ourselves.Pray,trust,and move forward.After all it comes down to being stuck or pressing forward.Sadly there is no magic pill.God let's us go through these things to see how we'll respond and also to make us into the person that he made us to really be.That means being strong even through the storm.You can do this!There is a right way out.Just cling to Jesus!God Bess You!
Indygirl,
I know that you have been dealing with this since you were sixteen so you feel like it is hopeless, but the truth is that you are still so very young and my prayer is that you will know that you're life is just beginning:).
My very severe anxiety began after my son was diagnosed with autism when I was 26. I was so bad the past few years that I was sure that I could not be healed. Over the past few months I am doing things I never thought I would be able to do again so if I can be healed, anyone can, and I really mean that. I don't react well to medications so I had to seek other treatments. This program was one treatment that I used, and it did make a tremendous difference.
One of the greatest ways that I have healed is spiritually. I'm not going to say that I have completely recovered from my husband being my safe person because sometimes it just takes a while to heal one step at a time, but you can't go wrong in seeking God and replacing your safe person with Him. This will take time, but God knows how to heal you in His time. He is so much more compassionate and patient than any person ever will be. He also lives on the inside of you and is with you wherever you are. Sometimes that just takes time to sink in from your brain to your heart, but it can happen:). Before I used this program, I remember one time that I had horrible agoraphobia, and I didn't want to be alone without my family. The truth is that I was keeping my husband from going to the store over a spring break vacation, and we were ordering take out way too much. The grocery store was less than a mile away. I just can not believe I couldn't make it now, but it is the truth. I was clearly having a horrible impact on my family, and I'm sure someone would have thought I needed to be hospitalized. My husband was definitely at his wits end. Our son wasn't sleeping and it was late at night, so I just went out to my car to get a break. My Quiet Times for Married Couples was in the car, and I just asked God what He thought of me right then because I was acting so horribly. I was sure he hated me because I was clearly being a horrible mother and wife with my anxiety. I opened the Quiet Times, and every page in a row was on anxiety saying "Do Not Be Afraid...", and how God loved me, it was also on how God is our true source of love and safety and understands us better than any person. There's a saying that says "we reach up as far as we can, and let God reach down the rest of the way." Just reach up as much as much as you can given your circumstances even with a tiny step if that's all you can do right now, and God will recognize it. Over the years, I can just clearly see that these situations kept happening with God. I remember being afraid to travel, and I was at a doctor's office. A Quiet Times was sitting on the table. On the cover was the following scripture. "He will protect your going out and your coming in both now and forever." (Psalm 121:8) I couldn't believe it. It took a while to digest, and the years have passed, and I can see that God was clearly speaking to me. His promise has been true. Your mother is just frustrated because she is human not because you are beyond help. God loves us unconditionally, and He will meet you where you are. There is help for you. It's His promise to you. You may not be miraculously healed today, but just look with different eyes. There is something that God is doing to help you at this very minute. It may seem small, but it is something. It is a nudge. It is finding this community online, and having the opportunity to order this program. It's a quote from a book. It's seeing Lucinda on t.v. or hearing her commercial on the radio. I don't know for sure what it is, but it's something, I promise. He's there with you, and He will never leave you or forsake you. I read a lesson from a Quiet Times that says "Remember the Lord knows and understands our physical limitations-better than you, better than anyone. So you must accept them and then choose wisely what you are going to do with the physical strength that you do have." You are suffering right now, but you had the ability to logically reach out to this community. Anxiety is not who you are . . . it's just an emotion that passes through you. Lucinda says you are going to be better than you were before. I remember reading that in her book one time, and then talking to a Christian friend who said the same thing to me not knowing I had just read that quote in her book. In addition, there is scripture that says that God can use us the most when we feel weak. 'My grace is enough for you, because My power is made perfect in weakness.' I will have pride in my weaknesses and have joy because of them, so Christ's power can be in me" (2 Corinthians 12:8-9) Maybe right now you feel like you can't do it, but if you learn to draw on God's strength which may take a while to comprehend He will give you His strength.
As far as not getting counseling or medication, please check with your local community health center. I think almost all of them have some type of free counseling and help with meds or that help is based on a sliding scale. Also look into getting this program for sure:). In addition, always consider your local library for help. I checked out Lucinda's book "From Panic to Power" at a very low point, and it helped me. You can do that for free. Libraries also offer free inter-library loan services to get materials from other libraries if they don't have them, and even e-books and delivery services if you can't travel right now. I also highly recommend that you consider a local church's library to check out books by Christian authors for free:). Joyce Meyers is really great. Also there are many Christian authors who have struggled with fear and have books on how God has delivered them. Patsy Clairmont is a great Christian author that used to battle with agoraphobia. You can get access to these sources for free.
I and others will be praying for you. You are going to be healed one step at a time.
God Bless You
I know that you have been dealing with this since you were sixteen so you feel like it is hopeless, but the truth is that you are still so very young and my prayer is that you will know that you're life is just beginning:).
My very severe anxiety began after my son was diagnosed with autism when I was 26. I was so bad the past few years that I was sure that I could not be healed. Over the past few months I am doing things I never thought I would be able to do again so if I can be healed, anyone can, and I really mean that. I don't react well to medications so I had to seek other treatments. This program was one treatment that I used, and it did make a tremendous difference.
One of the greatest ways that I have healed is spiritually. I'm not going to say that I have completely recovered from my husband being my safe person because sometimes it just takes a while to heal one step at a time, but you can't go wrong in seeking God and replacing your safe person with Him. This will take time, but God knows how to heal you in His time. He is so much more compassionate and patient than any person ever will be. He also lives on the inside of you and is with you wherever you are. Sometimes that just takes time to sink in from your brain to your heart, but it can happen:). Before I used this program, I remember one time that I had horrible agoraphobia, and I didn't want to be alone without my family. The truth is that I was keeping my husband from going to the store over a spring break vacation, and we were ordering take out way too much. The grocery store was less than a mile away. I just can not believe I couldn't make it now, but it is the truth. I was clearly having a horrible impact on my family, and I'm sure someone would have thought I needed to be hospitalized. My husband was definitely at his wits end. Our son wasn't sleeping and it was late at night, so I just went out to my car to get a break. My Quiet Times for Married Couples was in the car, and I just asked God what He thought of me right then because I was acting so horribly. I was sure he hated me because I was clearly being a horrible mother and wife with my anxiety. I opened the Quiet Times, and every page in a row was on anxiety saying "Do Not Be Afraid...", and how God loved me, it was also on how God is our true source of love and safety and understands us better than any person. There's a saying that says "we reach up as far as we can, and let God reach down the rest of the way." Just reach up as much as much as you can given your circumstances even with a tiny step if that's all you can do right now, and God will recognize it. Over the years, I can just clearly see that these situations kept happening with God. I remember being afraid to travel, and I was at a doctor's office. A Quiet Times was sitting on the table. On the cover was the following scripture. "He will protect your going out and your coming in both now and forever." (Psalm 121:8) I couldn't believe it. It took a while to digest, and the years have passed, and I can see that God was clearly speaking to me. His promise has been true. Your mother is just frustrated because she is human not because you are beyond help. God loves us unconditionally, and He will meet you where you are. There is help for you. It's His promise to you. You may not be miraculously healed today, but just look with different eyes. There is something that God is doing to help you at this very minute. It may seem small, but it is something. It is a nudge. It is finding this community online, and having the opportunity to order this program. It's a quote from a book. It's seeing Lucinda on t.v. or hearing her commercial on the radio. I don't know for sure what it is, but it's something, I promise. He's there with you, and He will never leave you or forsake you. I read a lesson from a Quiet Times that says "Remember the Lord knows and understands our physical limitations-better than you, better than anyone. So you must accept them and then choose wisely what you are going to do with the physical strength that you do have." You are suffering right now, but you had the ability to logically reach out to this community. Anxiety is not who you are . . . it's just an emotion that passes through you. Lucinda says you are going to be better than you were before. I remember reading that in her book one time, and then talking to a Christian friend who said the same thing to me not knowing I had just read that quote in her book. In addition, there is scripture that says that God can use us the most when we feel weak. 'My grace is enough for you, because My power is made perfect in weakness.' I will have pride in my weaknesses and have joy because of them, so Christ's power can be in me" (2 Corinthians 12:8-9) Maybe right now you feel like you can't do it, but if you learn to draw on God's strength which may take a while to comprehend He will give you His strength.
As far as not getting counseling or medication, please check with your local community health center. I think almost all of them have some type of free counseling and help with meds or that help is based on a sliding scale. Also look into getting this program for sure:). In addition, always consider your local library for help. I checked out Lucinda's book "From Panic to Power" at a very low point, and it helped me. You can do that for free. Libraries also offer free inter-library loan services to get materials from other libraries if they don't have them, and even e-books and delivery services if you can't travel right now. I also highly recommend that you consider a local church's library to check out books by Christian authors for free:). Joyce Meyers is really great. Also there are many Christian authors who have struggled with fear and have books on how God has delivered them. Patsy Clairmont is a great Christian author that used to battle with agoraphobia. You can get access to these sources for free.
I and others will be praying for you. You are going to be healed one step at a time.
God Bless You