Longing for my spiritual healing that I have lost

CG822 · Post by **CG822** » Sun Apr 19, 2009 12:48 pm

I use to have so much faith, and I didn't worry too much. I have a sense of my inner peace and strength and I freely let God handle all my troubles. After a turn of events in ones life I just don't feel that way anymore. I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve, worrying far too much then I need to. Depression has been my BFF for the last week due to a break-up. I cannot take it anymore and will do ANYTHING to get my trust and faith back into God. I am praying up a storm and I am telling him I am so sorry I lost my faith, I really want it back, I very badly want my inner peace back. I know it is all inside me but it buried under hurt and turmoil. I have so many emotions its ridiculous! I cannot seem to control them at times.

I always said that my faith defined me. Now I dont know what does. I love God soooooo much and I love being a catholic. I need spiritual healing all over again. I use to be much more confident then this. It is significant in my mind when I had the inner peace, I see a picture of myself laying in bed, reading a book, retaining all of it and enjoying it, having a natural high, being content with myself. Now I have to read one chapter 8 times and I may retain a few sentences, I am so consumed by life and not being happy, I just hate it.

I need me back, I need to get my faith back. I am still seeking my therapist and meds for my anxiety and depression. But more then anything, I am trying to seek God and his undying love for me that I know is there and I feel so horrible that at the current moment in my life, I do not feel it.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Apr 19, 2009 12:58 pm

Dear CG,
I recommend you watch this video...

Father's Love Letter

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Apr 19, 2009 1:18 pm

Thank You Ms. T. I listened to it twice!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Apr 19, 2009 1:34 pm

You are sooo welcome!!!! I, also, suggest that you find some time alone to be in God's presence. Make your requests known unto Him.

Remember, the Bible says, "He will keep in perfect peace all those who trust in Him"...

Maybe, the trials of this life have weighed you down, and you have stopped trusting!!!!

I make a habit of saying, "Jesus I trust you to take excellent care of me, and all of my problems. "I cast all of my cares and anxieties upon you, because I know you care for me!"

Give all of your problems to God, and then walk away. Remember, once you have given them to Him, they no longer belong to you. They are His, and He will take care of all the stressors for you. Just like a child who blindly trusts its parents, trust Jesus in this child-like blind way!!!!

Every time a negative thought pops into your head...Give it to Jesus...Trust Him to take excellent care of the problem!!!!!

I pray this helped!!! God Bless!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Apr 19, 2009 2:35 pm

Its like Im reading my own words again, What you say is exactly how I use to be!!!! How is it that I have forgotten?????

How do i get it back...I feel I've forsaken him..

Thank You for your words, they are really helping, I am going to write them down and take them everywhere with me!!!! I need constant reminders, my past anxiety has caused me to forget everything and just be focused on irrational bad things.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Apr 19, 2009 2:36 pm

How do I be alone in his presences? When I pray at night? suggestions please?? I use to remember feeling his warmth, I havent felt it in so long.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Apr 19, 2009 8:26 pm

Hi CG822,Find time to be alone with your Bible.Before reading,pray and ask the Lord to help you to recieve whatever it is He has for you in in His word.I always take time to confess my sins ask for forgiveness and thank Him for His mercy and grace.We want to come to Him with a clean heart.

After spending time in the word,contemplate what you read.Just be in His presence,He,ll be there with you.He will minister to your heart.

Liz

pinkeetoz · Post by **pinkeetoz** » Sun Apr 19, 2009 8:59 pm

Thank You. I am always praying asking for forgiveness, strength, inner peace, guidance and to cleanse me of the negative things and to fill me with positive light. My prayers get longer and longer and I know he doesnt mind!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Apr 20, 2009 3:41 am

Dear CG,

Anytime you find yourself alone, you can use this opportunity to pray...That is what I meant by "alone time".....God Bless!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Apr 20, 2009 6:29 am

ITs so hard!!! This depression just loves me. I miss someone and it just sucks.